I'm an undesirable boyfriend anyway.
Translated by Dawn
Iâm an undesirable boyfriend anyway.
It was late at night in late July, at the height of summer.
I was lying on my bed in my darkened room, staring at the LIME chat screen.
The windows of my room were closed and the air conditioner was on.
Summer was still summer, even if it was late at night.
â¦â¦yesterday, or technically, the day before yesterday.
I was on my way to take Mizutani home when I ran into her mother.
I couldnât stop thinking about it, whether I was sleeping or waking up.
I wondered if I could have done something more.
Even though it was a family matter, I could have tried to do something a little more.
However, there was no use in continuing to wrestle with me endlessly like that.
So after that, I sent Mizutani a LIME to ask, âAre you okay?â
The message was displayed at the bottom of my chat history with Mizutani.
But there was no reply.
In fact, the message was not even read.
I felt uneasy and thought about sending a follow-up message.
But there was a possibility that nothing, in particular, had happened to Mizutani and that she was simply busy during the day. In that case, Mizutani would check the LIME notification at night.
I stopped sending additional messages, thinking to the point that if she had received a message from me at that timeâ¦she would surely become uncomfortable.
But, in the end, I hadnât received any reply until now.
When the message was still unread, I began to think that something must have happened to Mizutani. Mizutani wasnât the type to respond immediately, but she wasnât particularly slow in replying eitherâ¦
âUwaaa!â
Then, unexpectedly, the âAre you okay?â message was read, and I couldnât help but shout out. I covered my mouth in a panic and looked around the next room. Fortunately, I didnât wake Mai up.
âYouâre kidding, right? At this hour?
I was confused, putting myself on the shelf for being awake at such a âlate hour,â when I received a reply from Mizutani shortly after. âSorry, can we meet now?â The message was read immediately.
Thatâs right. I had just opened my chat history.
But I wondered what Mizutani would think.
âThis guy waited for me in the middle of the nightâ¦!â She might be shivering right now.
No, I felt like she would.
Objectively speaking, I was pretty creepy right now.
â¦Well, whatâs the use of dwelling on such things?
What had happened couldnât be helped now.
What I should be doing right now was replying to Mizutaniâs message.
I hurriedly typed, âI can meet you, but where?â After a short pause, Mizutani sent me an address. Apparently, it was a park near Mizutaniâs house. I replied with a simple, âOkay,â and jumped out of bed in a hurry.
After changing into jeans and a shirt, I opened the door to my room.
I turn the knob and open the door slowly so as not to make any noise.
Once outside my room, I looked around the hallway to my right and left.
It was strange how the inside of a house looked a little different late at night than it does during the day.
I put on my shoes as I was, opened the front door as quietly as possible, and walked out.
After locking the door, I searched the map app for the address sent to me and ran to my destination.
Mizutani was much closer to the park than I was, so if I did it normally, I would get there first.
Although it was late at night, it was summer, so it was not cold (in fact, it was usually hot and humid), but I did not want to keep her waiting for a long time.
When I reached a T-junction, I stopped running.
If I turned at this T-junction, I would be at my destination. In other words, Mizutani could be there.
It would be embarrassing for Mizutani to find out that I had run this far.
I took a pause to catch my breath and then turned at a T-junction.
It was the first time for me to go to the park, but I knew immediately where I wanted to go as soon as I turned the corner.
Because there was a girl with bright blonde hair standing at the entrance of the park.
âAizawa!â
She seemed to have found me on the other side and waved at me.
Mizutani was wearing a white one-piece dress with a cardigan over it.
The one-piece dress was called a negligee, I think.
I guess it was just a nightgown, but it looked much more fashionable than my own clothes.
I lightly raised my hand in response and approached Mizutani.
When I was a few steps closer than I could see her expression â she was smiling â Mizutani opened her mouth.
âItâs been a while since yesterday, Aizawa.â
âThe day before yesterday, to be exact. Weâve already crossed the day.â
âIt doesnât matter which day it is. â¦Letâs sit down for now.â
Mizutani pointed to a bench set up at the back of the park.
I nodded and entered the park alongside her.
I went to the bench and sat down alongside Mizutani.
But this situation was like a couple of delinquents in a story.
If we were discovered by the police, we would surely be taken into custody.
I looked at Mizutani next to me and our eyes met.
Mizutani was smiling at me in some way. I had a bad feeling about this.
âAizawa, I know youâve been looking at LIME. You read my message in an instant, and Iâm glad you replied so quickly.â
She hit a sore spot early on.
But I was learning from my past experiences.
Iâd have thought of an excuse by the time I ran all the way here.
âWell, it just happened. Speaking of which, you didnât reply to me today, Mizutani, but when I looked to see if my response had at least been read, I saw that it was at the timeâ¦you replied.â
âHmmm, so that can happen. But Iâm surprised youâre up at this time of night.â
ââ¦I donât have any plans for tomorrow, Iâm in the middle of a long vacation. Itâs not surprising that I am up at this hour; Iâm not a grade-schooler who goes to bed at 10:00 a.m.â
âYouâre right. Youâre a high school student.â
ââ¦the way you just said that it sounded really strange and deliberate.â
âItâs just your imagination.â
Mizutani shook her leg happily.
What is this feeling of being danced on the palm of my handâ¦Â As my face cramps, Mizutani poked at the painful spot.
âAh, and, you arrive quite early. Youâre sweating a lotâ¦did you run, by any chance?â
ââ¦Iâm sweating even if I donât run in this heat. Iâm a sweaty person.â
âHmm, Iâve never heard of that before. â¦â¦Iâll give you this for now.â
Mizutani offered me a lace handkerchief from the pocket of her cardigan.
I thought it wouldnât be a good idea to wipe my sweat with itâ¦but I didnât want to refuse, so I decided to use it gratefully.
âIâm sorry. Iâll wash it and give it back, this handkerchief.â
âOkay, give it back tomorrow night at midnight.â
âOkayâ¦wait, why is it only at midnight?â
Letâs leave aside the fact that we were supposed to meet again tomorrow without hesitation at this point, but the time frame was tricky. When I quickly asked that, Mizutani answered with a difficult look on her face.
âItâs tough during the day. My mom is watching me.â
âSheâs watching youâ¦Are you okay?â
âIâd like to say Iâm fine, but I have to admit itâs stressful.â
âWell, thatâs trueâ¦â
But in a way, it was amazing that she was that thorough.
Apparently, Mizutaniâs mother really didnât want me to get involved with Mizutani.
Mizutani sighed and continued.
âMy phone is confiscated too, so Iâm sorry for all the delays in replyingâ¦Iâm sorry for all the trouble.â
âNo, no, no, itâs no wonder youâre in such a situation. How could you contact me when your phone was confiscated?â
âI had an idea where it was hidden. I sneaked it out when my mom was asleep.â
ââ¦I see.â
So that was why the reply came late at night.
If it was right after bedtime, there was a chance she was still awake.
But I didnât know Mizutani would do that.
I thought she would be more obedient to that mother.
âDo you find it surprising?â
Mizutani asked as if reading my mind.
âWell, honestly yes.â
âI know. Itâs surprising even to me. I canât believe I did such a stupid thing. Before I met Aizawa, I would have just obeyed my mother.â
âYou donât listen well to others. The way you put it, it sounds as if I had a bad influence on you, Mizutani.â
ââ¦I think you are right when you say so. I wonder if my momâs judgment wasnât a mistake at all.â
âYes, yes. Iâm an undesirable boyfriend anyway.â
At my joke, Mizutani shook her shoulders and laughed.
From Mizutaniâs motherâs point of view, I guess it looked like it was not a joke.
âHey, Aizawa. I donât feel comfortable asking this, butâ¦can you come here tomorrow and onward? It looks like my mom is going to be strictly supervising me during the day for a whileâ¦and seeing Aizawaâs face makes me feel a little bit safer.â
After a short laugh, Mizutani said in a formal manner.
Feeling somewhat embarrassed, I looked away from Mizutani.
ââ¦I was free during summer vacation anyway, so it doesnât matter. Or rather, itâs too late now when Iâm being summoned here in the middle of the night.â
âI guess thatâs true.â
Mizutani giggled.
I hope I helped her smile, even if only a little.
From the bottom of my heart, I thought so.
â¦But when I saw Mizutaniâs face, I felt relieved and started to get sleepy too.
I quietly bit down on a yawn so Mizutani wouldnât see it.
Then Mizutani tapped her knee with a plop.
âWhat was that gesture?â
âBecause you were yawning just now. Itâs a âdo you want to use my lap?â gesture.â
I glanced at Mizutaniâs knees. Thin legs wrapped in a negligee.
I honestly think it was attractiveâ¦but I didnât want to answer âyesâ honestly at this point, because I felt like I was admitting defeat.
ââ¦Itâs fine. I donât feel sleepy at all, to begin with, and even if I did, Iâd usually sleep sitting up. I smell like sweat right now.â
âI donât mind the sweatâ¦but if youâre not sleepy, do you want to talk some more?â
âSure. But my head is not working right now, so Mizutani should be the one to talk.â
ââ¦Aizawa, youâre sleepy after all, arenât you?â
Mizutani was stunned.