Rutland
âI was practically rolling on the couch, laughing so hard,â Sasha, with her lively spirit, recounts a particularly hilarious event from the party, setting off a round of laughter. The partyâs buzz is kind of winding down, and here I am, tucked away in the kitchen with her and my sister Amber. Weâre swapping stories, laughing over tonightâs crazy moments.
âYou guys are like, perfect for each other, Amber,â I say, totally admiring the love she shares with her husband.
âItâs like, a match made in heaven,â Sasha says with this big grin on her face.
âYou two are just nuts together,â I throw in, and we all burst out laughing.
Amber looks at me then, all curious. âSo, when are you heading back to Wesbury, Aisling?â
âThursday morning,â I say, and thereâs this little twinge of sadness inside me. Time with family always flies too fast.
âWhy not Sunday?â Amberâs eyes are all puzzled.
I shake my head. âCanât. I wanted to leave Saturday, but Dukeâs not down with me staying another Friday here.â
âWe hardly get to see you, though. Whyâs he being like this? Why didnât he come with you?â Amberâs digging now, her concern all over her face.
âJust work stuff,â I say, keeping my voice light, even though thereâs more to it.
âI donât buy it,â Amber says flat out, and Sashaâs nodding like she agrees.
I let out this breath, spilling the beans. âOkay, truth? Dukeâs not big on parties or anything. He only does a few, you know?â
âWhyâs that?â Amberâs pushing for more.
âAre you kidding? You knew this about him before we even got married,â I say, feeling this defensive edge creeping in.
âI get it, I met him in Cayland,â Amber tries to smooth it over.
âHeâs just into his Cayland scene, thatâs it,â I say, trying to brush the whole thing off.
âBut hey, weâve got till Thursday, right?â Sasha jumps in, flipping the script.
âYeah,â I agree, kind of relieved to switch topics.
âBut Iâm at work during the day,â Amber says, a bit apologetic.
âWhat about nights?â I ask, hoping we can make some plans.
Amber starts listing her evening routine â dinner, kids, homework, showers. Itâs a lot.
âYeah, youâre right,â I say, feeling the disappointment.
âWe should just tell the guys to step up, you know? They can handle the kids while we have some fun,â Sasha suggests, all hopeful.
âThat could work,â Amber says, warming up to the idea.
âLetâs do it. Letâs plan something for this week,â I say, feeling hopeful again.
Sitting cross-legged on this queen-sized bed in the guest room later that night, phone pressed against my ear, Iâm trying to wrap my head around what Momâs saying.
âWait, Duke actually showed up at the café today?â I canât hide the shock in my voice.
âYep, you heard that right,â she confirms.
I frown. âBut why? What was he doing there?â
âHe was just checking in, making sure everything was okay,â she says.
I shake my head, baffled. âI canât believe it. He never does stuff like that.â
âWell, he did this time,â Mom says, like itâs no big deal.
âAnd we just talked an hour ago. He didnât even mention it,â I say, feeling kind of thrown off.
âHe doesnât have to tell you his every move, Aisling,â she points out.
âI guess not,â I sigh, still trying to get it. âWere there many people there?â
âA bunch,â she says.
âI bet they were surprised to see him,â I say, trying to picture it.
âTotally. You shouldâve seen their faces,â she agrees.
âWhat was he really doing there?â I canât help but ask again.
âJust making sure we were fine. He even talked to some customers,â she says.
âHe talked to people?â Thatâs so not like Duke.
âYeah, just small talk,â she repeats.
I pause, still processing. âAnd youâre not surprised by this?â
âNot really,â she says like itâs nothing. âAnyway, how was the ceremony today?â
âIt was incredible, Mom. Iâm so glad Iâm here. Did you see the pictures I sent?â I switch gears, eager to share.
âI did. You looked amazing in that hat,â she says warmly.
âReally?â I canât help but smile.
âAbsolutely stunning,â she assures me.
âThanks, Mom. Everyone kept saying that,â I say, feeling a bit of a glow.
âDid a lot of people show up?â she asks, her voice all warm and curious.
âYeah, it was packed. Kids running around everywhere. Everyoneâs having babies. All my childhood friends are now married with their own little ones. Theyâre super busy,â I tell her, feeling this wave of joy in my voice. âI was the only one without kids, but I was totally okay with it.â
âYouâll be in their shoes soon enough,â she says, and I can hear her smiling through the phone.
âI hope so, Mom. I canât wait to have my own kids and bring them to family get-togethers. It would mean so much,â I admit, feeling this bubble of happiness and excitement in my chest.
âGodâs got this. Itâll happen for you,â she says, her optimism totally catching.
âOh, and guess who I ran into? Adam. Did I ever mention him to you?â The excitementâs building up in me.
âAdam? Whoâs that?â she asks.
âHe used to live a couple of houses down from Dadâs,â I explain.
âOh, the boy you used to talk about all the time?â she remembers.
âThatâs him! He was there,â I say, smiling so wide.
âThatâs nice to hear. You had a thing for him, right? I remember,â she says, acknowledging it.
âYeah, he was my first crush. Iâm glad I told you about him,â I reminisce, feeling my cheeks heat up a bit.
She laughs. âYou sure did. A little blast from the past, huh?â
âHe was so excited to see me, and I felt the same. Did I ever tell you he was my first kiss?â I ask, a bit hesitant.
âWhat?â she sounds totally surprised.
âYeah, Mom. We kissed,â I confess, my heart doing somersaults.
âAisling, you never told me that!â she sounds amazed, but not upset or anything.
âI couldnât tell you back then, could I? You were super strict during my high school years. And that was even before Duke came into the picture,â I explain, a wave of nostalgia hitting me.
Momâs curious, as always. âSo, what did you and Adam chat about?â
âOh, we caught up on everything. What heâs up to, my life⦠Turns out, he already knew a bunch about me,â I say, feeling a warmth at the memory of our conversation.
âIs he married?â she asks, straight to the point.
âNope, not married. Seems like heâs one of those commitment-phobic guys, like so many these days,â I say, a hint of sadness in my voice.
âToxic generation,â Mom sighs, her worry clear.
âBut get this â he works for the State now,â I add, still kind of impressed by that.
âNice. And where are you right now?â she wonders.
âJust at the house,â I reply.
âAnd the hotel? When are you heading there?â sheâs full of questions.
âIâm staying here tonight. They insisted I donât go back to my hotel,â I explain.
âWhat about Bianca? Is she at the house too?â she asks.
âNo, sheâs at the hotel,â I tell her.
âIâve got to run, honey. Iâll call you when Iâm home,â she says, all love and warmth.
âOkay, Mom. Thanks for everything,â I say, ending the call.
I walk into the nursery, where Sashaâs busy changing baby Khalebâs diaper.
âDone talking?â Sasha looks up.
âThat was Mom. She says hi,â I tell her.
âHi, Miss Elena,â Sasha says with a smile.
âYou wonât believe who showed up at the café today,â I start, still amazed.
âDuke?â Sasha guesses right off the bat.
âHowâd you guess?â Iâm impressed.
âJust a hunch. Heâs not exactly a regular there,â she explains.
âYouâre too quick,â I laugh.
âThatâs really nice of him to drop by,â she says.
âIâm still in shock. He didnât even mention it when we talked earlier,â I admit.
âHe doesnât have to, you know,â Sasha says, sounding so casual about it.
I sink into this cozy nursing chair beside the changing table, and I canât help but think of Duke.
âDo you miss him?â Sasha asks, looking over at me with these really empathetic eyes.
âYeah, like crazy,â I admit, feeling this ache of missing him.
âItâs only been a couple of days,â she points out.
âI know. Itâs kind of pathetic, right? Iâm just so crazy about him, Sasha. Itâs gotten even more intense now,â I say, feeling all open and vulnerable.
Sasha gives me this sweet, understanding smile. âYou two are amazing together.â
âHeâs everything to me. The love of my life,â I say, and I can feel my heart just swelling with love for him.
âSo, how are you gonna handle being in Rich Oaks without him?â she teases me a little.
âIâll just have to keep busy, like always. But seriously, we need to have a baby soon, Sasha,â I find myself saying, feeling that longing more than ever.
âYouâre going to be an incredible mom,â Sasha says, her voice full of warmth and encouragement.
âI hope so. And Duke, I canât even imagine what heâll be like as a dad,â I say, trying to picture it.
Sasha laughs. âHeâll be indescribable, thatâs for sure.â