Dear jovanni~
Although I still wasn't completely over Fabian, I was good enough to not think about it.
And then you came along, I met you through my friend V's Instagram live...after her live stream ended you decided to follow me and then DM me.
Not going to lie, I thought you were pretty cute.
So I answered back.
You weirded me out at first, I thought you were just some everyday weirdo.
I mean you did show me condoms your mother had bought you for your birthday the first 5 minutes we talked and then told me your nickname was from selling flavored lube.
But for some reason you charmed your way out of that.
You were so welcoming and for some reason I felt like I could easily be honest with you, as you were so easily honest with me.
You told me all about how you lived in New Jersey and moved here when you were 8.
You explained how your dad is in the Latin kings gang back in jersey....which is the reason your mom moved you away.
I can't lie, I was shocked...but I knew I couldn't judge you off of your father...Especially if you have nothing to do with him.
Somehow you got me to call you and we ended up talking all night long FOR HOURS literally.
We found so much about each other..
You even were close friends with Fabian when you played on the football team.
Which was awkward...
You made me so comfortable, like I had never been this open with a guy before.
I told you everything from me having no luck in relationships to how scared I am of actually committing to someone
But you figured out how to make me feel like everything was okay and that we should just enjoy our summer.
But the more I talked to you the more I found out how much of a troublemaker you were.
And it scared me, I'm not going to lie.
And so after long and hard thinking I ended up ghosting you..I felt so bad. But it had to be done.
A few months later I saw you at the school pep rally for the first time.
And you did not look anything like your pictures, so it was easy to get over you then.
And then I saw u at the football game and IK u saw me, but we pretended like we didn't And it continued to happen Everytime we saw each other.
Today I saw you at the Halloween party (it was your party)
But seeing you be all man whore and shit really topped the icing on the cake.
So easily I will say
Goodbye Jovanni Nazario.