âDo you really think this is the right thing to do?â Leonard asks, his voice serious as we hit the tennis ball back and forth on the court behind the Cayland mansion.
âSheâs better off without me,â I respond, as I try to keep my focus on the game. âMy family wonât leave her in peace. Her dadâs right to want her out of this. If I had a daughter in her shoes, Iâd feel the same.â
âBut can you live without her, Duke?â Leonard probes deeper as he serves the ball, effortlessly.
âIâll have to,â I say.
âYouâll have to what?â he presses.
âIt wonât be easy,â I admit.
Leonard stops playing, his expression filled with concern. âYou knew where she was in Montecito. You gave her security, didnât you? She thought she was hiding, but you were still there, watching over her. You told her youâd leave alone, but you couldnât really let her go. How are you going to handle this after the annulment?â
Caught off guard by his directness, I falter in returning the serve. The ball bounces off the racketâs edge, veering away. âIâll always love her,â I admit, voice laced with resignation. âBut perhaps loving her means setting her free.â
The truth is, Iâve been clinging to her in any way I can, unable to fully let go. The thought of truly stepping back, of annulling our marriage, feels like ripping out a part of myself. But Iâm trapped in this paradox of wanting to protect her and knowing that my presence in her life brings nothing but chaos. Leonardâs question runs in my mind, and I donât have an answer. The reality of living without Aisling is something I canât even begin to comprehend.
âIf it means protecting her forever, Iâll do it. Iâll always love her. Thatâs the truth. But I have to let her go if she wants to,â I say to Leonard, feeling the ache of my decision deep in my chest.
Leonard shakes his head, clearly not convinced. He stops, holding the ball in his hand, the playful glint in his eyes replaced by seriousness. âYou think a divorce will change how you feel? The lengths youâll go to protect her? Even if you separate, you wonât be able to stop watching over her. Divorce isnât the answer, Duke. Youâre never going to stand back and watch someone else be with her.â
I let out a laugh, more to cover up my inner turmoil than anything else. âBut am I really helping her by bringing her back into this mess? No.â
âIâm afraid youâre not going to help her by letting her go either. You wonât be able to stay away,â Leonard counters, hitting the nail on the head.
My grip tightens on the racketâs handle. Heâs not wrong. Even when I tried to distance myself, my world revolved around her. Every decision, every action, somehow linked back to her. But I have to think of whatâs best for her, even if it shreds my heart.
âIâve made up my mind, Leonard,â I say firmly, âand I need you to prepare your team. Anything she asks for during this process, ensure she gets it. No questions asked.â
âItâs not going to work. I wonât waste my time on this,â he says, his skepticism clear in his tone.
âLeonard, Iâm serious.â
He studies me for a moment, then nods slowly, though his skepticism remains. âAlright, Duke. But remember, sometimes the things we do with the best intentions can lead to the most pain.â
We continue playing, but my mind is far from the game. Itâs consumed by the looming heartache, the sorrow of letting go of the one person I love more than anything, and the daunting challenge of facing life without her. Leonardâs words ring in my ears, and deep down, I know he might be right. But Iâm determined to set her free, even if it means enduring the greatest pain Iâve ever known.