Translated by Twelve_Months_of_May
Part 4. My Heart, Like the Sea
Gu Mingxi, can you say it in a way that I can understand?
Gu Mingxi got into Pang Qianâs car, a red Sagitar. There was a little grey wolf hanging from the rear view mirror and the seat was covered with a Mickey Mouse cushion. There was also a Yoyo and Cici (monkeys) stuck on the dashboard. This was obviously a girlâs car. When the car started, those little monkeys would start bobbing. Gu Mingxi stared at them for a moment and then smiled silently.
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He asked Pang Qian, âWhen did you buy a car?â
âAh, the middle of last year. Iâve only been back a little longer than a year.â
âAre you planning on going back to Shanghai? There should be more opportunity for expansion there.â
She didnât answer right away, but after awhile, she said, âI probably wonât be going back any time soon.â
As Pang Qian drove Gu Mingxi around the streets of E City, she realized that the man beside had been silent the whole time.
She didnât disturb him. It took an hour to get from the airport to Sharkâs place. Pang Qian gave him his space, to let him take in all the changes to the city in the long time that heâd been gone.
Along the way, there were a lot of road blocks. Gu Mingxi said, âTheyâre building a subway here, right? I saw in the news that E City was building a subway.â
âMm, the first line will open next year. Thereâs a stop next to my house too.â Pang Qian smiled. âWhere did you see the news?â
âE City News Online, and also Baixing forums.â (Note: Baixing is basically like Craigslist.)
As the car passed by the site where the metals factory used to exist, Gu Mingxi looked out the window at the unfamiliar square. He asked, âWhatâs this place called?â
âNew Century Square,â Pang Qian replied. âHey, see that brown building? Thatâs where the compound used to be.â
âIf they tore down the compound, where does Grandpa Ceng live now?â Gu Mingxi asked.
Pang Qian paused. Then she said, âGrandpa Ceng passed away a long time ago. Before they tore the compound down, he was already gone.â
Gu Mingxiâs pulled his eyes back from the window. He thought for a moment, and then asked, âI nearly forgot. If Grandpa Cai were still alive, heâd be more than 80 years old.â
Pang Qian nodded. âYeah, weâre already all grown up.â
The heavy machinery factory hadnât been demolished yet. Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi arrived at Sharkâs house.
Shark had already gotten married with Xiao Le, and they had a (more than) 2 year old daughter. They came back from Shanghai for New Yearâs. The family of three lived together with Sharkâs mother. The second floor of the house was still empty, which was great for Gu Mingxi to stay in.
When Pang Qian saw Shark, she was really angry. A few years ago, sheâd gone to find Shark in Pudong a few times. Each time, sheâd asked if heâd heard anything about Gu Mingxi, but Shark swore to god that he hadnât had any contact with Gu Mingxi. He said he hadnât seen him in the past few years.
Pang Qian clenched her teeth. âShark, youâre really too much! You saw that I was looking for him all these years! Didnât you ever feel guilty?! You couldnât tell him that Iâd been waiting for him all that time?!â
Shark quickly apologized. âIâm sorry, sorry. Little Crab, itâs really not that I didnât tell him. I worried for him too. It was that blockhead Xiao Gu who didnât get it straight. Go ask him. I tried persuading him for years!â
Gu Mingxi smiled at the side, which made Pang Qian even more angry. She pinched at his waist, âYouâre still smiling?!â
âOh!â He couldnât help calling out. Sharkâs daughter, Tian Tian, ran over at them and started hitting Pang Qianâs legs with her little hands. âBad guy! Bad!â
âHey! So even this little girl is your fan?â Pang Qian picked up Tian Tian. The little plump girl glared at her. Pang Qian said, âLittle Plump Girl, why are you calling me a bad guy?â
âYou hit Uncle!â Tian Tian twisted around with all her strength in Pang Qianâs arms. She pat Gu Mingxiâs face with her little hands and like a child, she said, âUncle, does it hurt?â
Gu Mingxi smiled and kissed Tian Tianâs forehead. He said, âIt doesnât hurt. Tian Tianâs a good girl.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi had lunch at Sharkâs place. Afterwards, she carried his luggage into the guest room. She helped him change out the bed sheets for a clean pair, and as she was about to help him unpack his things, Gu Mingxi stopped her.
âI can take care of it. Didnât you say you had to head back to work in the afternoon? Hurry and go. Iâve already held up your entire morning.â
Pang Qian pouted. âWhatâs there to be so polite about with me? Iâve been a bit busy these few days, so I wonât be able to spend time with you. But we can get together over the weekend, okay?â
Gu Mingxi smiled and nodded.
Pang Qian sat down beside him and asked, âWhen are you coming over to my house for a meal? I told my parents that you were back and my dad called you over for a meal.â
Gu Mingxi thought for a moment, and then said, âHow about tomorrow night? I havenât seen them in a long time, and Uncle and Auntie took care of me a lot. I feel pretty bad not having kept in touch all these years.â
âSo you know that too, huh.â Pang Qian hugged him. âThen itâs settled. Tomorrow night. Iâll get off work a little earlier to pick you up. Iâll probably have to work overtime tonight, so we wonât get to see each other. Iâll cal you when I get home.â
Gu Mingxi asked, âDo you work overtime often?â
âYeah. And especially at the end of the year, everyoneâs really busy.â Pang Qian smiled at him. âDonât worry, I wonât work too late. Iâll be home by 10 or 11 at the latest.â
Gu Mingxi frowned. â10 or 11 isnât late?â
âAiya, in our line of work, itâs pretty common to work all night too. One time, I didnât go home for three days and worked at the office until the sky was dark. When I got sleepy, Iâd take a nap on the sofa for a few hours, and then get back to work when I woke up.â
Gu Mingxi felt very distressed about it. âHow can your body handle that? Pang Pang, itâs too tough like this.â
âThatâs what work is like.â Pang Qian reached out and ruffled his hair, and then she touched his forehead. âIâm sure that when you have to get a book out, you stay up all night too.â
Gu Mingxi spoke firmly, âIâve never worked through the night before.â
âOkay, Iâll watch out for my health.â Pang Qian checked her watch. âItâs already past 1 oâclock, I have to get going. Iâll call you at night. Bye.â
She kissed him on the lips and then grabbed her bag and left.
Gu Mingxi stayed at Sharkâs house. He hadnât met with Shark in a long time, so they spent the rest of the day chatting. In the evening, Clam brought his girlfriend over. Heâd already gotten his college diploma and was working at a Volkswagen dealership. Because of his baby face and sweet talk, the customers were happy and business was taken care of quickly.
When Clam saw Gu Mingxi, he was extremely excited. He pointed to Gu Mingxi to show his girlfriend. âDo you know who this is? Heâs the extremely popularâ¦â
Shark smacked him on the back of his head, and Clam quickly swallowed the rest of his words. His girlfriend asked curiously, âExtremely popular what?â
âUh⦠An internet celebrity.â
âAh?â
Gu Mingxi smiled. âIgnore his nonsense. Iâm just a primary school teacher who occasionally posts drawings online.â
Clamâs girlfriend asked, âWhatâs your internet handle?â
âIâm sorry, I havenât revealed myself to the public yet,â Gu Mingxi said. âIâm Gu Mingxi, and you can call me Xiao Gu. In this place, Iâm just Shark and Clamâs good friend, nothing more.â
Because they hadnât seen each other in a long time, everyone drank a bit more than usual at dinner. Clam drunkenly called Oyster, whoâd already gone back to his hometown to live. Heâd opened his own barbecue place. When he heard Gu Mingxiâs voice over the phone, he was suddenly really moved and started crying. âXiao Gu! Itâs really you!â
Gu Mingxi felt extremely touched. He realized that in all these years, there were more than just a few people whoâd been thinking of him.
Oyster said, âWhen are you and Little Crab getting married? Give me a call then and Iâll definitely be there. Pearl always kept saying she wondered what ended up happening between Xiao Gu and Little Crab.â
Gu Mingxi laughed. âItâs a bit too early to talk about that. Pang Qian and I just⦠Weâve just been together for a little while now.â
Listening at his side, Clam got really excited. In a loud voice, he called out, âXiao Gu, Xiao Gu! Did you eat up Crab?â (Note: Literally âeat up and wipe cleanâ)
Gu Mingxiâs face was already red from drinking, but it started burning even more now.
Shark scolded Clam, âYour headâs full of dirty thoughts! You think Xiao Guâs you?!â
Clam complained, âXiao Guâs already 27 years old! Can this be considered dirty thoughts?! If a guy holds himself back for too long, something bad will happen! Hey, Xiao Gu, youâre not still a virgin are you?â
Xiao Le was so embarrassed that she got up from her seat. Clamâs girlfriend couldnât stand to hear him keep talking, so she grabbed at his ear. âShut up! You really drank too much!â
Gu Mingxiâs face was so red you could cook on it. He lowered his head and drank more beer through his straw.â
It wasnât until 11 oâclock that Pang Qianâs call came. Sheâd just arrived home, and she sounded tired. Gu Mingxi told her about his dinner with Shark and Clam. As Pang Qian listened, she woke up a bit. âAiya, you guys are terrible. Youâre playing around while I have to work overtime? I donât care, next time, tell Shark to invite Clam over again.â
Gu Mingxi laughed, âNo problem.â
âIs Clam getting along well now?â
Gu Mingxi told Pang Qian about Clam, and she said, âWhoâd have thought. If I knew, Iâd have bought my car from him. I mightâve even gotten a discount.â
As she spoke, she yawned. Gu Mingxi said, âPang Pang, youâre tired. Get to sleep.â
âBut I want to talk with you.â
âArenât we meeting up tomorrow? Hurry and wash up, and then go to sleep early. You still have to go to work tomorrow.â
Pang Qian rolled onto her bed with her phone in hand. âOkay, Iâll go wash up then. You sleep early too.â
âMm, goodnight.â
âGoodnight.â She kissed at her phone. âGu Mingxi, see you tomorrow.â
The next day, Pang Qian got off work and quickly headed to Sharkâs place to pick up Gu Mingxi.
Shark helped Gu Mingxi bring a bunch of things to Pang Qianâs car. Pang Qian stared a bit, and then asked, âWhatâs this? Whatâs all this for?â
Shark laughed out loud. âThe kidâs going to see his wifeâs parents. He had me go along with him to buy some gifts during the day.â
Pang Qian looked at the bags carefully. Two bottles of wine, two packs of smokes, two cases of health products, a gift box of fruit, and even a box of jewelry. She looked at Gu Mingxiâs bashful expression and complained, âWhy did you buy so much stuff? Itâs so expensive!â
âI should do it.â Gu Mingxi smiled. âIâm just worried that you wonât be able to carry it all up, and weâll have to ask Uncle to help.â
Seeing how apprehensive he looked, Pang Qian couldnât say anything else. She closed the car door and giggled. âIâm taking the guy I like to meet my parents. Gu Mingxi, are you nervous?â
âNo.â He turned his head away, reluctant to admit it.
Pang Qian kept giggling as she closed her mouth.
The car headed toward the Prosperous North neighborhood and then parked the car. She carried out all the bags of things from the car. Gu Mingxi looked around at the unfamiliar area. There were six or seven tall buildings around a park. The park had a pond in it, which was surrounded by evergreens. There was also a childrenâs playground and public exercise area.
âWhat do you think of the place?â Pang Qian asked him.
Gu Mingxi looked around and nodded. âNot bad.â
âCompared to the Compound?â
Gu Mingxi looked over at her and laughed as he shook his head. âCanât be compared.â
Pang Qian also laughed and said, âI think so too, canât be compared.â
When they took the elevator up, Pang Qian saw Gu Mingxiâs reflection in the mirror.
He was wearing a light yellow down jacket, one of the things Pang Qian had bought for him. The bright color gave off a warm feeing. Itâs just that yellow would make a pale person look more pale, and it also made a tan person look darker.
Gu Mingxi examined himself in the mirror. He turned his neck and moved his shoulders. And then he saw the girl beside him faintly smile. (Note: Literally âsmile but not smileâ)
He shrugged, tilted his head and smiled at her. âIâm really tan right now, so yellow doesnât look good on me.â
Pang Qian shook her head. âNo, I think you look really handsome.â
âReally?â
âOf course.â She tilted her head and laughed as she looked at him. âDidnât anyone ever tell you that you were First Highâs school hunk?â
The corners of Gu Mingxiâs lips curved up. âWasnât that Xie Yi?â
âEveryone said you were more handsome than Xie Yi. Didnât you know?â
âEveryone saidâ¦â Gu Mingxi looked at her with shining eyes. âSo what did you think?â
âIâ¦â Pang Qian smiled wickedly. âSeeing you all the time as I grew up, I grew so tired of it. At the time, I kept arguing with Li Xiaoyan. She said you were handsome, but I said Xie Yi was handsome.â
Gu Mingxiâs face gave her a dirty look. Pang Qian laughed as she watched him. Then she said, âBut when I couldnât find you, I realized that you were better looking than everyone else. Even when you came to Shanghai all sloppy looking, I still felt that you were the best looking.â
ââ¦â
âTo be honest, I saw a lot of handsome guys after that.â Pang Qian spoke slower. âOf my clients and friends, there are some who are mixed and Caucasian. Golden hair, blue eyes, tall, with great qualities â they were really handsome. Even Xie Yi wouldnât be able to compare. And there were a few colleagues at work who were also extremely handsome. For example, there were a ton of girls who had the hots for my team leader. But so what?â
The elevator dinged as it arrived on the 17th floor. Pang Qian and Gu Mingxi stepped out, and stood in front of Apt. 1702. She turned to Gu Mingxi and said, âGu Mingxi, no matter how handsome those guys were, in my eyes, none of them could compare to you.â
Then she used her foot to knock on the door. Gu Mingxi had been speaking with her the whole time, but now, he was very nervous. The door opened and Pang Shuisheng and Jin Aihua stood together there.
The feeling of home and family gushed out the door. A warm, brightly lit living room. The rumbling of the exhaust hood on in the kitchen. And the aroma of a delicious meal floating in the airâ¦
Gu Mingxi looked at the middle aged couple in front of him. They were already more than 50 years old. Their hair was greying, their stomachs fat, with more wrinkles on their face, and their stature even seemed to have shrunk.
He still remembered the younger Pang Shuisheng, thick black hair and a strong body. He helped him alter his bike. He had a custom desk made for him. In primary school, when it rained, Pang Shuisheng would ride over on his large bike and take the two kids home.
Gu Mingxi sat in front of him, covered with Pang Shuishengâs raincoat so he wouldnât get wet. And Pang Qian sat behind him and would get drenched every time.
Gu Mingxi once brought up changing seats, but before Pang Shuisheng could answer, the dripping wet Pang Qian called out, âNo! You canât hold on, so if you sit on the back, youâll probably fall off!â
â¦
That was really a very long time ago. A smile appeared on Gu Mingxiâs face, no longer nervous. In a quiet voice, he said, âUncle, Auntie.â