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Lu Xiuhe wasnât stupid. When Zuo Zhen first spoke about the signature pen and then said something about it being a permit-pass, with one look, he could tell that nothing serious had happened. There was an 80% chance there was no one else inside the room.
That made sense. Although always preventing illegitimate fans from coming into contact with an idol was impossible, the assistant placed at Zuo Zhenâs side wasnât just for show either. It had been such a long time since the incident had taken place, and even if there had been such a fan here, they must have already been dealt with. It was such simple logic, but he hadnât even thought of it until just now.
His anxious heart could now rest firmly and securely again, and only then did he start to feel embarrassed.
âThat ah, I gave it to someone else.â Lu Xiuhe said, âSince youâre fine, then Iâ¦â¦â
Bang.
The door in front of him was shut rather mercilessly in his face.
Lu Xiuhe was stunned, and his eyes widenedââ
Being hung up on and having the door slammed in his faceâthe Great Lord Lu had never suffered such kinds of wrong in his life before.
If this had happened back in junior high school, with his fiery hot temper at that time, Zuo Zhen would have been eating his fist right now!!
You should be glad that your Great Lord Lu is older now and has a better temperâ¦.
Lu Xiuhe said so to himself, but in fact, he didnât dare to knock again.
Forget it. At least he knew he was fine.
He turned around and was just about to leave when he heard another sound from behind him. Before he could react, he felt the back of his collar being pulled by someone. He lost his balance and nearly fell on Zuo Zhen.
âFuckâ¦. Are you addicted to pulling on peopleâs collars or something???â
The hotel had been arranged by the reception staff in Manyang. Although it wasnât a suite, it was still a standard luxury room.
Zuo Zhen, with a dark expression on his face, threw the person onto the sofa, while he sat on a similar but separate small sofa chair beside him. He let out a barely perceptible breath of relief upon having something to support his back against.
Lu Xiuhe looked around. The room was clean, and let alone other people, there werenât even that many things here.
He turned his head and said, âYouâ¦â
He saw Zuo Zhenâs entire body reclining on the sofa, with his eyes closed, as his chest moved up and down in rather large movements as he breathedâ he looked uncomfortable.
The vicious words that Lu Xiuhe had wanted to say were instantly swallowed back, and with his voice lowered a bit, he asked, ââ¦Whatâs wrong with you?â
Zuo Zhen didnât respond to him; he seemed to be coming around.
Lu Xiuhe was well-developed and also liked to play basketball; he had a good amount of meat on his bones. Dragging him the way he did just now may not affect Zuo Zhen during normal times, but right now, he had done so by using all the strength in his body.
He had been afraid that if he didnât use enough strength, Lu Xiuhe would leave.
It was only then that Lu Xiuhe remembered that when he was being pulled by the collar just now, the temperature of the fingers against the back of his neck seemed to be a little off.
He got up and placed the back of his hand on Zuo Zhenâs forehead.
It was horribly hot.
âYou have a fever!â
âI know.â Zuo Zhenâs voice was a little weak. âYou donât need to be so loud.â
âNo, for better or worse, youâre a big star. Why is it that youâre burning up like this, and thereâs no staff around staying to take care of you?â Lu Xiuhe got up and looked around, before finally finding a hot water bottle.
He had just walked a few steps forward when he stopped. The hot water bottle in the hotel was too dirty; he couldnât use it.
Zuo Zhen laughed at himself. âWhat kind of a big star do I count as?â
He managed to force his eyelids open and saw Lu Xiuhe walking towards the door. His tiredness suddenly faded and he pulled himself up a bit, as if he was about to stand up as he asked, âWhere are you going?â
âGoing to find some hot water, the hot water bottle in the hotel is too dirty.â Lu Xiuhe said, âEven if there is no one watching over you⦠they should have bought you some medicine ba?â
âOn the bookcase.â
âHave you taken it?â
âNo.â
âEven little children know that they need to take medicine when theyâre sick. Youâre already this old, how come youâre still waiting on someone to feed it to youâ¦â Lu Xiuhe put on his shoes. âIâm going to go buy a hot water bottle. If thereâs anything else you need right now, Iâll buy it and bring it back for you.â
Zuo Zhen kept looking at him without blinking, and then he said, âYou must come back.â
If it was for any other reason, Lu Xiuhe might have really slipped away.
He said, âDonât worry. I donât owe you money, and I wonât run away.â
Zuo Zhenâs eyes were full of suspicion, he still did not believe him. Finally, he said, âTake the keycard from the shoe cabinet, itâll save me from having to open the door.â
Lu Xiuhe didnât think too much about it. He let out an âoh,â picked up the keycard, and went out.
Five minutes later, the doorbell rang again, and the assistant came in with some food. âZhen Ge, Iâve bought you some food. Even if you donât feel good, eat a bit ba, you shouldnât damage your stomach because youâre not hungry.â
âPut it on the shoe cabinet.â Zuo Zhen said, âYou go back first ba.â
The assistant paused in his action of taking off his shoes. âGo back? How can I do that, youâre already burning up like this&#k2026;â
âSomeone will come to take care of me.â Zuo Zhen raised his eyes, his meaning obvious. âIf youâre here, it wonât be convenient.â
â!!â
âZhen Ge, it canât be that youâ¦. When did this happen?!â The assistant was surprised and said, âNo matter what, you canât bring the person here ah. We just drove away some illegitimate fans, if she is seenâ¦â
Zuo Zhen said, âI have discretion. Go back to your room. If you stay here, when they come back and see you, theyâll leave.â
As soon as Lu Xiuhe entered, he saw the hot porridge on the shoe cabinet. Before he could ask, Zuo Zhen said lazily, âI ordered takeout.â
âOh.â Lu Xiuhe took the porridge and moved it in front of him, then shook the new hot water kettle he was carrying in his hand. âIâll wash it.â
After saying that, he took out a thermometer from the small plastic bag in his hands. âYou stick this under your arm and see how serious your fever is.â
Zuo Zhen sat still. To make himself comfortable, his legs were propped on the coffee table, and he raised his eyes. âNot sticking it in.â
ââ¦â¦ stick it in.â
Zuo Zhen looked at him with his head tilted. âI canât lift my arm.â
This shameless deception gave Lu Xiuhe a headache.
Even his seven-year-old nephew could lift his hand and stick the thermometer under his elbow by himself. n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
He clicked his tongue, bent his waist, and held Zuo Zhenâs wrist. âDonât move around randomly.â
Lu Xiuhe picked up his arm and was just putting the thermometer under his arm when Zuo Zhen suddenly bowed his head such that his lips touched Lu Xiuheâs earlobe.
âIn what capacity are you here right now?â Zuo Zhenâs voice was hoarse as he asked him, âA fan representative?â
Lu Xiuhe froze. ââ¦.If you want to say that, thatâs fine. You hold it.â
âDonât you not like me?â Zuo Zhenâs elbow hung from the armrest of the chair as he asked this question with a lazy voice, and it seemed that he wasnât going to put his arm down to hold the thermometer at all.
Lu Xiuhe said, âHold it first.â
âWhy quarrel with others for my sake?â Zuo Zhen asked him, âAnd then even come to an airport meetup, and now, youâre here in my room⦠Lu Xiuhe, what exactly are you thinking?â
âWhat can I thinkâ¦â Lu Xiuheâs ears were hot, and he urged him, âQuickly hold it, the water is boiling.â
The back of Zuo Zhenâs head hurt because of the fever, but he was even more afraid of forcing the other person away with his questioning.
He stared at Lu Xiuhe for a long time before he slowly clamped his arm down on the thermometer.
Lu Xiuhe got up as if he was about to flee, then turned around and left his side. âYou eat something first, and after youâre done eating, take the medicine.â
When the TV was turned on, there was a new anti- Japanese drama playing on it. Lu Xiuhe sat on the sofa and watched Zuo Zhen drink porridge slowly, while pondering in his mind about when to leave.
âWhat?â Zuo Zhen didnât raise his head. âYou want to leave?â
â¦â¦ Are you a supernatural being?
ââ¦â¦ Not really.â Lu Xiuhe took out his cellphone and said to himself, âIâll go to the fan group chat to report your safety.â
âDonât do that.â Zuo Zhen said, âYouâre going to let them know that you have come to find me? Do you want to be treated as an illegitimate fan and beaten to death?â
Lu Xiuhe was stunned and stopped his action. âBut you havenât posted anything about this situation to Weibo this whole time. Everyone is worriedâ¦â
Zuo Zhen held his gaze as he said, âThe company didnât post anything on purpose.â
âWhy?â
âSelling misery.â Zuo Zhenâs tone was even as he explained, âThe fans are worried about me, and if the company stirs it up some more, itâll become a trending topic tonight.â
ââ¦â¦â It was too real ba.
Lu Xiuhe thought for a moment and then asked, âThen how about using your own Weibo to post something? Even an âIâm fineâ would be good. Anyway, all your posts go on to become trending topics. â
âNo way.â
Lu Xiuhe asked, ââ¦.do you have to sell misery?â
Zuo Zhenâs hand paused for a moment before he continued to bow his head to drink the porridge.
âItâs not that I donât want to or that I wonât, itâs that itâs just not possible.â
Lu Xiuhe was completely unable to comprehend what this rather winding statement meant. âWhat do you mean ah?â
âWhat Weibo posts that account makes, what ads itâs going to repost, what posts it likesâIâm in charge of none of it.â Zuo Zhen replied.
Lu Xiuhe immediately shut up.
The period of time he had spent mingling in the fan circles hadnât been for nothing. Naturally, he had heard that artistsâ Weibos were all managed by special personnel, but he hadnât expected the control to actually reach such a level.
Lu Xiuhe asked, âThat matter with the illegitimate fan was also something the company spread around blindly?â
âNo.â Zuo Zhen said, âThere were several people who came in the afternoon, but the assistant was experienced and soon drove them off.â
âYouâre not hurt ba?â
âHurt.â Zuo Zhen glanced at him, raised his hand suddenly, and lifted up the hem of his shirt. âHave a look?â
Lu Xiuhe looked in that direction reflexively, only to see the symmetrical abdominal muscles, the familiar scar, and nothing else. âWhere?â
As soon as he asked that, he saw the corners of Zuo Zhenâs mouth rise as he started to laugh.
He then realized that he had been tricked. He blushed and said in shock, âFuck⦠Youâre too flirty ba. Get dressed quickly.â
Zuo Zhenâs fever reached 39.2 degrees. Lu Xiuhe looked at it and resolutely decided to not let him remain seated anymore, pulling and dragging him up to help him into the bedroom.
He first put him on the bed, then bent over Zuo Zhen, reaching to grab the other side of the bedding. Because of his action, his clothes pulled up, thereby revealing a large part of his waist.
Although Zuo Zhen had a fever, he still didnât forget to put his hands in to cling to Lu Xiuheâs abdomen.
Lu Xiuhe was startled by the scalding heat. He hurriedly took two steps back and wrapped his clothes up tightly. He asked in panic, âZuo Zhen, have you started developing problems because of your fever?â
Zuo Zhen lowered his hand. His cheeks were red, and because he had a fever, his eyes looked like they were absolutely sparkling. âLiking you is a problem?â
ââ¦â¦â
Lu Xiuhe wasnât unaware of how direct Zuo Zhen could be, but he got very nervous every time he heard him like this.
âDonât talk about this anymore, okay.â Lu Xiuhe said, in a kind of an entreating tone, âIâll tuck you in, you donât fucking⦠touch me.â
Zuo Zhen looked at him head on and said nothing.
Lu Xiuhe pulled down the hem of his clothes to make sure his body was covered before bending down again and pulling the bedding over Zuo Zhenâs body.
Having tucked him in, just as he was about to relax, he was suddenly jerked over by his collar by Zuo Zhen again. Lu Xiuhe was caught completely off guard, lost his balance, and fell over. Before he could react, his lips were kissed.
What the fuck.
He was still fucking doing it again?!
Lu Xiuhe reflexively wanted to evade him, but unexpectedly, Zuo Zhen reacted faster than him. Both of his hands immediately went around behind him, with one shackling his neck and the other pressing the back of his head as hard as he could.
Lu Xiuhe was worried that as a big man, his feet and hands would move too recklessly and hurt the sick person, so after thudding around a bit, he didnât move around much anymore. It wasnât long before he completely lost his guard, and his mouth was completely occupied by Zuo Zhen.
Zuo Zhenâs lips and tongue were hot, and it still held the bitter taste of medicine. He pestered the tip of Lu Xiuheâs tongue over and over, advancing as soon as he retreated, not allowing him to hide.
Lu Xiuhe was kissed until he became dizzy, and he didnât know how much time had passed before he was finally released.
Zuo Zhen gasped heavily, his eyes dark. He grabbed the chance to speak before Lu Xiuhe could open his mouth. âLu Xiuhe, if you donât like me, then stay away from me.â
âYou canât reject me and approach me at the same time. Donât try to make me just dangle there.â
Lu Xiuhe had plainly thought up a whole stomach full of dirty words to say, but after looking at Zuo Zhenâs face of angry forbearance, he suddenly, and very cleanly, forgot all of them.
Hey no, wasnât the person who had just been forcefully kissed him? How come it became his fault the moment Zuo Zhen spoke about it?
He opened and closed his mouth for a long while before finally saying in a faltering manner, âI donât want to make you dangle thereâ¦â
âThen why did you call me?â
âWasnât that because I had heard that you were attacked by an illegitimate fanâ¦â
âEven if it was true, itâs none of your business.â
Lu Xiuhe choked, and couldnât say anything for a moment.
Now that the hot kiss was over, Zuo Zhenâs tone was cool as he said, âI catfished you and lied to you. If you canât accept that, you can either beat me or just stay away from me.â
Lu Xiuhe thought that Zuo Zhen was right, and so couldnât refute him.
He had also thought that way at first.
But then how the hell had he ended up joining Zuo Zhenâs fan support group?
After a long time, he finally managed to find a reasonable explanation. âIsnât this because of me beingâ¦. turned into your fan?â
âAnd also,â he suddenly thought of something and argued, âYouâve even got a fucking new boyfriend now, and youâre still crazily kissing other people, arenât you being too scummy ba?â
Zuo Zhen frowned. âWhat new boyfriend?â
Lu Xiuhe said, âThe one in the game, who was playing duo with you ah.â
âThatâs Xu Min. He lost a bet with someone else and was forced to change his game ID.â
Xu Min was the youngest member of Pz.
Zuo Zhen raised his eyebrows. âSo that day, you were willing to enter the lobby because⦠you saw me playing games with him?â
Lu Xiuhe froze then hurriedly waved before explaining, âNo, I just clicked the wrong button and went in!â
âNo, youâre jealous.â Zuo Zhen clutched the corner of his clothes, as if he had grasped some life-saving straw. âLu Xiuhe, you like me.â
ââ¦.â
Zuo Zhen swallowed, enduring the discomfort in his throat, and repeated in a hoarse voice, âYou like me.â
ââ¦â¦â
Lu Xiuhe sighed heavily and said, âI do like youâ¦â
Zuo Zhenâs eyes suddenly brightened.
âYou dance so well, rap so smoothly, play games so well, and you work so hard,â Lu Xiuhe stated a lot of good things about him, âSo⦠I idolize you a lot ah, youâre the first star Iâve ever chased after. â
Zuo Zhenâs gaze grew a little colder, and even the strength he was using to grip the clothes loosened a bit.
Lu Xiuhe scratched his head and forced himself to not look at him. âBut thatâs the kind of like one has towards idols ah. I⦠Zuo Zhen, I really donât like men. I have never wanted to be with a man.â
By the end, Lu Xiuheâs voice was almost inaudible.
But Zuo Zhen could hear the whole thing clearly.
The bedroom was quiet for half a minute. Lu Xiuhe kept standing in the same place and felt that his back had gone numb while his heart was all blocked up, and felt plain bad.
The man in bed was obviously expressionless, but he kept feeling as if this person was going to cry.
Lu Xiuhe said, âIâ¦.â
His clothes were suddenly freed. In just a few seconds, Zuo Zhenâs expression returned back to normal. Besides the flushed red on his face because of his temperature, almost nothing else could be seen.
He put his hand back on the bedding, suddenly turned around, and lay with his back facing Lu Xiuhe. âI know,â he replied in a hoarse voice.
Lu Xiuhe could only stare at his back, and he felt acid in his throat as he said, âZuo Zhenâ¦â
âIâve already had porridge and taken medicine.â Zuo Zhen said, âOnce I sleep some more, Iâll be fine. Thank you for your concern.â
ââ¦â¦â Lu Xiuhe was at a loss. âZuo Zhen, canât we be friends? Thereâs nothing that good about me. I have no money, and Iâm not handsome, so why do you have to like me?â
âYou go back ba.â
Lu Xiuhe really didnât know what to say. Even after standing in that spot for a long time, he could only squeeze this phrase out of his throat, ââ¦.then you rest well.â
His cellphone was vibrating in his pocket. He didnât have to guess to know that it was a notification for the messages being sent in the fan support groupchat. Instinctively, he blurted out, âThe fans are having a rather intense discussion. Do you want to have a lookâ¦â
âLu Xiuhe,â Zuo Zhen interrupted him.
âAh.â
âDonât be my fan anymore.â
Lu Xiuhe paused in his action of taking out his phone.
âI donât lack fans, and so donât need you.â Zuo Zhen closed his eyes, his voice very weak as he said, âYou let me go and stop being my fan ba.â
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Juurensha: â¦.on one hand, not cool ZZ kissing and groping LXH against his will. On the other, LXH, you really are giving off super mixed signals, so ZZ also has a point.
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