December, 2019
Dear hunter~
I'm just going to be honest, I never liked you from the beginning...and I probably never will.
But just like jeronimo I thought it would be important to add you.
End of November beginning of December~ 2019
I was introduced to you through my friend A...
She showed me your pictures and even from those I didn't find you very attractive...but I wasn't gonna let those define you as a person.
We all decided to go to the movies together to get to know each other since you found me attractive.
But before we even met you messaged me on Instagram asking if I found you attractive.
And I wasn't going to lie to you so I just told you that you favor my best friend M a little
And then you got angry at me...I should've known from Thai day forward you were a bad idea.
But I'm a nice person...so I gave you a second chance.
I met you that night at the movies and you didn't even sit next to me because you were mad that I didn't tell you that you were attractive.
But we continued to talk....and somehow for just a split second I sort of liked you....i met up with you and our friends at a basketball game and you gave me a Christmas present...which was a teddy bear.
And it was so sweet of you ~
And later on that night you would tell your friend you were in love with me.
Not going to lie~ it creeped me out because we had only known each other for a week and met 2 times only.
There's no way you could love me??
I just know You would always get angry at me for not replying to your texts and then make me feel bad bc I didn't like you
So one day I just said it...and it felt forced...
"I like you too"
Biggest mistake I could've ever made...because that made you so possessive over me, and you would always get mad at me for not answering your messages or calls in a certain amount of time.
"You didn't text me back and it's been 3 hours!"
"Sorry I was watching a movie with family"
But you wouldn't take that excuse ever....
And everytime we FaceTimed you would play video games and not even talk to me...so I never understood the point of me wasting my time with you.
But I still let you control me...and I wish I didn't.
One day we all decided to go to the movies again so all 4 of us went to go watch frozen 2.
This is when you made your first move on me and wrapped your arm around me and hugged me.
Me being in the moment and something like this never happening I gave in and rested my head on your shoulder.
And your so called "love" for me was growing more and more as you became more and more possessive and controlling with me.
And I think that's the last time we saw each other...
That night was the last goodbye I ever told you in person.
I can't even remember the messages we sent to finally say it's over because you were so irrelevant to me...
You treated me horrible....
It wasn't until MONTHS after you would message photos of myself to me saying
"Pain"
But I didn't care about your feelings at that point....you hurt ME mentally...
July 2020~
You will message me for the last time....
We hadn't talked in awhile...and you message me out of the blue saying you were sorry and you miss me a lot...you messaged me about how you wish you would've handlers things differently and that he wants a second chance.
But you know what I did....
I purposely turned my read receipts on and left you on read.
The one thing you hated most....
I don't cherish the horrible memories you gave me.
Goodbye Hunter Murphy