Narrator's pov
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White sheets hung over a variety of canvas that were lined around the attic, it seemed remotely clean for a place that people abandon or visit once a year to look for christmas lights. But Ember had turned the attic into her own place
The carpets were fluffy white, the walls were a light shade of brown which soaked in the beaming sun coming from the circular glass window of the attic
The glare of the sun showed the specs of dust, falling from the air and landing in the ground from the new activity being brought into the space
Ember grinned as she approached the covered canvas, her fingertips brushed over the fabric before tugging it off to reveal the painting
The colorful strokes of a painters brush created something majestic to the eye. Ember's imagination always ran wild when she was given a blank canvas and a few brushes to handle. The images were never still life, it was not something that resembled everyday life or objects. But instead, it was something only our emotions could picture
The brunette watched the painting, her eyes taking in every detail as it scanned it thoroughly like a scanner. Her smile slowly came wider with each glance
"You did that?" Gabrielle asked, stepping closer towards the painting
"Yes. When I was nine, I thought it was just random lines and splashes back then. I never realized how much I truly loved it until now" Ember muttered
Gabrielle saw the light in her eyes, the type that only sparked when we were truly happy with something. It even brought a smile to her own face just looking at the girl being excited over her work, even though she didn't show it physically
"It's really pretty" Gabrielle said
"It's really noth-"
"Shhh, it's beautiful Ember" Gabrielle said, turning her head to face the girl
"Just like you"
The brunette's eyes widened quickly as she also turned to face the blonde
"Flirting? From you Ms Gabrielle? I must be dreaming" Ember chuckled
"Perhaps you're still dreaming and this is all going to be over when I pinch you"
"Pinch me and someone dies" Ember glared
"Sheesh, sorry Ms Atkins" Gabrielle chuckled
"Ms Atkins makes me feel old" Ember giggled
"Oh but you are" Gabrielle smirked
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me meemaw" The blonde giggled
"Do not associate me with the poster woman of privilege that raised the capital building"
"Why are you breaking the fourth wall right now Ember?" Gabrielle laughed
"Did you forget who wrote this book?" She asked
"Touche" Gabrielle chuckled
Perhaps it was their giggles that brought a warmth to the room, replacing their tension from a few minutes ago, with a connection being pulled between the two girls
"Sit with me" the brunette muttered, heading over towards the fluffy carpet that was placed a few feet away from the singular glass window of the attic
Gabrielle followed behind, sitting crossed legged next to the girl who's eyes were only focused on the scene outside. She may smile but that didn't mean she was cured of her pain
A silence fell over them, the warm feeling slumped into a chilling cold when realization finally hit. It was time to address everything they've been feeling, finally
But neither of them wanted to go first, fearing the questions and answers that would soon follow. But they knew it needed to be done
"I... Um" Ember started to mumbled
"I'm sorry" Gabrielle whispered, turned her head slightly to face the brunette
Ember's brows furrowed as she met the girl's eyes, the kind of eyes that held sorrow and a heavy heart
"There's so many things I need to apologize for but I doubt it would make any use. I know it's hurt you Ember and I'm so sorry for that"
"...is Henry-"
"No. He's not my boyfriend. I would have thought you'd catch that from the things that were said in the cafe" Gabrielle muttered
"Yeah alot of things happened in the cafe that I couldn't wrap my head around. If he isn't your boyfriend then why did you leave with him!?" The brunette scoffed
".....I... Don't know"
"You don't know!?" Ember furrowed her brows deeper
"I really wish I had an explanation better but... I was scared"
"Scared of what!?"
"You" Gabrielle said, sinking her teeth into her bottom lip
"Why would you be scared of me"
"I was scared of what I was feeling. Everything was so... Overwhelming... Yet so perfect at the same time. Everything I've been feeling to this day has been my firsts. The first butterflies, the first blushes... The first time I've felt anything when I've kissed someone" The blonde whispered, bringing her knees to her chest
"Weren't you together with Henry since highschool?"
"And I've never felt anything with him. Not the way I feel when I'm with you Ember and that's scary"
"So you felt butterflies and ran? I don't understand"
"I felt it and I was lost in another world. I was scared of everything that was happening, especially so quickly. I was burning mad before that kiss then I was filled with an intoxicating feeling after it. I couldn't wrap my head around anything in those few seconds and I made a terrible move by walking away"
Ember tilted her head back and closed her eyes, feeling the warm rays of the sun glaze over her neck as she rolled her head slightly
As much as she tried to focus on why Ember walked away, her heart was throbbing in her chest for one reason and one reason only
Gabrielle felt something for her
It was taking everything inside her to not smile, but oh boy was her insides having a tiki
"He's a crazy stalker dumbass manchild?" She asked
"That... Basically sums it up yes" Gabrielle chuckled
"So you've been with him since the cafe?"
"No. After I got into that car, we drove down the block and I finally came to to my senses. The rush and adrenaline stopped and I realized what the hell I was doing. I didn't want him, he's the last thing I want. So I yelled and yelled until he stopped the car and I walked away"
"Then why is he still here?"
"He refuses to stop. I've tried so hard to avoid him but he keeps tracing me like some... Stupid stalker"
"Did he follow you to the park?"
"Jesus yes. And he pulled me by my head and kissed him out of nowhere"
Ember's knuckles clenched slightly as she finally brought her eyes open, still glaring out the window
"Why is he here?"
"Our parents met in the park to discuss some business. The only reason they met in the park was because Henry got ahold of my parents and told them that's where I am every afternoon and that I've been singing"
"Wait... They think you're studying to-"
"To become a doctor, yes"
"They don't know you sing?"
"They know I sing, they just assumed it was for children parties as a hobby or charity"
"What happened in the park?"
"They met with your parents but they were really there to search for me. Henry brought them right to me and.... Let's just say I felt like that little girl standing in front of them again. Lost... Scared, Powerless" The blonde mumbled, lowering her head
"I'm sorry Gabs" Ember whispered, her fingers hooked around Gabrielle
The warm touch of the girl sent the familiar static through her body again but she ignored it
Gabrielle's eyes on the other hand were focused on their intertwined fingers. It slowly brought a smile to her face as she glanced into Emerald green eyes who's hues burned from the golden kiss of the morning sun
She found herself lost in the girl's eyes again, the way her lips pouted slightly, the way her brows were relaxed, the way she cared even if she was the one hurt in the end
She loved so many thing about Ember, things that she would never see in herself. If only she knew how precious she was to the world
A world that didn't deserve her love or her grace
A/N
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