October, 2019 Dear jeronimo:
Although I never loved you...or liked you.
I thought you were an important part of this book because you were the second boy I ever went on an actual date with.
Our love story is short lived, but friendship is long lasted.
And I know that doesn't make sense....but it will after I tell our story~
I met you at the schools homecoming dance October 5th 2019.
My best friend A took me to her schools homecoming because I was homeschooled.
She went to introduce me to her friends and there you were sitting on the ledge looking at me.
She didn't know you, but she noticed you eyeing me.
So she simply said "why don't you go dance with glasses over there?"
I was so confused until I looked at you and saw you walking over to me.
I got shy and politely said "no"
But you insisted and somehow got me to go dance with you.
When I first met you I did get butterflies, you weren't ugly...you were quite cute in the lighting.
You wore glasses and had very pretty curly brown hair.
We slow danced and we ended up being together for the rest of the night.
But then you weirded me out because you kept pushing me on you and pulling me in real tight...and I wasn't used to boys touching me like that after first meeting...
But after that night we kept in touch...and we would call each other.
I remember trying to make my voice sound pretty over the phone, as stupid as it was.
But how was I to know?
We would talk over the phone for hours.
Until one day I asked if you wanted to go to a movie together.
You agreed, so we went and had a pretty good time considering it was 11 in the morning....
(why you ask? Because he had work at 2PM so we decided to watch the movie early!)
It's so cringy and funny to think about now...
But that's how we were.
Fast forward November~ 2019
It was battleline...a very intense rivalry football game between the two neighbor schools.
You invited me to go with you...but I chose to travel to Dallas with my dad for his ASN tour...
I felt bad, and I really wanted to go to the football game. And my dad offered to drive me home so I could go the next day.
So I took it, and we drove 4 hours back home and he dropped me off, stayed the night, and drove back to Dallas without me.
I ended up going to battleline with you and we had a great time!
I realized how popular you were as you knew everyone we passed by.
After that night I think I realized my feelings for you weren't as strong as I thought they were~
Because i grew to realize how hard you tried to be someone you weren't.
And I didn't like how you tried to impress me with the dumbest things.
I know you didn't mean any harm, but it bothered me...and it also got in my head that I didn't want someone who was trying to hard.
So I ghosted you....and now I feel really bad for doing that, because I never want that happening to me...but I didn't know any better.
And I'm sorry~
The last time we hugged goodbye at battleline would be the last time we saw each other in a flirty way~
But just a year later 2020
I would run into at Walmart somehow and we would talk to each other.
But that's the last goodbye we ever said in person.
But we still stay in touch every now and then.
You will FaceTime me on random occasions and we will laugh and joke about our old dating phase.
You're a great friend...and I'm glad we stay in touch to have silly late night talks.
So even though our love life ended quite quickly....
We have an amazing friendship...so thank you jeronimo.
Goodbye Jeronimo Melendez