Montaceito
Since leaving the chaos of Rich Oaks three days ago, Iâve been in agony. Dukeâs betrayal still hurts me deeply. At Elsaâs penthouse in Montecito, a place where I seek healing for my broken heart, I stand staring silently at the horizon far away.
Then I notice my phone ringing on the patio table. The display reads âJordan,â and a rush of mixed emotions runs through me.
Relief, anxiety, and anticipation.
I take a breath before answering.
âIâve been speaking with Monica.
âWho is she?â I ask.
âMonica. Sheâs a close friend of Dadâs. Sheâs willing to help with the divorce.â
Thereâs a pause that feels like an eternity, but when I finally speak, the words sound distant, even to me. âOkay,â I reply, trying to process this new information.
âSheâll be in Spring City to meet with you on Thursday,â he adds.
I pause for a moment, anxiety building up. âOkay.â
âDoes Thursday work for you?â
âThis Thursday?â I seek clarification.
âYes. Can you make it?â
âYes, Iâll be there.â
âYouâre not heading back to Spring City before then?â
âNo, Iâm not.â
âSo when are you planning to return?â
âOn Sunday.â
âGot it. Do you want Monica to meet you in Spring City or would Montecito be better?â
âSpring City works for me. Iâll drive there,â I confirm with Jordan.
âAlright, then thatâs settled,â he says.
âYeah.â
He changes the topic, âHow have you been holding up?â
I force a semblance of cheerfulness into my voice. âGreat. Iâm managing pretty well.â
âHas he reached out? Anything from him?â
âNo, nothing. We havenât talked since I left Rich Oaks.â
âOkay, I understand.â
âBut Iâm okay. Everythingâs fine.â
âDo you really want to go through with the divorce, Aisling?â
âYes, Jordan, I do.â My voice breaks, revealing the hurt beneath my facade.
âWhy do you ask?â
âI just need to make sure youâre sure about this. I never thought it would come to this.â
Silence ensues, and itâs one of those silences that says more than words ever could. After what feels like an age, I finally respond. âHe doesnât love me, Jordan. If he did, he wouldnât have hurt me like this.â The tears come unbidden, spilling over as I speak the painful truth. It is time I quit.
Jordan lets out a deep sigh. âI just want you to be happy, sis. Whatever that looks like.â
âI need to move on from him. Iâll be better off.â
âIf thatâs what will make you happy.â
âIt will.â
âOkay. I have to go now.â
âAlright.â
âIâll call you tomorrow.â
âIâll be waiting.â
âGoodnight, Aisling.â
âGoodnight.â The line goes dead, and Iâm left with the aching in my chest, each breath a reminder of the heartache Iâm enduring.
Leaning against the window, phone pressed to my ear, I listen intently as Aunt Genevaâs voice, tense with emotion. Iâm bombarding her with questions about our familyâs supposed curse.
âNo, Aisling, itâs not like you think,â she tries to correct my misconceptions.
âSo what really happened?â
âIâm going to tell you now.â
âIâm listening.â
âIâve been pregnant before,â she reveals.
Stunned, I manage to utter, âYou? Pregnant, Aunt?â
âYes, I was.â
âI had no idea.â
âI never would have mentioned it under normal circumstances.â
My voice is low as I ask, âWhat happened to the baby, Aunt?â
âI⦠I had an abortion.â
Iâm speechless, struggling to process her words. I had no idea sheâs been through that. After a moment, I find my voice, âAunt, please tell me thatâs not true.â
âIt is true, Aisling.â
âBut why? Why did you do it?â
âI was seventeen and terrified. I didnât know what else to do.â
âAuntâ¦â
âIn those days, your grandmother would have been furious. She might have disowned me.â
âMaybe there was another wayâ¦â
âI was too young and scared. And I couldnât turn to your grandfather for help.â
âHe was away on a military assignment. He never used to be home. So I went to see this woman in a nearby town, and she took it out. I couldnât go to the hospital cos I was so afraid.â
The pain in her voice was strong. âOhâ¦â
âI bled heavily for weeks. I thought I was going to die. Years after, we found out she did a shabby job on me and I havenât been able to conceive since. Your mother knows everything. She was the only person I could talk to at the time. And it was really tough on her.â
Tears brim in my eyes as I respond, âIâm so sorry, Aunt.â
âItâs in the past now, Aisling. But you needed to know,â she replies, her voice filled with a quiet strength.
âYes, I understand now.â
âThereâs no curse hanging over us. Thatâs why Iâm not backing down from this fight.â
âYouâre right. We canât give up.â A light laugh passes between us, a brief respite from the gravity of our talk.
âJust believe that you can have a child. Itâs only a matter of time. Trust in that.â
âI do believe,â I say, feeling a sense of resolve building within me.
âAre you feeling a bit better now?â Her voice is tinged with worry.
I manage a small laugh. âYeah, I think so.â
âOne day, youâll find someone who truly loves you. And then, everything will fall into place,â she says, her words offering a glimmer of hope for the future.
âIâm actually looking forward to it, Aunt.â
âIt will happen for you, Aisling. Howâs everything else going?â
âItâs okay. I have something to tell you, though. Iâm meeting with a divorce attorney this Thursday.â
âThatâs good. You need to get away from that family.â
âIâm on my way out, Aunt.â
âAre you sure you wonât see him and feel something again?â
âNot a chance, Aunt.â
âI used to like Duke, but not anymore. Heâs not the right one for you, Aisling. You deserve someone who will stand by you.â
I nod at her, âYouâre right, Aunt.â
âImagine, they accuse your wife of being cursed, and his solution is to have a child with someone else? Who does that?â
âJust him,â I sigh deeply, feeling the hurt all over again.
âIâm surprised he hasnât tried harder to reach you.â
âHeâs probably too embarrassed to call. I donât want to see his call anyway.â
âDo you think he knows where you are? Duke isnât the type to just give up.â
âHe doesnât know Iâm here. Elsaâs place is the last place heâd think of.â
âThereâs the big meeting tomorrow.â
âYeah, Iâm aware.â
âIâm ready for it. Do you want to come?â
I laugh, shaking my head. âNo, Aunt. Iâll pass.â