Samantha's POV
Days passed by instantly. It's Friday night and I asked Amber to accompany me to attend Kyle's party. I don't know what will happen but I had a bad feeling about how things will turn out tonight. These past few days I tried to cherished every moment I've spent with her. I thought of distancing myself to make it easier for her to hate me but I just can't do it. I love her so much so if these were the last days that I can show her that .. I'll make every smile, hugs and kisses count.
"Babe, Mandy just texted me, they're on their way." Amber smiled sweetly as we made our way to the party.
"Can you pull over?" I don't know what to do anymore but the need to delay our way to Kyle's place came over me.
"Huh? Why? Are you okay?" She questioned looking at me with so much care.
"Just.. Just pull over.." I pleaded hoping that she wouldn't asked anymore.
"Oh.. Okay.. For awhile.. Let me stop at the corner."
I unbuckled my seatbelt and hurriedly made my way to seat on her lap to straddle her.
"Sam.. what's wro-" she tried to talk but I stop her with a kiss. I put both of her hands on my waist and put mine on both of her cheeks. I deepened the kiss but before it can lead to a full make out session, Amber pulled away.
"Hey.. Tell me.. What's wrong babe?" Amber asked again worriedly. She then placed both of her hands on my cheeks to look at me straight in the eyes. I need to do this. I have to make her hate me.
"THERE'S NOTHING WRONG!! GOD! DON'T COMPLICATE THINGS AMBER!! I just want to make out with you before the party! You won't make any move if I'm too drunk to function!! You'll just end up being your OVER PROTECTIVE SELF!!
I hate myself for saying this. But I have to make her believe that I'm too fed up with her kindness. Which isn't the case because I love everything about her. I love how sweet or how protective and caring she can be. I love how the way she respected me. I love her.
Then I felt her hand pulling away from my cheeks. She lowered her gaze looking so down because of my sudden outburst. The image broke my heart. I wanted to take it back. I wanted to tell her the truth. I wanted to say that what I've said is nothing but a lie. But I can't. I can't bring her to this mess.
"I.. I'm sorry if you felt that I'm being too over protective. I didn't mean for you too feel that I'm too controlling or I don't want to do things with you intimately.. It's just.. I.."
"I'm sorry Sam." She whispered still looking down.
It felt like someone just stabbed my heart. It hurts that Amber's hurting because of me and for her to think that I don't like being treated the way she treated me hurts like hell. There's nothing more in this world that I want apart from Amber's love and affection. It's like I made her feel that it's wrong to respect, care and protect me.
I breathed out and continue my act. I went back to my seat and asked her to drive.
"Your seatbelt please." She whispered without looking at me. I bit my lower lip doing everything to hold my emotions.
We are now outside Kyle's place but both of us remained seated silently waiting for each other to make a move. I don't know how long I can continue being a bitch so I decided to unbuckle my seatbelt and just go out. But before I can open my door Amber hurriedly went outside to open mine. But she didn't look at me or even held my hand like she always do to support me as I get off her car. She didn't placed the palm of her hand at the center of my back as we made our way to Kyle's front yard. She always held me close when we walk but not tonight. I felt a pang of pain in my heart when she didn't do all those gestures. I wanted to stop her from walking and just intertwine my hand with hers when we heard Mandy and Sofi calling us.
"Heyyyyyyyaaaa!" Mandy greeted us excitedly.
"Hey Mands!" I heard Amber greeted her with a soft smile. I envy how Amber can hide her emotion just like that. She definitely knows how to control her feelings. But I'm the one who needs this. I should act as if nothing happened.
"What's with the silent treatment captain?" Mandy directed her attention to me. I smiled back as if I'm not affected with what transpired during Amber and I's way here.
"Hi Mandy and Sofi!" I greeted both of them.
"Now that we're all here.. It's time to partaaaaaeeee!" Sofi giggled at Mandy's  energy. Mandy dragged Sofi at the beer table to get their drinks.
I then felt Amber's gentle touch at my arm caressing it so gently.
"Can we just.. Um.. forget what happened tonight? We can talked about it tomorrow if you want. Again I'm sorry. I don't want us to fight Sam. I love you." She whispered to my ear. I closed my eyes to savor everything from her. Her voice, her touch, her love. I nodded. She then looked at me and kissed me on my forehead.
"Again, I'm sorry Sam." She smiled weakly and motioned for me to go where Sofi and Mandy is.
She shouldn't be the one apologizing. She shouldn't be the one making the first move to fix things because I'am the one who's at fault. But she did. She's just like that and she's making it hard for me to hurt her more.
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Amber's POV
Am I being too protective? Is it too much for Sam?
"Penny for your thoughts?" I then suddenly got interrupted by Sofi. We always look out for Mandy and Sam when we go into parties.
"Oh sorry.. I'm just thinking.." I answered back.
"They're planning to get wasted aren't they?" She pointed Sam and Mandy who looks like drinking to have the time of their life.
"Yeah.. Sam asked his Dad if she can drink tonight.. Since I'm with her.. Mr. Jones was convinced.. Though I was instructed not to let her drink more than she can handle." I added looking back at Sam's and Mandy's. They're on the beer table which was opposite to the swing where Sofi and I were sitting.
Sam's parents trusted me and I won't let them down. Then I saw Mandy and Sam walking towards us.
"Gosh!! I haven't drink this much!! Sofi.. I hope this is alright with you.. I won't get wasted I promise." I heard Mandy directing her words to Sofi.
"No prob love.. Just enjoy the night!" Sofi stood up from where she was siting and held Mandy close to her. Mandy just giggled. I really find them cute together.
"Hey.." I heard Sam while she positioned herself to the swing next to me.
"Hey.." I want to ask Sam how many cups of beer has she consumed but she might think that I'm being too protective again. "Are you still okay? I mean how many are these?" I asked her to count how many of my fingers she can see.
"4, silly!" She giggled. It's a good sign that she's laughing now.
"Good." I answered. I smiled at her and look at Mandy and Sofi who's being too touchy at the moment. I laughed at them.
"You two! Get some room!" I shouted laughing some more. I can still feel that Sam is still looking at me. I don't want to think what happened awhile back. I don't want to argue with Sam. I don't want to give her a reason to leave me. I love her so much. Jeez.. the thought of her leaving me is scary, it'll definitely break my heart. It's my fault, I might have been over protective or over caring. But what can I do? I just want her to feel important. I want her to feel how much I love her. Am I giving too much?
"I'm sorry." She whispered. I glanced at her and met her eyes. She looks so guilty and it made my heart ached.
"Hey.. It's alright.." I held one of her knees and gently squeezed it. "From now on, let's be honest with each other okay? You'll tell me if I'm being too-"
"Stop. You aren't. I'm just being a bitch and-" she countered.
"No. Don't say that. I want us to have a healthy relationship and communication is part of that. So if you feel like you need to tell me things.. Like if I'm being over protective.. You tell me. Because I wouldn't know if you don't." I continued while my hand is gently caressing her knee. "I want that.. though were not yet official." I added just above whisper.
"I want that too. I want you." she answered looking at her feet.
"Let's just be honest with each other. Alright?" I held her chin for her to look at me. She stood up and hugged me close whispering how sorry she was while kissing the crown of my head.
"Sorry.. God.. I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry.. I.. God.." She continued in between sobs. I stood up from the swing to give her a proper hug. "Ssshhh.. It's okay.." I held both of her cheeks to wipe all her tears.
"Well.. Well.. Well.. Sam.. You started the drama without me? I thought we're in this together..?"
I turned around still hugging Sam when I saw Shane smirking at me.
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Samantha's POV
No. No. No. God. I wanted to run with Amber and protect her from being hurt. But it's too late. Shane will do everything to ruin her. To ruin us.
"Shane .. please.. not here." I let go of Amber and tried to convince Shane to walk away. But Amber held my hand and directed me to stay behind her.
"I think it's the right time.. Now that both of you are in emotional mess.. Go on continue tell her Sam.." Shane added mockingly.
"Walk away Shane." Amber snickered back. I held and squeezed Amber's hand and pulled her back to walk away when Shane finally said it.
"It's just a dare Amber! Did you honestly think that Sam was head over heels with you.. She can get any guys that she want.. Do you think she'll settled with a lesbian like you?"
I saw Amber froze at Shane's word. She then slowly let go of my hand. I instantly felt cold, empty and pain all at the same time. I'm trying everything that I could not to faint at the moment. I can't see Amber's reaction because I'm still behind her praying that she'll look at me. But she didn't. I looked at my empty hand and looked at her again. I feel lost. I feel like everything is dying inside me.
"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU SAY!!?" I heard Mandy shouted at Shane.
"TELL ME THIS FUCKIN' MORON IS TELLING LIES SAM!!! TELL ME!!
Mandy continued but her anger is now directed at me. I saw Sofi trying to calm her down. I'm still waiting for Amber to talk or to do anything. But she didn't. I looked at her hands. She's clenching it so tight as if she wanted to punch Shane straight in the face.
"Amber.." I whispered breathlessly. Still she didn't move. I then felt Mandy hold my arm and directed me to look at her.
"I SAID, TELL. ME. THAT. THIS FUCKIN' MORON IS TELLING LIES SAM!!!" Mandy is so angry that she might hurt me anytime now. But I'm not scared I deserved it if she did.
"I.." I tried to speak but I looked at Shane and just by looking at him He's telling me silently that if I didn't cooperate he'll make Amber's life a living hell. I can't let that happen.
"I.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. Amber.. I.. Please look at me.. God please." I tried to reach Amber's hand when Shane continued.
"I was pissed and Sam was curious. We made a good team yeah?"
"GO FUCK YOURSELF!!" Mandy was about to tackle Shane when we heard Amber whispered.
"You're heartless."
I heard how Amber's voice trembled as she released those words. Is it towards Shane or Is it for me. Those words felt like a stabbed in my heart.
Mandy look at Amber and her face suddenly softened. It's as if all anger was washed off from Mandy's eyes. I didn't know what she saw but it broke her heart. I saw how Mandy instantly sobered up. Amber walked away without saying another word. She didn't even looked at me. I wanted her to shout at me, tell me that she hated me or shove me while she walked away. But nothing. She left. Mandy ran and just followed her.
"MANDS! WAIT!" I heard Sofi called Mandy. I just held my chest tightly and look at my best friend.
"Sofi.. I.. I.."
"What happened Sam? Why?" Sofi looked at me sadly. When Shane spoke again.
"Nice!! I never thought Amber cries." He chuckled evilly.
"Are you happy now!!!???" I shouted at Shane. I made Amber cried, I broke her heart, I made her feel something that she doesn't deserved to feel. I'll never forgive myself for this. Never.
"Don't worry Sam. I'm true to my words. No one will know you and your slut's secret." He laughed and walked away.
I broke down and cried. I sat on the swing and place both of my palms to cover my eyes.
"Hey.. Sam.. What happened?" I heard Sofi trying to calm me down as she caress my back.
"I .. have.. to.. do it Sofi. I.. have too." I managed to answer Sofi in between sobs. I just can't take the pain anymore. I wanted to run to Amber and explain everything but I can't. I tried to massage my chest to ease the constricting pain in in my heart and to help me breathe.
"Alright.. Let's go to your place so we can talk about this let me just get you some water." She offered.
"How about Mandy? You'll drive her home right?" I questioned.
"Mandy doesn't want to be with anyone tonight apart from Amber. Those two are like us Sam.. you're my priority tonight and Amber is for Mandy."
I nodded. Sofi motioned for me to drink a bottle of water before guiding me to her car. As we made our way home Amber's words still lingers in my memory. I've perfectly memorized how it sounded from Amber's trembling voice. It's as if playing on repeat. A loop of heartbreaking words.
"You're heartless."