Translated by Twelve_Months_of_May
Gu Mingxi, have you gone mad? Why are you crying and laughing at the same time?
A tear fell onto her arm.
Gu Mingxi recalled the words he told Dou Dou earlier that morning. âYouâre a boy, you canât love crying so much.â But now, his own eyes were all red. If Dou Dou saw him, heâd definitely make fun of him.
Thinking of this, he couldnât help laughing. Pang Qian put her face next to his. She said, âGu Mingxi, have you gone mad? Why are you crying and laughing at the same time?â
Her kiss landed on his eyes. After helping him get rid of his tears, she loosened her embrace and sat down beside him. She turned to look at him.
His head was bowed deeply, his eyes drooping. His body shook a bit. Pang Qian stroked his face and called to him, âGu Mingxi, Gu Mingxiâ¦â
She held his face in her hand, her thumb wiping away the tears. Finally, her own voice started choking up. âYouâre the worst. I already decided that I wasnât going to cry. And in the end, you actually cried, even though youâre a grown man. Does that make sense?â
Pang Qianâs tears spilled out from her eyes. Gu Mingxi finally lifted his head to look at her. Both of their eyes were red, their faces covered in tears. But in front of each othersâ eyes was the face that was engraved deeply into their minds.
âGu Mingxi, let me take a good look at you.â Her finger gently stroked his face, from his eyebrows to his eyes, and then his nose, lips, chin⦠He was no longer that fair and pretty youth. But he also didnât look as dark, thin, or sloppy as he had six years ago. Gu Mingxi had grown into a grown up man now. His complexion was a bit darker and well built. There were distinctive contours on his face. A straight nose, thin lips, a firm and sharp chin. Heâd lost the softness and innocence of youth.
But the eyes he used to look at her were still the same as all those years ago. Gentle, pure, as vast as the sea.
Pang Qian smiled through her tears. âGu Mingxi, itâs really you! How can you be like this, hiding in such a faraway place? Do you know how hard itâs been searching for you?â
He hadnât spoken yet. At this moment, he opened his mouth and gently called to her, âPang Pang.â
âEy!â Pang Qianâs tears started falling again. Gu Mingxi felt it was just incredible. He called her once again, âPang Pang.â
âEy! Itâs me!â
âPang Pang, Pang Pangâ¦â
âItâs me, itâs me!â
âPang Pang.â
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He suddenly straightened up, his chest out, sitting stiffly next to Pang Qian. His shoulders had grown more broad and his chest more thick. He tried his best to embrace her with what was left of his shoulders. She was surrounded by his scent, the very same one in her memories. Pang Qian broke out in tears and immediately held onto him, hugging him tightly in her arms. She called out loudly, âGu Mingxi! Gu Mingxi! Itâs me! Itâs me! Iâm warning you, this is the last time! If you dare to leave without a sound again, Iâm going to post all your private information onto the internet! Your photo too! Iâm going to let all your female fans see what an asshole their beloved Mister Ostrich really is!â
Gu Mingxi couldnât help it and suddenly let out a laugh. He straightened up again, staring at the girl in front of him.
She was very pretty now.
He felt very surprised. It was clearly her face and her facial features, but right now, Pang Qian looked so elegant and beautiful. She had a head of shoulder-length reddish-brown hair, and she wasnât wearing any makeup. She had on a floral dress, and he could see her elegant shoulders and her delicate collarbone. Her skin was white and pale, her expression still as fresh and lively as before.
Pang Qian crinkled her nose and made a face at him. She said, âWhat, scared now? Gu Mingxi, Iâm telling you, Iâm a person who keeps my word. If you play around and go missing again, Iâm going to mobilize the entire nation to find you!â
After she finished, she pulled out a napkin and wiped away her own tears along with Gu Mingxiâs. Speaking to herself, she said, âGood thing I had foresight. I knew I would cry when I saw you, so I didnât put on any makeup. If I had, youâd be laughing so much at me right now.â
Gu Mingxi lips sprang up and he smiled particularly happily.
This was really his Pang Pang. The one always by his side, who loved to make trouble, the girl who loved crying. Sheâd grown up, but she hadnât changed.
Pang Qian finally calmed herself. She was a bit thirsty when she spotted the iced coffee on the table. She grabbed it and took a sip. Gu Mingxi said, âI already drank from it.â
Pang Qian gulped down half the cup and put it back on the table. She bent over, closed her eyes, and kissed him on the lips.
He immediately tasted the thick scent of coffee from her mouth. Cold and sweet. As she pecked his lips, she said, âI drank some too. Do you mind?â
Their foreheads touched, and he smiled and shook his head.
Pang Qian looked at him playfully and stuck out her tongue. âThen thatâs fine.â
In order to give them ample time to get reacquainted, Jiang Qi stayed away from the terrace for half an hour. Seeing Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi sitting side by side, smiling happily, Jiang Qi also felt very happy. She sat across from them. âThis is the most beautiful Christmas Iâve ever had. After I read Xiao Guâs story for the first time, I cried for half a day. I kept thinking, how could Miss Crab bear to live this kid? Now, the stone weighing my heart down has finally been released. Seeing you two reunite because of the book I put out makes me really happy. Working as Xiao Guâs editor for four years, watching him all by himself, I really wanted to see him get his happy ending.â
The three of them had lunch together. Jiang Qi and Gu Mingxi also discussed work. It was nearly the new year. Jiang Qi told Gu Mingxi that with the new year, the company hoped that Gu Mingxi would be able to put out two books. One in the summer, and another at the end of the year.
âI know that you have a heavy workload, but Xiao Gu, considering how popular âCrabâ is right now, we really should strike while the ironâs hot. I know that there are a lot of companies trying to sign your next book now, and their royalties might be higher. But the Team Leader said that if your new book is published with us, your royalties will definitely go up, and youâll definitely be satisfied. The Team Leader means for you to be at ease. Since weâve worked together for so many years now, from when you were unknown to all your fame now, I hope that Iâll be able to keep working with you. And you know the attitude of our publishing house. Our production and promotion are both industry-leading. So, Xiao Gu, I hope that as you develop ideas for your new book, youâll be able to continue discussing them with me.â
Pang Qian was having pasta as she listened from the side. She asked, âGu Mingxi, how much do you get in royalties for a book?â
Gu Mingxi turned to look at her, his expression a bit shy. He said, âNot much.â
Jiang Qi covered her mouth and laughed. âThis, itâs an industry secret. We signed a confidentiality agreement with Xiao Gu, so he canât leak that information.â
âSo mysterious?â Pang Qian was surprised. âEven family canât know?â
Jiang Qi said, âThatâs not entirely the case. If a wife and husband discuss things in their own private time, you and I both know, thereâs naturally nothing we can do.â
Gu Mingxiâs face reddened and he lowered his head. His foot grabbed onto his fork and twisted up his pasta. Pang Qian glanced over at him and said quietly, âHe and I⦠rarely have secrets.â
After lunch, the sun was shining down strongly. The boss put up an umbrella for shade. Pang Qian went inside to look at the magazines, leaving Gu Mingxi and Jiang Qi to chat on the terrace. The air conditioning was on inside the cafe. She sat by the window, the warm sun shining on her making her sleepy. Not long after, she fell asleep on the sofa.
Sleeping for some time, she suddenly felt a gentle touch on her ankle. Pang Qian opened her eyes and saw Gu Mingxi sitting beside her, reaching over to her ankle with his foot.
âYouâre done?â Pang Qian sat up and looked over to the terrace. Jiang Qi was already gone. She asked, âWhereâs Qi?â
âShe went to the airport.â Gu Mingxi smiled slightly.
âHow long did I sleep for?â
âNot long, about an hour.â He looked at her and said, âPang Pang, letâs go.â
âGo where?â
âTo the school where I work.â As he spoke, he gently caressed her smooth leg with his foot. Pang Qian looked down at the chain around his right ankle. It was the small stone sheâd gifted him.
Such a (monetarily) worthless chain, and he actually wore it for so many years.
He said, âDid Qi tell you that Iâm working as a teacher now?â
Pang Qian nodded. âShe mentioned it to me. You live at the school?â
âYeah, the school dorms.â Gu Mingxi stood up and looked at Pang Qianâs luggage. He said, âPang Pang, letâs go. Iâll take you to see the school. Itâs Christmas today, and a few of the teachers agreed to have a party tonight.â
Pang Qian dragged her luggage along. Gu Mingxi said they ought to take a taxi, and Pang Qian asked, âHow did you get here?â
Gu Mingxi smiled, âI took the bus.â
âThen we can just take the bus back.â Pang Qian wore a large straw hat and looked around excitedly. âItâs been a long time since Iâve taken the bus with you. Weâre not in a rush anyway. No need to take a taxi.â
Gu Mingxi had no other option, so he the two of them took the bus back. Luckily, the bus wasnât crowded. They still sat at the very back.
Hainanâs sky was ridiculously blue, and the air was especially nice. Pang Qian sat by the window and watched the beautiful Sanya scenery passing by. She felt very relaxed and pleasant. It was the week of Christmas, and though it wasnât cold at all, many shops still hung up Christmas decorations. Having come from the cold E City, Pang Qian felt like she was dreaming here, with the warm winter outside and the warm Gu Mingxi beside her.
The bus swayed and started up as Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi started chatting. She asked, âWhen did you come to Sanya?â
Gu Mingxi answered, âThree years ago, at the end of â07.â
âWhy did you decide to come here?â
âBecause itâs very warm here. I donât have to wear thick clothes all year long.â He lifted his foot for her to see. âLook, I can wear sandals in December. Itâs much more convenient for me.â
Pang Qian looked at his feet and then curled her lips. Actually, sheâd noticed it earlier when they were eating. His feet werenât the way she remembered them.
His feet were very big. Pang Qian remembered that, even though he used his feet for many things, like eating, writing, putting on his clothes, and picking things up, his feet were always clean and white. He would keep his toenails short. If his feet got dirty, he would wash them at the first opportunity he got.
But now, his feet were dark, rough, and even covered with scars.
Pang Qian couldnât imagine how he got those scars. She looked at bone protruding out beside his big toe, the obvious veins on the back of his foot, the cracks and calluses, and she felt such heartache.
The only thing that hadnât changed was probably his toenails. They were still cut short and neat, rectangular with a small half sun. Pang Qian recalled that her dad had said that it meant that Gu Mingxi was very healthy.
Pang Qian lowered her head onto Gu Mingxiâs shoulder and wrapped her arms around his waist. She asked, âGu Mingxi, when did Auntie pass away?â
Gu Mingxi looked down and said, â2006, in May.â
âWhere did you go after that?â
âS City.â
âDid you ever return to E City?â
He turned to look at her and nodded. âAfter my mom passed away, I went back to E City once to take care of some formalities.â
âBy yourself?â
âI went by myself, but Shark helped me take care of some things.â
âWhy didnât you look for me to help you?â
âPang Pangâ¦â He didnât really know how to explain. Pang Qian would never know how far heâd fallen at that time. After Li Han passed away, he sold the house and returned all the money and favors he owed. He was neatly penniless and homeless at that point.
He was completely unable to take care of himself. But even then, he didnât go to Gu Guoxiang for help.
Shark and Xu Shuanghua lent Gu Mingxi two pairs of helping hands. After careful consideration, Gu Mingxi decided to accept Xu Shuanghuaâs help. He followed Xu Shuanghua to S City and moved into his house.
Xu Shuanghua was a very busy person. Aside from when there was class, he was flying all across the country. Gu Mingxi mostly stayed at home by himself.
When Xu Shuanghua returned, heâd teach Gu Mingxi about drawing. Sometimes, he would let him go to S Cityâs Art Institute to listen in on a lecture.
The teachers and students at the school quickly took notice of this special boy. He carried his backpack and walked around the campus. He knew the curriculum for all the school disciplines. Often, he would silently enter a room before a class started and sit in the corner to observe.
All the teachers knew his relation to Xu Shuanghua, so they never made him leave. Gu Mingxi didnât disturb others either. During sketching classes, he didnât draw, but instead listened, watched, and thought. When he returned home, he would practice drawing.
Most of the time, Gu Mingxi was very calm. But occasionally, he would become a bit fidgety. Whenever that happened, he would head over to the talent market at the bridge in S City and have a chat with Cannon.
Cannon was a good guy. When they were together, Gu Mingxi felt completely at ease. Cannon taught Gu Mingxi how to make the small straw figures. Frogs, crabs, butterflies, grasshoppers, rabbits⦠He worked very slowly and clumsily with his feet, and sometimes he just leaned against the bridge railing and daydreamed.
The winters in S City were just as intolerably cold as those in Z City. The temperatures outside were extremely low and the people on the road would rush by in their thick coats. Gu Mingxi wore a lot of clothes. Bundled up like a big cotton ball, he sat on the bridge as the winter wind blew through his hair. Then he looked up silently at the dark gray sky.
One time, someone passed by him and then walked back, leaving five dollars on the floor in front of him before walking away.
Gu Mingxi stared at that five dollars and Cannon laughed crazily beside him. After he finished laughing, he asked Gu Mingxi, âXiao Gu, do you have any difficulties right now?â
Gu Mingxi shook his head, âNo, Iâm doing well.â
Cannon pulled out 500 dollars from his pocket. Ignoring Gu Mingxiâs protests, he stuffed it into Gu Mingxiâs pocket. âGo buy something good to eat. Youâre too thin.â
At the time, Gu Mingxi was still drawing for other artists, one book after another, working hard to earn money. In early 2007, Xu Shuanghua gave Gu Mingxi Jiang Qiâs business card and told him that there was a publishing company that was very interested in his works.
At the end of 2007, Gu Mingxi decided move down south. Before leaving, he went to the bridge to see Cannon. But even after several days, Cannon didnât show up.
The woman who sold lighters to the side of him told Gu Mingxi that Cannonâs kid had gotten sick, so they went away for treatment.
From then on, Gu Mingxi never met Cannon again.
When the bus arrived at their stop, Gu Mingxi and Pang Qian got off together. They were in a place pretty far away from the city. The streets were lined with tropical trees, but Pang Qian didnât know if they were palm trees or coconut trees. She just dragged her luggage along behind Gu Mingxi, asking one question after another.
âGu Mingxi, what class do you teach at school?â
âGuess.â Gu Mingxi turned to her and smiled.
She thought for a moment. âArt?â
âThatâs right. But not just that.â
âWhat else?â
âMath and English.â Gu Mingxi said, âThere arenât many teachers here, so each one teaches several classes.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
âAnd you still have time to draw?â
âMy schedule is really tight, but you make time. On the weekends, during summer and winter breaks, in the evenings. I can draw at those times.â He shrugged. âI donât really have any other recreational activities.â
Pang Qian asked, âLiving in the dorms, is there anything thatâs inconvenient for you?â
âNaturally,â Gu Mingxi said. âNo matter how amazing my feet are, they still wonât be as good as hands.â
He spoke very clearly, but Pang Qian felt terrible about it. She pulled off her straw hat and put it on his head. The she said angrily, âWho told you to hide yourself away somewhere? Who told you not to look for me?! When you were in E City, where you ever alone? I-I definitely would have helped you.â
Her hat was sky blue, with trimmed edges and a pink bow. Gu Mingxi shook his head, but not only didnât the hat fall off, it fit his head even more. Helplessly, he said, âPang Pangâ¦â
Pang Qian laughed nonstop. Gu Mingxi had her help him take the had off, but she didnât want to. Gu Mingxi blocked her path and grabbed at her skirt. Pang Qian laughed happily and jumped away.
Theyâd already walked onto the school grounds. The two of them were playing around when a voice sounded from the side, âTeacher Xiao Guâs back? Ah? Whoâs the pretty lady?â
Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi turned their heads and saw five people, three young men and a young woman. There were also six of seven little boys.
Gu Mingxi was still wearing the straw hat with a pink bow, and his face turned red with embarrassment. He shouted at Pang Qian again, âPang Pang, hurry and take the hat off!â