Lately, I found myself zoning out often.
I was aware of it myself, but it was hard to shake off the feeling of being dazed.
âAre you not paying attention?â
That was the case even while I was working.
It was almost time for my part-time job to end, so people said I was slacking, but it wasnât easy to get my head straight.
âWhy am I like this?â
Even when I asked myself, the frustration remained.
I knew the answer but didnât particularly want to dwell on it.
It must be because of Seo Yerin.
Seeing her work as an actress unsettled me strangely.
I knew all too well that this was a disgusting feeling of obsession and possessiveness.
I had felt something similar with my ex-girlfriend.
Oh Yoon-ji complained to me that she thought only she had severe obsession and jealousy.
Actually, at that time, I was quite obsessed with Oh Yoon-ji.
When I thought about how I fell apart after she left, it wasnât hard to see how tenacious I had been.
But feeling such emotions towards Seo Yerinâ¦
âWhat are you doing?â
Yu Arin spoke to me as I stood there blankly holding the cart.
At least Yu Arin was someone who made me feel comfortable recently.
âA guy who used to be good at his job canât even do that now. What use are you?â
She kept joking around every time she saw me.
âLetâs go, go.â
She moved her feet busily while pushing the cart.
But even as I pressed the elevator button, the complexity in my head didnât go away.
Complexity.
Yeah, it seemed like the current state was best defined that way.
My mind was very complicated, feeling self-loathing, suffering, and jealousy.
âItâs annoying.â
There were many times when I hated myself.
This time, itâs just one of those countless feelings of self-reproach.
I decided to let it just pass it over.
âThey say we need to vacate this room?â
After work.
Yu Arin and I were at the hotel room where we had spent the night in the past.
The room given by my sister-in-law, who is also my eldest brotherâs secretary.
I thought it might be useful, but in the end, I used it with Yu Arin only once.
I didnât feel any regret.
Rather, I thought this room had served its purpose well enough.
Anyway, vacating the room wasnât a problem.
âWhat are we supposed to do with this?â
The problem was the adult items inside. Seeing them piled up like a mountain made me click my tongue.
When I asked, Yu Arin scratched her cheek awkwardly and answered.
âThey said to take them along?â
ââ¦â¦â
What are we supposed to do with these?
âFirst, letâs divide what you will take and what I will take.â
When I gave a thumbs-up and spoke, Yu Arin suggested with an annoyed expression.
âCanât we just throw everything away?â
âMost of it is brand new, not even unwrapped. Plus, looking at the brands, a lot of these are really expensive.â
âHow would Woojin know that?â
ââ¦â¦â
Pretending not to hear, I randomly grabbed something. Unfortunately, it was a squishy onahole, which felt rather disgusting.
âBut it does seem expensive.â
Yu Arin nodded in agreement.
I was fascinated by the squishy texture of the onahole and was busy swinging it around.
âThe Vice President wouldnât use anything cheap.â
Suddenly, my body froze.
When I looked at Yu Arin to ask what she meant, she shrugged.
âThey were going to use these themselves and then gave them to us. So, they might have used these tooâ¦â
âAh, fuck!â
I screamed as I threw the onahole, which might have been used by my oldest brother, straight onto the floor.
Oh, shit.
There are depths in this world that one should never know, and it was true.
The tower of adult toys in front of me was something that should never have been built.
A Tower of Babel constructed by the corruption of modern times.
âLetâs just throw them all away.â
When I firmly said this, Yu Arin showed a slightly ambiguous reaction.
She had just suggested throwing them away, but now that she knew their value, she seemed somewhat tempted.
âHow about we donât throw them away but take them for now? We can sell them on second-hand markets like Junggonara.â
âWho would buy something like this on Junggonara?â
Even though there are some new ones, selling adult toys on a second-hand market like Junggonara seems a bit much.
Even Yu Arin herself seemed speechless upon reconsidering and kept her mouth tightly shut.
âNo, but why do we have to handle this? It was just one pair of handcuffs that was used!â
When I shouted while lifting the handcuffs Yu Arin and I had used last time, her face turned red.
The way she squirmed was suggestive, making me think she was trying to seduce me.
I almost pounced on her.
âIâll talk to my older brother about it.â
I immediately called the person directly involved in this situation.
We werenât in the habit of calling each other often, but this needed to be cleared up.
After a few rings, my older brotherâs voice came through.
Youâve been calling me frequently these days. Whatâs the matter now?
His straightforwardness was just like him, so I went straight to the point as well.
âShouldnât you clean up the stuff you enjoyed in your room?â
Room?
âYou remember giving the room key card to Yu Arin at the C Building Hotel? Room 909. Youâve piled up adult products here.â
What are you talking about?
âYou really donât know? Then who did your wife use these with? Should I take it as your wife cheated? Should I call Mom right now?â
â¦Donât do that.
âWhy canât you just admit you used them?â
I didnât use them.
âSure, sure, you didnât use them but packed them.â
â¦â¦
âDamn, itâs true.â
A sigh escaped as I slapped my forehead. The items in front of me felt filthy.
âAh, I really want to puke, but letâs finish this conversation first. What are you going to do? Take this away.â
Use them as you please or sell them. Most of them are unused anyway.
âJust tell me. Which ones were used? Iâll throw away the ones that were unwrapped.â
â¦â¦
ââ¦You shouldnât be the vice president.â
Among my peers, Iâm considered quite clean. Here, having at least three or four partners is the norm.
I wanted to call them bad guys, but I couldnât because I met Arinâs eyes.
Iâm in no position to criticize anyone about relationships.
But your stomach is full.
âWhat now.â
Look at him changing the subject for no reason.
From now on, neither your mother nor I plan to support you financially.
Yes, mom secretly gave me some pocket money to use without my brother knowing.
She secretly stashed it in my pocket to use as a slush fund.
Then why donât you try selling those things? There are many unopened items.
âSo, youâre saying everything thatâs opened has been used.â
â¦â¦
Coincidentally, YunArin was organizing the opened and unopened items neatly.
âWho in their right mind wouldâ¦.â
I was about to say when suddenly.
âWait a minute, this might actually work.â
After hanging up, I called Chan-woo and got someoneâs number.
A few minutes later.
Hello?
A somewhat androgynous voice.
Though it sent chills down my spine, I tried to maintain my composure.
âDo you remember me?â
Oh, of course I remember. We had a good time that night.
âIt wasnât me, it was Chan-woo you had a good time with.â
I corrected the bald man, and he laughed but didnât deny it.
Thank goodness.
âDo you buy adult products? I have some expensive, unopened ones here.â
I later found out from Chan-woo.
Surprisingly, the owner of the store where we bought the adult products was the bald man himself.
The man has quite the knack.
I even slightly suspect that he was the one who led our drunken selves there.
Can you take pictures and send them?
âSure.â
I told Yu Arin to come out, take photos, and send them.
The reaction was intense.
Wow? Only expensive brands? Are you really just selling those?
âWeâll give you a bit of a discount since we know each other.â
Theyâre hard to get rid of anyway.
Even if itâs cheaper, getting some money is better than none, right?
But what are those ripped ones next to them?
âOh, those are used items.â
â¦Did you use them?
Why does it seem like heâs smacking his lips?
Fucking annoying.
âFucking annoying.â
â¦â¦
âOh, Iâm sorry.â
No, itâs understandable.
âBut smacking your lips is a bit too much, isnât it?â
Sorry, I couldnât help it. It was my mistake.
If he didnât at least have good manners, I would have just cursed him out, but thatâs not it either.
âIt wasnât me; someone else used them. Are you interested? Theyâre used.â
Who used them?
ââ¦Does it matter if you know?â
Depending on their face, the price can drop or rise. Roughly a 0.5 to 1.5 times difference?
âPlease wait.â
I immediately call my brother.
âHey, Iâm trying to sell your used onahole to a bald gay guy, can you send me a picture?â
â¦What?
âIâm trying to sell that dirty adult toy you used, and the bald guy said heâd pay double if he saw your face. But I donât carry your picture on my phone.â
Donât do that.
âYouâre not going to send it?â
Do you think I would?
Ugh.
âCanât be helped then. Iâll just use the vice presidentâs picture from your company site.â
â¦Just take care of it.
âItâs mine now, what are you talking about? If you donât send the picture, Iâm hanging up.â
Double.
âSir, your tongue is too long, so the price went up midway. 2.5 times.â
Stop messing around.
âOkay, 3 times.â
Hooooooo.
âFour times?â
Letâs settle for 2.5 times.
âUgh, forget it. Whatâs the point of taking that? Iâll just sell it to the bald guy to mess with you.â
â¦Three times.
âThanks, bro!â
You really make me want to curse.
âIs that all your negotiation skills amount to, and youâre still a vice president? Give it up.â
You son of aâ¦
Click.
Damn bastard.
This is payback for the rude words you said to me last time.
âWhat did you decide to do?â
Yu Arin, who had finished tidying up, asked with a bright smile, and I responded by giving a thumbs-up.
âFor unused items, a bit below the list price. For used items, three times the list price.â
ââ¦How does that even work?â
I gave a big smile to Yu Arin, who seemed utterly confused.
âShall we go eat some beef?â
âBeef!â
The questions she had just moments ago vanished, and Yu Arin, now focused on beef, hummed a tune.