Wesbury
Iâm curled up in the backseat of my official car, heading to catch a private plane to Rich Oaks. On the phone with Elsa, the conversation is a mix of light-hearted banter and underlying seriousness.
âYou missed that too,â I tell her, a hint of teasing in my voice.
âCan you believe it? Iâm missing out on everything fun,â she laments.
âYou really need to check yourself,â I reply, laughing softly.
She chuckles. âSo, whatâs your plan now?â
âMovies. Work. Meditating. Praying. Just getting myself ready,â I say, my voice a mix of determination and resignation.
âIâve got some new movies to suggest,â she offers enthusiastically.
âSend them my way,â I respond, grateful for the distraction.
Elsaâs tone shifts. âIs Duke with you?â
âNo, heâs got a meeting at the Tower. He had to leave,â I explain.
âIâm going to miss you, Aisling,â she says, a touch of sadness in her voice.
âIâll miss you too. But youâre coming to visit, right?â I ask, trying to keep the mood light.
âYes, Iâll come over,â she confirms, and I canât help but smile.
âYouâre the best, Elsa,â I say, feeling a surge of affection for her.
âI wish youâd stay here,â she admits softly.
âI canât,â I say, more to myself than to her. My tone is resolute, final.
âYou donât have to be away too long. Remember what happened to me. I donât want you to be next. It would break my heart,â she warns, her voice laced with concern.
I let out a snicker, but itâs hollow. âItâs already happened, Elsa,â I say, the words feeling heavy and real.
Thereâs a brief silence on the line.
âWhat? What did you say?â she asks, her voice filled with surprise and worry.
I glance at the driver, ensuring heâs focused on the road, the radio providing just enough cover for our conversation.
âI said, itâs already happened,â I repeat softly, a sense of vulnerability washing over me as I open up to Elsa about the depth of my heartache and the turmoil that lies beneath the surface.
âWhy are you telling me this now?â Elsaâs voice comes through, tinged with concern.
I hesitate. âI⦠havenât been able to talk about it. Itâs been really hard.â
âYour husband?â she asks, her voice soft yet probing.
âYes, Elsa,â I confirm, feeling tears threaten.
âI canât believe this, Aisling. When did it start?â
âItâs been going on for a while,â I admit, the words tasting bitter.
âAisling, you need to think about leaving before it gets worse,â Elsa advises, her tone serious.
âI know,â I say, the reality of the situation sinking in.
âHe wonât stop, Aisling. He might lay low for a bit to win you back, but heâll return to his ways. Have you confronted him?â she questions.
âNo,â I say, my heart sinking.
âBut he knows somethingâs off, right?â
âYes.â
âWho is she?â
âI only know her name. I havenât looked her up,â I say, a tear escaping down my cheek.
âWhy not?â
âI canât, Elsa. I just canât,â I reply, the pain still very overwhelming.
âI understand,â she says, her voice full of empathy.
âBut Iâm feeling stronger now. Thatâs why Iâm leaving,â I add, trying to sound more confident than I feel.
âAisling, Iâm so sorry. Iâm here for you. Iâll come to Rich Oaks. Weâll have fun, I promise.â
I wipe away my tears and manage a small laugh. âIâm looking forward to it.â
âI need to check on my dad. Iâll call you later, Ais. Cheer up.â Elsa says, ready to hang up.
âSure,â I end the call and place my phone back in my handbag. Staring out the car window, Iâm lost in thought, my pain and anger resurfacing.
My phone buzzes in my handbag, and Dukeâs name flashes on the screen. I let out a breath I didnât realize I was holding. The weight of the decision, to answer or not, pins me down. But as I stare at the incoming call, the weight of betrayal feels even heavier.
My finger hovers over the screen, and then, deliberately, I press âignoreâ. The tiny act of defiance brings both relief and a deluge of mixed feelings, marking the widening chasm between us.