Lie To Me Alpha

Seeing him after five years I smile with sincerity as there was no pain or

hurt anymore between us.

I don't loathe or regret him. The only thing I'm feeling right now is pure

happiness.

Today I didn't expect him to be here in this meeting as usually Jay and

his son Jona attends. If I knew he would be here I wouldn't have

brought the twins today.

Yes, there wasn't anyone who could handle them back at home. I swear

I called Tricia who came over and take them outside as they were

whinny and wanted to stay here with me but I just couldn't do that.

This meeting is important to me, as I will announce my resignation as a

substitute luna to the Owslebury Pack.

Yet seeing him today changes my mind and maybe I'll do that when I

get back home.

A lot of things happened to me when I left him that night. I was able to

go back to my grandma and took Wesley with me then we move to

Owslebury Pack.

It was a new Pack at the time and basically Alpha Jordan and his Luna

Kristen was recruiting anyone who wants to live a normal life instead of

becoming lone and rogue.

So I settled there as it was a new start for me and over the years the

pack extends and now we have the largest number not bigger than

Dante and Aaron.

Today I'm here as a luna because Luna Kristen is now bedridden and

requested for me to be her substitute for the meantime.3

It was either that or I have to mate Alpha Jordan fully and become their

official luna.4

He's been a good and great Alpha but he wasn't the one I want, neither

the one made for me. He wasn't the twins father and I could never do

that to my babies.1

It's something that I would never do since I am sincerely happy with

what and where I am now especially my two bundle of joy.

Having two pup is a blessing in to my life by the moon goddess after all

the pain and hurt I went through.

So yes they are Matt and mine.3

When I left I found out the later day that I was carrying his pups. I

almost went back to him after a week but I decided not to as I have my

own reasons.4

I look from across the room and saw him looking at me and I swear his

sons and mine, the ones he never knew of are a copy of him.

Except one has dark green forest eyes like his and the other has

sapphire like mine.

So they were kind of both our mixture when it comes to eyes. Other

than that they both look like their father.

Sometimes I complain that I was the one who carry them and in the

end they have his look. Nevertheless I love my pups as they are my

saving grace.5

There are times that I always wander if I had made a right choice by not

going back to him. Yet deep down inside I always knew why I chose

what I thought was right and it was the right choice.

Legacy is something I wanted to give to our pups without competition.

I didn't want them to compete with her son for their father's title or his

love.

I didn't want them to ever grew up with thought like “which is the most

favourite and which is less favorable? whom to inherit and whom to

not?

What I did was for my pups and myself. I didn’t want them to be torn

between love and hate. Watching them grown up with all the love and

care I give along with their uncle's support was indeed the best thing to

do.

They knew who their father is cause I told them in vague details with no

negative story line. Only to replace it with the word complicated as I

didn’t want them to be grown up filling with hate and holding

grudges.4

I have also shown them his photo, that one photo we have together on

the night of the Gala and our mating which was given to me by Elle.

After the meeting I quickly got up to attend my sons. I found them

both playing outside with Tricia watching over them.

"Addasah” I turn around to find him standing not to far from me.

Like I said there was no hate or pain there but I would say my heart did

race a little but not as badly as it was when we were together.

"Hello Matteo” I gave him a smile but something was pulling on the

edge of my skirt.

I turned down to find Matthew and Mason tugging on my skirt while

both pointing at Matteo.

"Daddy" they both said more like screaming in unison. I swear these

two are going to be the death of me one day.

His eyes set on his sons with surprise. He then look back and forth

between me and the twins who are now running in his way.

As if he just notice and came out of his shocking state he sat down on

his hunches spreading his arms wide for them.

The boys run in to his arms hugging the life out of him. He laugh a little

holding on to them with a look as if he's about to cry.

Actually he is crying as he held them tight before pulling back and

kisses on their forehead. I knew this day would come.

Watching them as they have their own moments made me wish that we

were a family but I know I wouldn't go back or maybe that is just my

thoughts for now.

He released them and I motion for Tricia to takes them away as I know

Matteo has some questions. Yet the two refuse to leave his side and so I

have to convince them that their father will always be here and he

won't go away.

They pouted their lips folding their arms. Warning me that he better

not disappear which I roll my eyes at them promising that he won't.

They gave us both a kiss on the cheek before they happily left with

Tricia.

He wipe off his tears "how long?”

"I found out a day after I left" I lick my dry lips nervously.

"I'm sorry” he apologise and stood up with, his eyes now filled with

tears again but I only gave him a smile, the ones that hid the sad and

pain behind it.

"You know I won't stop you from seeing them" I said and he thanks me.

I know that he should be livid like other mate when they found out

their mates have hidden his pups from him. Yet I know Matteo so well.

He will never be mad at me, especially when he knows he has done so

many wrongs towards me.

We both stood there watching our sons as they both play with Tricia

before we turn and gaze into each others eyes.

Looking at him this upclose did not bring anymore pain to me. I am

happy but I am reluctant when I truly saw that he is not the same old

Matteo.2

My thoughts now keeps running through my head and in my head I

was repeating every words that I practice to tell him but never get the

chance to after everything that happens.

Even now I don't have the courage to say it out loud except to replay it

in my head while gazing up at him.

“we could be one of the couple like Elle and Eric or Dante and Dani.

We could have been a happy family together with our kids both grown

up.

Unfortunately we could not have all of it.

And this distance between us was all because you lie to me Alpha.”