Going Home

Four years later

"She can't come home Lyndon, not now" I heard my mom reminded my

dad through the phone.

"She needs to finish her training” it was like she is the one talking to me

over the phone but not my dad.

"Dad, please tell mom I need to be there for my brother's birth"

"I heard that and no you can't” she calls over.

"You heard that honey, you can't come home but will send you photos"

he chime and I just gave up on that and told them I love you before

ending the call.

Indeed, I am not necessarily giving up as I am packing my clothes in my

suitcase. Ughh how can they not want me to be there like seriously I

want to be there for my brother's birth. So I am going there as a

surprise whether they like it or not.

Who knows Matteo is going to be surprise too, and I just hope he have

kept his promises. After all it has been four years of going to uni here

now I finally want to go back home.

I am back in the dorms after staying with Elle and Eric for one year in

their home I then request to move into the dorms.

Despite them wanting me to stay there but I still want to experience

moving in with a roommate which was unfortunate.

My one and only roommate was send back home after getting herself

pregnant with her mate since then I live on my own.

My parents and I talk a lot through the phone over the years. They

wanted me to come over and visit but I refused as I still wasn't over my

heartbreak.

Now that I'm finally over everything and I want to go home to see them

but they wouldn't let me. Especially now my mom's pregnancy is due

this month and whenever I ask of Matteo my dad would say to forget

him, and that was it nothing else.2

Over the four years I hardly contact Cora or Gia, the last time I met Cora

was when her brother came here in track of his Mate who got

kidnapped by her crazy ex fiancée, then that was a year ago.

I heard from several people who went to her pack that she got

grounded as her infidelity with Jem has been finally caught.

As for Gia the last time we talk was a year back. She has move in with

Ed and they have gone around other pack’s for vacation.

I have made new friends over the years and Kevin was quite annoyed

that I almost over the past three years of my life want to give up and go

home.

The guy has been a nightmare he may have not physically harass but

he did sexually harass me verbally. Thanks to my dad for teaching me

self defense that I could defend myself everytime he tries to touch me.

The last time we enter into a combat was on the night of our dorm

party. He pretend to get drunk and tries to seduce me and when he

couldn't he tries to get physical which I put up pretty much a good

fight.

Beta Lucian found us fighting and Kevin was expelled from the uni with

Elle standing her ground that he would not step any foot in their pack.

Thanks for that he was send back home and I could finally live my last

year in uni happily without any more trouble.

"Addasah” someone knocked on my room's door "who is it?"

"It's Kaiser" I threw my last cloth in my suitcase.

Kaiser is one of a friend I met here in uni along with Sana and Ollie.

They became my friends but Sana and Ollie have left to go home a

month ago.

Kaiser and I have 2 months of training left before we go home. Kaiser

was quite different from Ollie whom only made it clear to be just

friends but Kaiser, he was the first guy who approached me to be his

girlfriend apart from Kevin's sick proposal.

In fact, I turn him down as I wasn't interested at all I was so invested in

school projects and work. Dating never appeared in my calendar

schedule or my diary.

He then wants to be my friend and here we are friends. Just friends with

no benefit as the others call it or anything that would hinder our

friendship.

I straighten my sweater and went out to meet him outside as I am not

letting him in my room.

That's another thing, a rule I made up a few months after settling here:

no guy would enter my room and that goes for my guy friends.

"Shall we" he smile and I nod my head following behind him. There is

going to be a festival tonight but I wasn't going to attend it as I will be

going back home after the surprise Kaiser wanted to show me.

He took me to a pond at the back of our campus and I could see he

was nervous. Alera was a little bit disappointed as she was ready to go

home but Kaiser is making us late.

He stops then turn to me "Adda can you close your eyes please”

wanting this to be over with I close my eyes waiting for whatever

surprise awaiting me.

"Open your eyes" I quickly comply with it, and found the scene before

me beautiful.

Any girl would cry at the moment but I wasn't as I am not in the mood

for the treat.

"Addasah, would you do the honour and be my girlfriend?” I let out a

heavy sigh.

I would have said yes if there was a tiny bit of my heart beating for him

but right now I do not want to force myself into anything.

As much as I am feeling guilty and sad for him but I cannot drag myself

into something I never want it. I don't even want to lead him on besides

he has a Mate out there.

What happened to me, I did not want to let that happen to anyone

else.

A girl who came late and find her mate in the arms of another. No I

won't let that happen.

Yeah Elle told me her story with her mate in the past apart from their

newly incarnated life but I never told her mine even though it was kind

of similar.

So up until now nobody here on the campus or Daluna Pack knows my

mate because I hid the truth well.

I was never an open book who yells to the world:

Matteo is my fucking mate and he broke me. So please I need

somebody to take this pain away.

No I wasn't like that, I believe in healing my own self and plus my two

best friends and parents at home were enough to be my rock and

comfort.4

Looking back at Kaiser with flowers in his hand in front of me I sadly

smile at him.

"I'm sorry Kaiser but I can never see you in such ways," thinking of

telling him the truth but not the whole story I held onto Matteo's ring

on my necklace.

"I am going back today and the one who made promises, who the

moon goddess pair up for me will be there at home waiting for me."

He look at me with shock "I'm sorry Kaiser, but you know I can never

see my friends as a man for me, so please don't complicated things and

start looking for your own mate”

I turn around and started walking back the house but his words made

me stops.

"What if she's in love with another? What if she doesn't want me? And

what if your mate is with another?"4

I turn back smiling at him "that's the thing Kaiser, it's an “what if?"

“What if doesn't guarantee your mate isn't waiting for you" because

what if she is?"

It's like I have caught him off guard and I knew I was right.

"Stop second guessing with an what if? and Go with where to?"

I turn back and walk back to the campus to collect my suitcase. I went

to Elle and Eric's home only to find out they have gone out shopping

"Don't you want to go together with them? I heard it's an invitation

from your pack. All packs high ranks are attending it tonight"

I wonder what's the occasion was and its not a bad a idea to go with

Elle and Eric but then I am not supposed to be home now so no I will

go on my own.

"No thanks, Margaret perhaps give them this" I handed her a thank you

letter with a card in an envelope then I made my way out of the house.

Clutching on my suitcase handle I smile while waiting for the uber.

Holding onto my necklace I happily told Alera+

"I can't wait to get home."