Erin Kimora delagardo
"ERIN PULL THE FUCKING TRIGGER" Zay yelled at me
I stood there with the gun up to Tae's head shaking & crying just staring at Tae
"Don't do it erin this is your child's father" Tae's aunt said running out the house with a robe on
"Pull the trigger if you love me bae" zay whispered in my ear
More tears ran down my face as I shook more
I put my finger on the trigger
I couldn't take my eyes off of Tae as he was just laying there in pain
"Come on hurry up & pull the trigger we gotta go" zay said looking down the street
I took the safety off the gun
"Don't do it moms whatever she's saying to you is not worth losing your life who's gonna take care of the baby" amoura said to me as she had Genie in her arms
"Momma" genie screamed at me
I started crying more
"I can't do this zay"Â I said not taking my eyes off of Tae & looking at zay
"Put the gun down erin" my mom screamed at me as she jumped out the car as it was moving
I heard the police sirens from a far
I looked over at Ji,blu & Gk's bodies on the cold concrete
There was blood everywhere
"Pull the fucking trigger" zay yelled at me
"Pull it" tae said
It was his first time saying something since I been infront of him with the gun in his face
I'm just scared
"Pull it 12 is coming Erin" ebonii screamed at me
Zay pushed me & grabbed the gun I wouldn't let go
"Come on bro ima do it"Â zay said tugging on the gun
"Let go zay we ain't doing this shit"
"I told yo ass already Erin move" she yelled at me
I heard three gunshots
I looked over and saw zay & Tae bleeding on the ground
The police sirens got closer
"What the fuck Erin" everyone yelled
"I ain't do nothing wait-" I said in confusion
I had all types of emotions
I was scared,confused,hurt,lost,stuck
I looked at the gun in my hand then at my baby
She was crying
Everything was moving so slow
Everyone ran to them
I looked back as I saw the police coming closer
I looked back at the gun & ran
If you're wondering how I got here I gotchu
Let's start from the beginning.
1 year before....
"Yeah thanks" I said to Amoura
"Girl you don't need to thank me" she said laughing
I chuckled "okay"
"Soo" she said as we walked down the street
I looked at her "what"
"When you gon stop playing with Tae " she said to me
I smacked my lips & rolled my eyes "nobody's playing with him I'm just-" I started to say
"You're just not ready" she said mocking me
I sighed & put my hands in my pockets as I put my head down as I stared at my feet as we walked
"It's okay he's not like them other niggas there's no need to be scared to get into anything moms" amoura said to me as she nudged me
I nodded my head
We walked up to the corner store as there was Niggas standing & sitting outside the store talking,laughing & smoking
"Aye is that ms amoura" we heard someone yell out & laugh
She looked around as she was frowning
"Uht uh see I knew we should've never walked to the store this late" I said to her
She just stared at me "shut yo ole scary ass up they ain't gon fuck with us you know how Dre is"
"Bitch" I started to say until a tall darkskin walked up to us
She smiled "Wussgood yotaa"
He smacked his lips "Bruh"
"Ion know why you don't like yo name it's unique" she said laughing
"Bro nah" he said as he looked back at the group of guys
"Whatever" she said
"Mmcht why yo ass act like that" he asked her
"I don't act like anything what you doing out here" she asked him
I rolled my eyes & walked past the group of niggas & walked in the store
"Hello welcome in" the guy said with a strong accent
I smiled "hi"
I walked to the back where the drinks are & grabbed me a sprite & a Red Bull
I walked to the candy aisle & looked around
I grabbed me some sour patch watermelons & a KitKat
I walked to get some ruffles & walked up to the counter
The door opened
"Wussup Leo" I heard a familiar voice say
I kept my eyes on the snacks I got as he rung them up
"Wussup Tae" the guy I'm guessing name is Leo said
"Okay total is 10.36" he said putting my stuff in a bag
I nodded my head as I pulled out my wallet
"Hm & can I get a swisher" Tae said I looked up & saw him handing the guy a 20
The guy nodded his head & put the cash in the Register
He slid the bag to me & handed Tae the swisher
"Preciate you" Tae said to the guy
"Yeah" the guy said
I grabbed the bag & walked behind Tae
"Thank you" I said to him as we walked out the corner store
"Yeah" he said not looking at me But going over by them niggas
I walked up to amoura who was still talking to the guy
"You ready" I asked her
She looked at me "uh yeah"
"Ight lets go then" I said
"Ight it was nice seeing you yotaa" she said to the guy
He smiled "it's Gk"
"Oh my bad" she said putting her hands up laughing
"Lemme get yo snap real quick" he said to her
Tae & another darkskin started walking up to us
I rolled my eyes because they was taking too long & now these niggas is walking up to us
"Gk why these niggas talking about-" a darkskin started to say until he just stopped
"Wussup shorty what yo name is" he said walking up to me
I looked at amoura & we both busted out laughing
"Nigga leave my cousin alone" amoura said to him
"Oh shit amoura dis yo cousin" the guy asked her
"Yes roscoe" she said
"Chill with the government you fucking weirdo" he said to her
She rolled her eyes
"Let's go Erin" she said to walking towards the corner store
"I already got yo snacks" I said to her
"Oh" she said turning around
She walked passed me & the boys
I followed after her
As I caught up to her she looked at me
"You see Tae?" She asked me
"Yes girl he payed for our snacks" i said
"What" she said Looking at me
"I couldn't even tell him nothing he just put the money on the counter & asked for a swisher" I said as we turned into the dark ass alley way where all the crackheads be at
She grabbed her phone out her pocket & turned the flashlight on
She looked at me "you know the fucking routine Erin"
I rolled my eyes & took my phone out my pocket & turned my flashlight on
"Ion know why you didn't say no now we gotta hear yo mamas mouth about having people pay for us" she said
"Orrrr we can keep the money & say that we bought it" i said
She looked at me "you right"
"I'm always right what the fuck" I said as we walked up to my apartments
I live in one of the most ghettoes apartments Chicago
I opened the door to my unit of my apartments
"Hey little ladies y'all got some spare change" this homeless man asked us shaking
I walked passed him to the staircase
Me & amoura started walking up the flights of stairs
We heard laughing
I looked up & saw my neighbors daughter zay talking to some darkskin girl with braids down her back
I couldn't see her face
Zay saw us walking up the stairs & just stared at us
"Girl yo moms up?" Amoura asked me as I tried to open the door
"Ion know lemme call her" I said pulling my phone out & going to my call log pressing on her name
"Hello" she said in a groaning sound
"Ma open the door" I said
"I thought y'all was back already" she said
"No"
"SANI GO OPEN THE DOOR FOR ERIN" she yelled out at Sani my 11 year old little sister
"She's coming" she said hanging up
I rolled my eyes
The door swung open & sani stood there with a rob on
I frowned at her "when you come back"
I walked in the house with amoura behind me
"My daddy dropped me off like 20 minutes ago" she said
"Oh how was North Carolina"
"It was fun more peaceful I wanna move down there one day ima move away & go down there" she said smiling
"Oh yeah then move down there girl it's good to leave Chicago" i said hugging her
"Yeah this place is terrible" she said
I chuckled "girl I know I love you"
"Love you too" she said as she walked in her room & closed her door
I walked in my room to amoura sitting on my bed rolling up
I closed & put the lock on my door I got from Amazon
I sat down in my chair & took my Blazers off & pushed my glasses up on my face
"So Eli wanna come over & smoke with us" amoura said looking at her phone
"Ion care he just gotta come through the window" i said looking at my phone & seeing it was 12:45am on a Monday
"You need to hurry & graduate" she said
"I know I got not even a year left" i said laughing because I'm on my senior year of highschool
"Yeah me & Eli waiting" she said because their my only friends
"Don't worry we can move somewhere far far away" i said
"Okay" she said smiling
I laughed
"You saw Zay looking at you" she asked me
"Nah" I said on Instagram
"You ain't see her staring at yo ass" she said
"No amoura" I said looking up at her
"Girl okay" she said
I just sat there frowning at her
"He's outside the window though" she said
"He lucky I live on the third floor" I said laughing & walking over to the window
I opened the window & looked out of it
"Come on" I said whispering
"Bitch I got a cramp in my side I can't climb this time come down & let me in" he said
I smacked my lips & rolled my eyes "alright"
I closed the window & walked over to my crocs & slipped them on
"Where you going" she asked me
"To open the door for Eli I'll be back" I said
She nodded her head
I walked out my room
I went to my moms door & closed the door quietly
I walked to the front door & unlocked it
I walked out the door & saw zay & this guy named Santana talking
"Wussup Erin" Santana said to me I smiled
"Hey Santana" I said walking down the stairs
"That's her name?" I heard her ask him
But I payed no mind to it
I walked to the door & saw the homeless man still in the hallway
"You need to go I'll call the police on you" Coco said the manger of the apartments said to the man
"I need some money" he slurred
I opened the door for Eli & he walked in
"Heyyyy bitchhhh" he dragged
I smiled "hey pooh"
"You know this man Erin" coco asked me
"Yeah"
"You know this dude" she asked me with her New York accent
"Nah" I said
"Get the fuck out I'm bout to call the pigs on you & ion even like 'em" she yelled at the dude
He flinched
Me & Eli walked up the stairs
Zay & Santana was still standing in the hall
"Damn can she get ha face back Nigga" Eli said with an attitude
I shook my head
I opened the front door & we walked in
We walked to my room amoura looked up at us & jumped
"Yesss now we can smoke" she said smiling & grabbing the blunt off my nightstand
Eli sat on my chair & I sat at the door of my queen size bed
Amoura lit the blunt
"Wait open the window" i said to Eli
He got up & opened the window & sat back down
"Thanks" I said he nodded his head
Amoura handed me the blunt
I grabbed it & hit it
"You got school tomorrow erin" Eli asked me
"Yeah I'm thinking about not going" I said
"Bitch you're never at school you need to go or you're not going to graduate highschool" amoura said to me
"Okay dropout" i said because amoura is a year older than me meaning she's suppose to be a senior right now but she dropped out her Jr year of highschool
Her parents don't know nor does my mom
"Okay and? You're so smart you can go somewhere in life you can be the fucking star in the family" she said
"Amoura I'm the fucking black sheep because I'm fucking Asian & black" I said handing Eli the blunt
"I know that's why I said you can be the star in the family fuck them" she said laying down
"I guess" I said
"Go to school today erin even if you're late still go just for us" Eli said
I looked between them
To keep it a buck I haven't been to school since the first day of school which was 3 months ago
"Fine" I said rolling my eyes
Amoura smiled & hit the blunt letting out clouds
" have you talked to yo dad?" She asked me
"Aaron? No" I said because I'm named after my dad but his side of the family don't fuck with me because My mom is black & their Filipino
He got another family two girls & one boy & he's married to a Chinese woman
"Why"
"He only calls when it's my birthday or Christmas other than that he don't talk to me girl" I said grabbing the blunt from her
"Damn" Eli said
"Eli shut the fuck" amoura said throwing the remote to my tv at him
I laughed "it's coo"
"You're so chill & unbothered erin teach me" Eli said
I shook my head
"But Eli why the fuck zay was all in Erin's face earlier" amoura said
I just rolled my eyes & took my last hit & handed it to Eli
"I know that bitch was all in her face when we was walking in the house" Eli said
"Eli talking bout some damn can she get her face back" i said laughing
Amoura started laughing
"Cause like damn" Eli said
"Well if I'm going to school tomorrow ima take my ass to bed" I said getting underneath the blanket
"Yeah I got work tomorrow morning" Eli said standing up
Amoura just looked lost like a lost puppy
"Well ima go yo bed then too" amoura said
I laid down
"Eli lay the fuck down" amoura yelled at him because he was standing up
He got on the foot of the bed as me & amoura was at the top of the bed
I turned my LED lights off & closed my eyes
"Goodnight stinks" amoura said
"Goodnight loves" I said
"If you bitches keep talkin go the fuck to sleep" Eli said
I laughed As I dozed off to sleep
Next morning....
"ERINNNNN" I heard my mom yell
I jumped up with amoura on the side of me & Eli not at the foot of the bed
"ERIN" she yelled again
I got out of bed & walked out my room to the kitchen
"Yes?" I asked her
"You're going to school today y'all got testing" she said to me
"I was already going"
"Okay well go get ready to go because you're bout to be late" she said rolling her eyes giving Sani her eggs
"Ight" I said walking away
"Good morning sissy" Sani said to me
"Good morning girl" I said walking to my room
I picked out some grey nike sweats & a black T-shirt with some Air Force 1's
I went to the bathroom & started the shower
I got in & washed myself up
I got out & did my face routine & brushed my teeth
I walked to my room & saw amoura sitting up with her hair everywhere
"Why was yo moms yelling?" She asked me
"For me to get up & go to school" I said putting lotion on
"Oh" she said as her phone started going off indicating someone was calling her
She answered the phone as I put my clothes on
"You got some cute shit Erin why you never wear it" she asked me looking at my closet
"Amoura you see what school I go to ? That shit is ghetto" I said
She laughed "I knowww you'll probably have all the females niggas all on you babygirl"
I smacked my lips & brushed my hair into a ponytail
"ERIN COME THE FUCK ON" my mom yelled
"Alright ima catch you later you know to lock up"I said grabbing my puffer jacket & putting it on as I put my shoes on
I grabbed my all black Nike sb backpack
I walked out my room & to the living room
"Let's go" I said
"I'm tired of your attitude erin I'm bout to send you to your dad" she said
I frowned because she always finds something to pick on me about
"What attitude" I asked her
"Why are you talking back" she asked me as she put her purse on
"Whatever mom" I said
"Go" she yelled at me
"Sani go with your sister" she said to Sani nicely
"Ok" Sani said walking up to me
I opened the door & walked out with Sani behind me
"You okay" she asked me
"Yeah you?"
"I'm fine"
"You ready to go back to school" I asked her
"Yeah it's been so long since I been to school out here" she said
Me & Sani have different dads
Her dad is black & lives in North Carolina with his other 4 kids
Sani wants to move down there now but she candy because my mom said she can't
She should let her go move down there because it's better & safer down there where he lives
Sani goes to her dads house every two months & stays for two months too.
She goes to school down there & all.
You can tell she's happier down there than up here in Chicago
Now my dad on the other hand lives with his two kids & wife over in the suburbs.
& doesn't really talk to me like that
We walked up to the car & stood there in the morning cold air
"You know my daddy said you can come down there with me when I go" she said
"Oh no it's okay Sani it's time for you & your dad & siblings it's okay boo" I said
"No I want you to come"
Sani knows how mom treats me & my dad treats me that's why she's always trying to have me come down there with her or asking me if I'm okay
"It's okay Sani" I said as my mom came up to the car & unlocked the doors
We both got in
I put my seatbelt on
My mom just started the car & drove off
The car was silent
All you could hear was the cars driving past us
"Erin I'm tired of your shit" she said
I just stared out the window
"I know you hear me" she said again
"Erin"
"Yeah"
"Am I not talking I'm confused" she asked me
"All you said was you're tired of my shit what am I suppose to say to that? Okay?" I said
She looked at me then back at the road
"You're so disrespectful first you have your little friend all in my crib then come in late as fuck you don't go to school you stay in your room all the time & you always have an attitude & now you're talking back" she yelled
"Mommy it's okay" Sani said
"No Sani it's not she's not gonna be nothing in life the rate she's going so you can just get the fuck up outta my crib" she said to Sani then yelled at me
"Ma youre really trippin you don't know what I'm going through right now" I said
"Oh because it's your best friends death anniversary? I don't give a fuck let her go she died two years ago erin get over it" she yelled at me
I just sat there in disbelief
She's been my bestie since we was five so it's going to take a little to get over it
& knowing she got killed by her boyfriend who we all was close with makes it worse
"Get the fuck out my car" she yelled at me
I grabbed my backpack & got out the car
I closed the door & walked up to the school doors
I grabbed my AirPods & put them in my ears
This that shit by Haiti babii played through my AirPods
I turned the volume up & just walked with my head down in the halls
I walked to my first period because school already started
I opened the door & everyone looked at me
The teacher Ms. Hoggens smiled & got up from her desk
"Erin long time no see" she said smiling
I turned my music down some "yeah"
"Okay Um I'll catch you up just go sit next to Lexi over there & I'll bring you a worksheet" she said
I nodded my head
I walked over by Lexi & sat down
"Hey girl" she said
"Hey"
"Yo ass never here" she said
"I know ima start coming though" I said grabbing a pencil out my backpack
"Okay class so" the teacher said
Let me mentally get ready for this long ass day with these fake ass people just for amoura & Eli.