Samantha's POV
I woke up with a heavy heart. I've been waiting for Amber's morning text message and call since 7 in the morning. I checked the clock on my side table and it's already 9:03 am. I didn't know how to start the day without hearing her voice or reading her messages. Now I find myself re-reading all our previous conversation.
Amberbaby: I'm home. Goodnight and Sweet Dreams Sammy! ð
Me: Good, I've been waiting for you to text me. You took 18 minutes to text back. Your house is just 10 minutes away right? (Pouts adorably) ð
Amberbaby: Awww.. I needed to change clothes Babe.. So that when I text you my attention is all yours. I brushed my teeth for 2 minutes.. Then I washed off my make up for 6 minutes. That's a total of 8. Sorry. Forgive me? ð
Me: Okay.
Amberbaby: "Sammy.. You okay? :("
Me: Yeah.. Just woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Sorry. I didn't want you to worry. :(
Amberbaby: Where do you usually sleep? Right or Left? So that I can sneak up to your room and just fill the wrong side with my sexy body.. So you wouldn't wake up again like that. I don't like seeing you sad Sammy. Please smile for me? A real smile please. ð
Me: Stop. You're making me blushed. Don't start counting again! But thank you. You just made my day! Will you drive me home? :*
Amberbaby: Of course! ;)
Me: I missed you. Did you miss me too?
Amberbaby: Nope.
Me: WHAT? WHY? >:\
Amberbaby: Because unlike you, I've been looking at you the entire time. So I won't miss you. :)
Me: Stop being so cute. Ugh. I want to hug you right now. t_t :(
Amberbaby: Me too. :( Have you spoken to Clark?
Me: Not yet. But later.
Amberbaby: Let me know if you need me. Okay?
Me: I will. xoxo :* ;)
Amberbaby: Hey beautiful! Good morning! I'll pick you up at 7:45. I love you! :*
Me: Good morning to you too.. Can't wait to see you. Please drive safe and I love you more. :*
Amberbaby: Hey babe! Hope your not yet asleep.. I got fries and a burrito.. If you want me to share this open up your window! ;)
Me: GOD!!!!! I just read your message!!! I'm still on the shower when you texted!!! You still there!!???? LET ME GO DOWNSTAIRS. PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE STILL THERE!!!!
Amberbaby: Hey ;)
Me: Yes? :)))
Amberbaby: I love you. :*
Me: Awwww I love youuuu mooore. :*****
Amberbaby: Gooooood Mooooorniiiing beautiful!!! I'm really excited for today!!! :D
Me: Good Mornin' pretty girl! and why is that? :))
Amberbaby: Because I get to see youuuuu :*
Me: Awww :* I feel like dancing! Wiggle wiggle wiggle :)))
Amberbaby: Haha. Be there in 10 minutes. :*
Me: Drive safe. I love you! :*
Amberbaby: Babe, I'll meet Mom's Officemate/Suitor this Sunday night for dinner. Mom want's to meet you too. You free this coming sunday?
Me: Of course! Can't wait to meet mom! :))))
Amberbaby: Haha. Mom's on my shoulder reading this.. She said she can't wait to see her future daughter-in-law :*
Me: Oh. Hi Mrs. Smith. :|
Amberbaby: Hahaha. Don't freak out babe! Just don't break my heart so you'll get to call her Mom for the rest of your life.. Haha. :*
Me: I love you always remember that.
Amberbaby: I will. You as well! I love you too! To infinity and beyond! (Takes off with buzz lightyear!)
Me: Wait. What? You took off with Buzz? and just left me?
Amberbaby: Don't be jealous babe.. I'm on your roof we just landed! :*
Me: Hihihi I love you! :*
Amberbaby: I LOVE YOU TOO. Forever and always. :*
I realized that I have been crying again. It's already 9:51 am I don't think Amber will text me anymore. Who am I to expect? I broke her heart. But I'll try my luck and just call her.
RING RING RING RING RING RING BEEP
HEY! I hope you're having a great day! Bad news though.. I can't take your call right now.. leave a message or just text me and I'll definitely text back once I read it. Byiiieeeeee
Of course a voicemail. I understand if Amber doesn't want to talk right now. But if this is the only way for me to hear her voice then I'll do this everyday and night. I decided to just send her a message.
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Amber's POV:
RING RING RING RING RING RING
Sam's calling. I really don't know how to feel right now. I cried myself to sleep and somehow it help. Though the pain is still there, my heart isn't as heavy as it was last night. I'm not feeling as much anger or hate. I don't think I can hate or be angry at Sam for that matter. But I'll definitely won't answer Sam. I can't. Not now.
Sam-mineâ¤ï¸: Good morning. I don't know how to explain things with you. You probably hate me now but don't worry because your not the only one. I hate myself too.. of course Mandy as well. I understand if you don't want to talk or see me. I'll give you your space. I love you Amber. I love you so much.
I love you too but you broke my heart Sam. I thought. Maybe she did love me or maybe this is the second part of her dare. She'll make me fall in love again and hurt me twice as much. Wow. Now I have trust issues. Thanks Samantha Jones. But why do I love her still? Is she laughing with Shane now? Did Shane asked Sam to text me today? Are they planning to hurt me again? Wow. I don't even know myself right now. I never doubted anyone like this before. What happened to me? What did you do Sam? Why? I don't like this feeling.
Yeah, indeed.. love can make or break you. It broke me. That fucking hurts.
"Honey!!! Are you up?" I heard my mom knocked on my door.
"Yes Mom."
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah.." I probably look like I watched I am Sam 10 times last night. Jeez.
"Honey.. I'm thinking of what we wi- hey.. oh.. hun.. What happened?"
"First heartbreak Mom. It's okay. Part of growing." I tried to joke but fails when I felt like crying again. Jeez. When this will end?
"Oh baby.. Do you mind sharing it with me? Is it about Sammy?" Not the nickname mom. Not that please. As she positioned herself next to me hugging my shoulders.
"Nah.. We're not even official.. So I don't think I'm in the position to get hurt." Not official but a number of I love you's were exchange mom. Yeah. The hurts some more.
"Hun.. I.. How about tomorrow's dinner? Oh.. Yeah. Of course. Sorry for asking."
"That's okay mom. We'll still pursue the dinner okay? I need to know that Luis guy." I smiled weakly. Great I managed not to let my tears go this time. Fist-bump feelings! Fist-bump!
Now I'm going crazy.
"Alright.. But if you need to talk you can always count on me okay? As well as Mandy.. and the rest of your friends.. I don't want you to go cray cray and sulk in your room." I chuckled at my mom's attempt to make me smile.
"Yes mom.. I know. I don't want it too.. But somehow I thought I did.. You know.. Go crazy cray and all.. But I won't okay?" I reassured my mom. I wanted to look strong in front of her because that's what she thought me to be. That's what she has been trying to do since dad died and this is nothing compared to what she experienced. So I will. I'll be strong not just for her but for myself. To start it off.. I'll change her name on my contact list.
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Samantha's POV
Monday
"Princess are you not having breakfast? Tell Amber to eat here first before both of you go to school."
Sam don't cry. Don't. Just don't.
"I'll take the bus today Dad." I answered him as short as possible. I don't want to break down and cry in front of him. How pathetic will I sound if I told him that I was the one who ruined everything then be devastated at the same time.
"Princess.. I know you're not okay.. Since you went home from that party you've been distant.. and now Amber will not be picking you up.. Did something happened.. Did she hurt you? Tell me." Dad asked worriedly.
"Dad, you know she won't do that." I answered back biting my lower lip for it not to tremble. I lowered down my gaze not feeling proud to what I was about to tell my dad.
"I hurt her Dad. I had a choice and I choose to break her heart." I added.
"Is it worth it?" Dad asked. I know he just want me to realize the mistake that I made.
"No." I answered defeatedly. Sofi was right I should have included Amber to my decision. I shouldn't have fought this fight alone.
"Good. Now go get her Princess. She's a rare gem to find."
I wiped my tears and nodded to my dad with a soft smile. I'll get her back.
I saw Mandy sitting on her desk. She looked at me and scoffed as she rolled her eyes. God, This won't be easy. I checked the desk beside her and find it empty. Where's Amber? Is she okay? I wanted to ask Mandy but I know she's not ready. I'm not ready as well to be tackled down by her so I decided otherwise. I can talk to Zach. His one of Amber's friends and he's sitting beside me.
"Hey.. Have you seen Amber?" I asked Zach and he smirked at me.
"Miss her already?" He answered with a teasing stare. Amber hasn't told her friends yet. Not yet. But she will and they'll definitely hate me. Now I have to win the trust of a lot of people back. Amber, Mandy, Zach and her other close friends.. Oh.. God.. Her mom. I could've met her last night. But because I'm stupid I ended up breaking her daughter's heart. Here comes the tears again. Breathe Sam. Control. I tried to massage my chest to ease the constricting feeling inside. Breathe.
"Hey.. You okay? You look like you are about to faint.." Zach asked almost standing on his seat.
"Ye.. Yeah.. Um.. I'm alright. So have you seen her?" Zach eyed me again making sure that I'm indeed alright.
"Okay.. Well no.. I mean not yet. But she'll definitely sing for us today if she ended up being late." He chuckled.
"Alright. Thanks." I manage to reply breathlessly when I heard Mr. Ferrin greeted the class.
"Ms. Morgan where's your partner in crime? She'll just do a solo? No duets anymore?" Mr. Ferrin asked Mandy jokingly. Except for Mandy and I, everyone laughed. For the past few weeks Amber and Mandy were able to entertain the class whenever they come in late. But today is different. God.. Where is she? Mandy didn't reply. She just turn her head at the door still waiting for Amber. Mr. Ferrin sensed that there's something wrong because Mandy has always something to say but not today. The class might have also noticed Mandy's silence so Mr. Ferrin decided to let it go. The class was about to start when Amber walked inside the room.
"Sorry for being late Sir." Amber stated as she walked to her desk. I tried to catch her eyes silently begging that she would notice my pleading stare. She didn't. It's as if I'm not here. My heart starts to ache again. I fucked up.
"Ms. Smith, you know the drill for late students right?" What the hell is wrong with him? Hasn't he noticed that Amber is not feeling okay? I was about to say something when I heard Amber's voice.
"I'm not in the mood to entertain Sir.. Sorry.. that.. came out rude.. Sorry Sir. But if you wished to give me detention that's okay." She answered as politely as possible though the hint of sadness in her voice was evident. God, what did I just do?
"Alright Ms. Smith.. We'll talk after class. Everyone please turn to chapter 21, Renaissance Art."
"What's wrong with her?" I heard Zach mumbled still looking directly at Amber's direction. Mandy was also looking at her intently but she respected Amber's silence. I swallowed the lump in my throat. Again placing the palm of my hand on my chest to massage it firmly. Breathe. Just breathe.
The bell rang signaling that the class just ended. I walked directly at Amber's desk to talk to her. I still didn't know what to say but the need to see her eye to eye is what I really need right now. I need her. I want her to talk to me. But before I reach Amber, Mandy met me halfway.
"Don't. Don't you fucking dare." I froze at Mandy's words. I understand that she's just being protective to Amber. But I won't back out. I have to talk to Amber.
"Mands.. please.. I just need to talk to-"
I was about to beg for Mandy's permission to talk to Amber when Mr. Ferrin interrupted us.
"Ms. Morgan and Ms. Jones both of you can leave. I need to speak with Ms. Smith alone."
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A/N:
Oooh. I just want to thank GellyGurl for the bucket of stars! Thank you! You really made my day! :)))
Again English is not my first language, not even my second.. and I just write for fun. I also don't check my grammar.. well because I really don't know how. Haha. Sorry not Sorry.
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