JAMES
I found myself back at the college. Iâd agreed to this because I knew Iâd see her again.
Iâd picked her for the debate because I knew sheâd excel. But I hadnât expected her to look so worn out. She looked like she hadnât slept in weeks.
When Claire bursts into the class looking for Anna, Iâm instantly on edge. I canât help it. Seeing the look in Annaâs eyes, I know somethingâs wrong.
âIs she okay?â she asks.
~Whoâs she?~ I wonder.
Claire just shakes her head and Anna quickly gathers her things.
âWhere is she?â Everything happens so fast. Sheâs out of the classroom before I can blink.
âAnna?!â
âNot now, James,â she throws over her shoulder as she bolts out the door.
Iâm left standing there, worried. The class immediately starts buzzing with gossip.
âHey, cut it out,â I tell them when I catch snippets of their conversation. Theyâre saying ridiculous things, like sheâs being sent back to a mental hospital.
âCut what out?â a snippy blonde student asks.
âTalking about her like you know her,â I snap back.
âNobody knows her. She doesnât talk to any of us.â
âExactly. And for the record, Anna doesnât need a mental hospitalâI know her,â I confess.
âHow do you know her?â Before I can answer, Anna comes rushing back in, tears streaming down her face.
âJames!â she cries, fear lacing her voice.
âDid you drive here?â
I nod at her.
âCan you take me to the hospital?â This worries me even more. Anna despises hospitals. She wouldnât go near one unless it was absolutely necessary.
âJames, I need you!â she pleads, and thatâs all it takes. I grab my bag and keys and follow her out. Sheâs already gone. When I step into the hallway, I see her holding a small child.
~Sheâ¦~
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~Has a daughter?~
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Anna has a daughter.
âYouâre a mom?â I ask her.
âNo you idiot, sheâs just randomly carrying a child,â Claire retorts, making me feel like a jerk.
The rest of the walk to my car is a blur. Now it all makes senseâwhy her parents kicked her out, why she looks so exhausted. Sheâs a mom.
Anna settles the little girl in the back of the car, trying to keep her awake. I wonder who the child is.
She looks about two, maybe three. Sheâs adorable. She has light brown hairâshe looks a lot like her mom.
âJames, go!â Anna yells.
âLovebug, you need to stay awake,â she tells the little girl in my backseat.
~Lovebug?~
âLivvy, show me those beautiful eyes.â
âMomma, hurt,â the girl says, opening her eyes.
âI know, baby, weâre almost there.â
The little girl looks at me in the mirror and I see them. My eyes. Emerald-green eyes staring back at me.
This is my daughter. Anna had my daughter.
~What have I done?~
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The little girl closes her eyes again.
âOlivia,â Anna says.
~Olivia. Such a beautiful name.~
âDamn it, James. Drive faster. Please,â she pleads, hitting the back of my seat. I nod at her, fighting back tears. I canât believe sheâs had to go through all this alone.
No wonder she was so angry at me⦠I hadnât kept in touch. She couldnât tell me she was pregnant.
Five minutes later, we pull up to the emergency entrance of the hospital. Anna jumps out and grabs Olivia from her car seat. I get out of the car and follow them.
Inside, itâs chaos. A nurse approaches Anna and looks at Olivia with pure worry.
âAnna?â the nurse asks. âWhat happened?â
âJackie, her temp spiked. Thirty minutes ago it was 105. She also has chest pain.â
âCome here, little Olivia,â the nurse says, taking Olivia from Annaâs arms and placing her on a stretcher.
âIâll go get the doctor. Please change her.â Anna nods.
âJames,â she says.
âItâs okay,â I try to reassure her.
âNo, itâs not. I was going to tell you after class. I promise.â I nod at her. I know she would have done the right thing. The last time we met, she must have been too shocked to tell me.
âI canât believe weâre here again,â she says.
âAgain?â I ask.
âYes,â she confirms. And all I can do is worry more.
~Weâre hereâagain.~
âCan you help me?â she asks.
âOf course.â
âI need to change her. Close the curtains and get my backpack.â I do as she asks while she undresses Olivia. My little girl looks back at me.
âHi, princess,â I say to her.
âHi,â she replies shyly. I take the clothes from Anna and put them in her backpack.
The curtains open and a doctor comes in.
âOlivia Johnson-Brown?â the doctor asks.
~Brown?~ ~She gave her my last name?
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âYes. You know us, Doctor Frank,â Anna says, wiping away her tears.
âAnna? What happened?â
Anna starts explaining what happened and the doctor shakes his head.
âAnna, we need to dig deeper. We need a family history. This is not normal, itâs her sixth pneumonia in less than half a year. The last two months have been too much.â
Iâm stunned. Damn it, my baby girl is sick. Really sick. Anna gives me an apologetic look. I shake my head.
âWhat do you need?â I ask the doctor.
âWho are you?â he questions me.
âJames Brown.â The doctor lets out a sigh of relief.
âThank God,â he exclaims, tossing his head back and lifting his hands skyward.
âWe need your family historyâanything from asthma to cancer. We need to conduct an MRI to see whatâs happening.â
âWhy didnât you do that before? The MRI, I mean.â Iâm confused. Why wouldnât they have done it if they knew it was necessary?
âWe couldnât. Anna is paying the hospital in installments. We canât just perform an MRI without receiving the paymentâwithout insurance itâs ten thousand dollars.
âAnna does have insurance, but itâs still twenty-five hundred dollars, and thatâs not including the stay. She canât afford it,â he explains, and a wave of guilt washes over me.
Sheâs been dealing with all of this on her own. No wonder sheâs so exhausted.
âI have the money,â Anna interjects.
âDo the MRI. Iâve been working double shifts for the past few weeks. Just do it.
âIâve told you everything I know about her fatherâs side. Iâm almost positive Iâve covered everything. Just do the MRI, Iâll figure it out.â
The doctor nods and they prepare to move Olivia out of the ER.
âWeâll escort you to her room.â We nod in agreement.
âBye, Lovebug,â Anna whispers, planting a kiss on the top of her head.
The nurse guides us up to the fifth floor, the pediatric ward. As soon as we enter the room, Anna lets out a sigh and crumples to the floor.