Chapter 45: diamond

I can't believe he has a girlfriend I feel dumb,stupid and foolish hoping that we will become something and I suddenly wish I would've left him in the alley to die I hate marquise brooks I hate him and what he's done to me I hate him.I'm walking around the house looking at all the pictures of his pretty girlfriend and I envy their relationship and then I hear the screen door close to the back and someone comes around the corner and its trigga because I can smell him and then I say wow she's pretty and then he walks over to me and stands next to me and says yea she is and I glance over to him and He's looking at me and then he says I'm sorry diamond I can tell that your hurt and Its my fault I shouldn't have led you on and I say that's right you shouldn't have but you did and I hate you for it and i wish I never met you I wish i would've let you die in that alley to stupid fuck I was doing just fine with out you.he walks over to me and pushes me against the wall so hard and traps me and looks as if he wants to hit me but he doesn't instead he punches the wall and starts pacing baxk and forth and he yells at me so you wish I would've died bitch huh you wish I would've died huh diamond huh i murked a nigga for you but you wish death on me bitch fuck you and you hate me well I hate you to. And i now have tears streaming down my face and then goat comes and calms him down and I stand there  g embarrassed trying to catch my breath and I hear trigga still screaming fuck me fuck me all over and over again then meka Comes and hugs me and helps me out and says come on diamond and we walk pass his girlfriend and she's just staring at me.me and meka get into goats car and she starts driving and ask me what happened.because I was calmed down now and then I wiped me eyes and looked out the window and said meka I don't know what came over me but my intentions we're not to say anything but I saw those pictures of him and his girl and he walked in and what I was feeling about him at that moment came out but Meka I didn't mean it.I know chica I know and we pulled up at her house and she said well I'm going to spend the night with goat you gon be okay she said cause I can stay I looked at her and said no its okay go  have fun and have fun for me to and we laugh then hug and go our separate ways ugh just fuck my life I thought.