I instantly froze. I was afraid to trigger him more. If I managed to live through this, Iâm definitely putting this on my résumé. I was once held hostage by âmeâ. âIâ pressed a gun against my brain. Who else wouldâve experienced something like this?
âWhat are you doing?â Suyang couldnât see what was happening with me and Anson, so he was anxious. He began to harden his grip on my hands.
âSuyang, donât freak out. I just want to scare her a bit. Sadly, it doesnât seem to be very effective. Your huge reaction is making me rather upset though.â Anson pressed the gun harder against me.
Anson assumed my lack of reaction was an indication I wasnât afraid...but the truth was, I was freaking out...
From the corners of my eyes, I analyzed the muzzle of the gun. For some reason, I stated, âYou dare to shoot?â
The moment I said that line, I regretted it. I shouldnât be triggering him even more. It was as if I was saying, âHahaha! If you have the ability, then shoot me?! You are a chicken!â
âYixin!â Suyang shouted to stop me. But it was too late.
I explained, âRight now, my body is Anson. If you kill me, you kill Anson.â
Anson clapped, âThatâs true! But now Iâm Lin Yixin. Anson is useless to me. Why would I care whether heâs dead or alive?â
âDo you plan to live as Lin Yixin forever? Suyang already knows your plan. I donât think you can remain by his side!â I blurted.
Oh my goodness.... I was triggering him again. Shouldnât I keep my mouth shut? Perhaps that would be safer....
âDonât remind me!â Anson hollered. The hand he was holding the gun with began to shake. In my opinion, he had already lost his sanity.
âAnson!â Suyang could sense that things were quickly turning sour so he rushed to distract him. âI want to know why you decided to go through such a big circle rather than directly meeting me with your true self.â
âShhhhh! Dear, youâre saying the wrong name. Iâm Lin Yixin; not Anson. Iâm warning you! If you say it wrong again, the punishment wonât be light!â Anson purred.
Anson walked over to a spot where Suyang and I could both see him. Then, he spun around and pointed at me, âCompared to you, donât you think Iâm more suitable to be Lin Yixin? I can completely control this body now.â
Who wouldâve thought I would have to fight over someone to be the useless Lin Yixin? âAlthough Iâm not very happy with myself, Lin Yixin is me. You only stole the exterior. It doesnât hide the fact that youâre a madman.â
Why wonât I shut up? Every line Iâm saying is pushing me closer towards death...
âDear, youâre the one who is insane. Look in the mirror. Youâre the Anson that Suyang despises. Iâm the one he loves; Lin Yixin.â Anson turned to Suyang and crooked his head, âRight?â
Suyang didnât respond. Anson was annoyed.
âAnswer me!â He screamed as he pointed the gun at Suyang.
âWhen did I ever say I despised Anson?â Suyang responded calmly.
Suyangâs line caused Ansonâs eyes to grow big. His lips began to quiver, âWhat did you say?â
I was also shocked by Suyangâs words. He actually didnât hate Anson?
âWhen did I say I despised Anson?â Suyang repeated again, âThatâs what you came up with yourself. I never said anything.â
âLiar! Youâre lying to me! I -, no, Anson caused the death of your parents! How could you not hate him? Youâre just lying because you want me to let you guys go!â
âHate!â Suyang crisply replied, âI once hated you! But that happened so many years ago. Whatâs the point? Plus, you were only a child back then. You didnât know any better. So when I thought of that, I couldnât hate you anymore.â
âLiar! How could you not hate me? Even I cannot forgive myself....â Ansonâs voice was turning weaker and weaker.
âI went to Japan. Doesnât that already prove a lot?â Suyang firmly made eye contact with Anson. This was the first time Iâve ever heard Suyang talked about the incident. To be honest, I was quite stunned.
Anson slowly lowered his gun.
Suyang continued, âAll these years, Anson never once appeared in front of me and never stated he wanted me to forgive him. Youâre using the wrong method to reunite with me. Itâs still not too late to turn back....â
Hearing this, Anson became emotional again, âTurn back?! How can I turn back? Exchange souls with her again so you two can live happily ever after?!â He snarled.
âYes, you need to exchange souls and face me as Anson and tell me all the things you have been wanting to say to me all these years.â
âItâs too late! Itâs too late!â Ansonâs nose trembled as he choked with emotions, âI started off on the wrong path, so I can only continue from there. Thereâs no backing out.â
Not that I want to ruin the atmosphere, but Anson happened to be wearing non-waterproof makeup. Now, his tears were making my face look like a mess.
I look so funny. But how could I laugh during such a serious moment? This was the moment that will determine whether weâll live or not! Hold it! I can do it!
âSo what are you going to do now? Kill us all?â Suyang coldly continued the conversation.
âI wonât kill you! Youâre the person I love and care about the most. I would never hurt you.â Anson murmured. Then, his eyes hardened, âI donât exactly know what Iâm going to do yet. But first, get rid of him!â
âYou want to kill me again? I told you! This body is yours! You canât hurt yourself...â I sighed. Why doesnât this child understand?
Anson laughed hysterically as he shook his head, âI just thought of an amazing idea! I know how Anson can stay with Suyang forever!â
I had a very bad feeling about this.
Anson seemed to have made up his mind. Suddenly, he pointed the gun at his head (well, âLin Yixinâs headâ). He began to back away.
âSuyang, you decide! If I die, you will remain with Ansonâs physical body forever. If he dies, you will forever remain with Ansonâs spirit. Which one will you choose?â
They say that the cruelest heart belonged to a married woman. But in my opinion, this manâs heart was much crueler than any married women!
âIâm not choosing either.â
âFine! Iâll chose for you!â
âNo!â I shouted. I could see that Anson was determined to kill. He was about to kill âLin Yixinâ. If my physical body dies, Iâll become a ghost!
âHaha!â Anson started laughing like a maniac, âYouâre finally scared. I guess I made the right choice.â
I was scared all along, dude. Donât make it sound like Iâm brave....
âDonât be so emotional. Letâs talk this over.â Since I was anxious, I have been secretly trying to untie the rope behind me. But a manâs hands were too big, I couldnât do anything.
My wrist was starting to hurt; I must have scraped my skin.
âOh yes, there is something I want to know. Suyang, how did you know I wasnât Lin Yixin? Itâs her face....â
âMy intuition! You were too intense when you kissed me. That isnât something Lin Yixin would do. She had never once shown so much initiative.â Suyang replied honestly.
What? Kiss? Ugh! A fire immediately lit up inside me.
Wait, does that count? When Anson kissed Suyang as Lin Yixin...was that Anson kissing Suyang or Lin Yixin kissing Suyang?
âBut how did you figure out who was Lin Yixin? She even changed sex.â
âMy intuition.â Suyang looked at me, âA manâs 6th sense is quite accurate. If you love her enough, regardless of what she turns into, youâll be able to sense her original aura based on her movements.â
Anson clapped, âWell said. Iâm sad and jealous at the same time.â
âAnson, I already told you as a child that we werenât possible. I will never love you as a lover.â
âI know youâre normal. I know you wonât like men.â
âIt has nothing to do with your sex. I just canât be lovers with you. Youâre my childhood best friend. Even if you shoot and kill Lin Yixinâs physical body, the one I love is Lin Yixinâs soul. So please, put down the gun. Doing this will not help you.â
âSuyang....â I couldnât stop my silent tears from running down my face. The time we had spent together had nourished this deep-rooted love.
âI had already fallen deeply in love before I could prepare myself. If only I had realized this sooner...â Suyang whispered to me.
His voice sounded like the worldâs last gramophone record.
âI want to see how you guys can continue being in love with my face....â
Then, a gunshot rang in the air. *bang*!
âNo!!!!â I screamed in despair. I watched as âIâ fell onto the ground, âNooooooo! You canât!â
Was âIâ about to die? I donât want to have Ansonâs face for the rest of my life! Iâm Lin Yixin! Lin Yixin is me!