Spring City
Shuffling through my things, I reach for the hairdryer. Itâs not just a hairdryer, itâs my hairdryer, and something about having it with me makes the unfamiliar more familiar.
âWhy are you packing that?â My motherâs voice cuts through my thoughts. She is helping me pack for Montaceito. Itâs not really about the hairdryer. It never is.
âI might need it. Iâm not stopping by The Chateau, and I donât want to share with Elsa,â I explain, my voice tight with the emotional turmoil Iâm feeling. I glance around my bedroom, feeling the finality of it all. âIâll come back to pack everything else later.â
She gives me a look, a silent ask thatâs more about my avoidance of the family estate than shared haircare.
âWhy donât you come home with me, Aisling?â she asks, her expression etched with sadness.
âNo, Mother,â I assert, the need for space pressing heavily on me. âI donât want him to find me in Montaceito.â
She nods, understanding my need for distance.
âI just need a few days with Elsa,â I add, my voice breaking. âI need her right now.â
Sheâs about to reply when the shrill ring of the phone interrupts us. I glance at the caller ID.
Jordan.
Oh no.
My heart sinks.
My mother canât meet my eyes. âDid you talk to him about⦠everything?â
Her silence speaks louder than words. Itâs like trying to stand up in a riverâs current, fighting against the force of revelations I wasnât prepared for.
âDid you call them?â
âI spoke to your dad last night. He might have talked to him,â she admits, hesitantly.
âWhy didnât you tell me you called him? You said youâd wait,â I demand, a mix of hurt and frustration in my voice.
âI was going to tell you,â she stammers, her eyes filled with a plea for understanding. The room feels charged with tension, the call from Jordan adding another layer of complexity to an already complicated situation.
âOh noâ¦â
I can feel my motherâs gaze drilling into the side of my head as the phone vibrates insistently in my hand. Her eyes are a silent plea, urging me to pick up. Taking a shaky breath, I press the answer button, holding the device up to my ear.
âHe, Jord?â
âHey, Aisling. How are you holding up?â
âIâm managing. How are you and everyone?â I ask, but there is a pause, heavy with unspoken questions.
âAisling, whatâs happening? I need you to be straight with me,â he pushes, getting right to the point.
âThereâs a lot, Jordan,â I admit, my voice wavering as I pace the room, memories of betrayal flooding my mind.
âWhatâs going on, Ais? Why am I the last to hear?â His voice cracks with hurt.
I close my eyes, pressing the bridge of my nose. âItâs complicated. A lot has⦠changed.â
His sigh resonates with a weariness Iâve never heard before. âThatâs not an answer.â
Everything threatens to crush me. âI know. I shouldâve told you sooner. But everythingâs so⦠messy right now.â
The line is silent for a moment, and I imagine Jordan taking a moment, processing what Iâve said, perhaps trying to piece together the fragments of information heâs received.
âWe should been there for each other, Ais,â he says, the hurt evident.
âI know, Jord. Iâm so sorry.â
Another pause, and then he says, âDadâs here. He wants to talk to you.â
My heart plummets. This isnât a conversation Iâm ready for. The air feels denser, like the weight of the entire world now sits squarely on my shoulders.
Handing the phone over, I hear the deep voice that has guided and sometimes dominated much of my life. âAisling.â
âDad.â
His voice, always commanding, doesnât falter. âThis marriage. It needs to end.â
A cold wave rushes over me. How did we get here? How did everything spiral so far out of control? The pressure inside builds, threatening to burst. But I bite down on my lip, holding back the torrent of emotion ready to spill out.
All I manage is a soft, âI know, Dad.â