What was I even thinking?
That she would change for real?
That she would stop hating us and start loving us?
My mouth twisted in a bitter smile.
The moment I heard her talking to that Weakling Khanna , I knew it in my bones that she was just lying .
For what I don't know?
Why would she lie about turning over a new leaf?
Why would she tell me that she did not want divorce anymore?
Not that I was gonna divorce her , anyway.
I scoffed.
I had vowed , she would only become my widow , not my ex anything.
I heard her running behind me,
And entering my office.
" why did you just leave like that? I called after you!" She panted , though I did not turn around to look at her.
I was in no mood to look at anyone.
A dark fury had taken over me.
I snorted.
" What am I to do ,
When my wife is mooning over her true love?
Should I stand and enjoy? Or support you in your efforts of not giving up on him?" I taunted and friend around.
She was leaning against the door.
She winced.
She shook her head.
" No , Armaan , it's not like what you are thinking." She pleaded.
I looked at her blankly.
" Mausam , why are you doing this?
And don't play dumb , or lie ,
Tell me the truth ,
Why this sudden change of attitude about divorce ?
Why this pretend of love to us now?
When all these years you have glared and cursed and nothing but tell me how you hated being with me and wanted to be your love , Khanna."
I shouted and advanced on her.
Now , we were an inch away.
My laboured breath were mixed with her.
She breathed heavily.
Her eyes misty.
My fists clenched.
She gulped.
As if gathering courage , she took a deep breath , her chest falling and rising with it.
" I have realised that I do not want my children to hate me , and I quite love them even though not as mother should but I do live them in my own way." She exhaled.
My eyes bore into hers.
Her eyelashes quivered.
But she tried to meet my eyes.
She did not seem to be lying and it frustrated me even more.
" Then you still love that jerk?" I snarled.
She stood still , very still.
" Reyansh has been in my life since I was a teenager. He was and is my only friend. I have always cared for him and wished him good ." She carefully said.
" I asked a straightforward question which has a straightforward answer. Don't play with words in front of me." I scowled.
She nodded , " I mean to say , I love him but what does it matter? I have no future with him. I am only keeping him behind. We always had to hide our relationship, and we should have let go of each other a lot sooner , even before I married. And now I am doing it."
" I have realised how futile it is , it makes no one happy and everybody miserable. I know , I never wanted children , but it's not their fault , and I want to have a relationship with them."she said.
I stared at her.
I was somewhat shocked at what she said.
So she finally decided to let go of HIM?
It was not that she stopped loveing him.
I smiled ruefully, hell would freeze but my wife would only have eyes for that VERMINE.
It formed a bitter taste in my mouth ,
But I pushed it back.
It was fine.
She wanted a relationship with kids.
That was good.
That was all I ever wanted.
My family's happiness was what I have ever wanted.
I married young and her when my grandpa asked me to , for the sake of company.
When she was pregnant,
I accepted our children and become a father even though I was not ready.
And I stayed with her ,
Never gave her divorce
Because I believed divorce just is not right thing for children.
Yes , that is what all I wanted.
I did not want my wife's love or anything , it was a stupid thing anyway.
Updated - 12/2/24