At a bookstore, I ran into Kirari by chance.
It had been a long time since she had called out to me, and I involuntarily recalled the past, but now we were no longer even friends.
âSee you tomorrow.â
Nothing to talk about even if the two of us stayed together.
So I got in line at the cash register to buy the picture book.
âEhâ¦? Isnât it too soon to say goodbye? Youâre my friend, donât tell me youâre feeling lonely~.â
She clasped my shoulders in a friendly manner.
â¦â¦ I was surprised. Apparently, Iâm still in the âfriendâ category in Kirariâs mind.
ââ¦.. Lonely?â
We hadnât exchanged a single conversation since the entrance ceremony, but she didnât seem to care too much.
âItâs obvious, isnât it? Because weâve known each other since middle school~â
But Kirari smiles without malice.
She really seems to think of me as a friend.
(Really, I doubt she thinks anything of me.)
Maybe Kirari canât predict my emotions.
As someone who has always lived on her own, I always thought she was the type of person who didnât have much empathy for others, but â¦â¦ I guess it went as far as this â¦â¦.
I guess I am nothing more than a friend to Kirari.
I was just a convenient person to talk to when we were in junior high school.
âWell, yeah. Weâve known each other since middle school.â
However, I had no feelings for Kirari to get angry at her now either.
I didnât even feel bad enough to be stubborn and refuse, so I decided to make light conversation and brush it off.
âYes, thatâs rightâªâ¦ I have fond memoriesâ¦. We talked a lot in junior high school, didnât we? I was reading a lot of romance novels and stuff. When I think about it now, I was a little embarrassed.â
ââ¦â¦ I donât think itâs anything to be ashamed of. Donât you read anymore?â
âOf course I donât. Iâm a gal now, so thereâs no way Iâm a novelist, is there? I mean, I donât even read books at all~?â
âThen why are you in a bookstore?â
At the same time as I asked that question, Kirariâs smile suddenly disappeared.
âI wonder why â¦â¦.â
Probably something happened. Well, Iâm not interested enough to ask, so letâs pay the bill first.
Just as it was my turn, I bought the picture book.
And when I left the bookstore, Kirari followed behind me.
â⦠Ah, itâs âBeauty and the Beastâ â¦â¦. Oh, I see, I remember Ko-kun starring in the play. So thatâs why youâre studying? Hmm, thatâs great, isnât it?â
âItâs normal. You arenât buying anything, Kirari? Iâm going home.â
A little persistent.
I want her to let me go, but she continues to follow me.
âHmmmâ¦â¦ sorry, I lied. Actually, I was going to buy one. Today, Ryu-kun was so preoccupied with Mary that he didnât give me much time to do anything. â¦â¦ I was so upset that I was remembering the old days too. I was thinking of reading a novel for the first time in a long time, but then I changed my mind because Ko-kun was there.â
â¦â¦I didnât ask her about it.
But since she explained it to me, I understood most of what was going on.
As per Maryâs plot, Kirari seems to be steadily being forced out of her position. Iâm sure that she has become lonely because she is no longer in Ryuzakiâs favor.
So now she is trying to cling to the past.
Like when she was in junior high school, she is trying to tell herself that she is fine on her own.
But Kirari is no longer the Kirari of that time.
She is no longer okay being alone.
Thatâs why she is trying to rely on me this time.
She is trying to fill the loneliness that Ryuzaki canât fill with me.
Seeing her like that made me sad.
When we were in middle school, she was so cool to be so firm on her own.
âWell, â¦â¦ novels, you loved them so much â¦â¦, but you donât read them anymore. Kirari has â¦â¦ changed a lot.â
Itâs not just her hobbies and tastes that have changed, though.
I didnât have any special feelings for her that I wanted to tell her about, so I dared to blur it out.
Then Kirari laughed again.
It was as if we were in middle school, using â¦â¦ me to chat.
âNyahaha. Well, Iâm aware that Iâve changed, but if you â¦â¦ say that, Ko-kun is pretty changed too, no?â
ââ¦â¦ Me?â
I tilt my head back at those words.
I wonder if Kirari knows me well enough to talk about my changes.
That made me wonder.
What kind of person was I from Kirariâs point of view?