Matteo's Pov
I have been doing a lot of thinking, that cause me restless nights on
whether should I do it or not.
In the end I made a choice and I just hope it's right because to me it
seems right.
Tonight I want to move on and start my life with my family, I know it's
not with Addasah but I have to take ownership of what happened.2
Four years I have been in pain but just now I want to be redeem. I may
not love Quinn anymore but she's carrying my heir.14
People may call it a mistake, I do too deep within me but I'll never
admit that to anyone because I don't want my child thinking she or he
is a mistake.
After all it wasn't his/her fault that he was to be born in this world.
It happens two months ago when I was still drunk over being
heartbroken and almost on the brink of committing suicide when my
dad came home and force me to mate Quinn.2
I was at the lowest point of my life and I hated that in my most
vulnerable state he caught his prey.
I'll never forget the look he gave me and made Mr feel that night. He
made me feel worthless and weak, I was beyond disgust.
In his Alpha position he command me to mate her in front of Lyndon
and Mia.2
Lyndon could have easily kills him but my dad has all the cards and the
upper hand. That's the night I discovered another secret that Addasah's
father is a pure hybrid, the ones who are wanted and most hunted by
our kinds.5
All Alphas are to extinct his kinds but my father knew that to have a
hybrid he would be able to fight against all odds or any danger near
the pack and very reason he made him a top warrior.
The night they escape with my mother that's the night they discovered
his identity.
My father in his victory grin has told me all about it and so he has
brought them over when I refuse to comply with his commands.
I could have reach anyone for help or Luna Shina but my dad knows
how to played his cards well. He knew when to warn, threat and when
to strike without anyone noticing.
So that horrible night of my life if I didn't do what he says he would
have killed Addasah's parents right there in front of me, which options
was better me being with Addasah or her parents death in my hands
So I did it I agree to Mate her and as we did, all I think of was her, the
one meant for me and when I have my released that night her name
was the one I scream.5
After that horrible night I never wanted to see anyone again even my
own friends. Lyndon tries to reach out for me but I was ashamed, too
ashamed to face him and Mia or even with Addasah if she's to come
back.
They told me Addasah would understand if I tell the truth when she
returns but none of it made me feel better. As my mind already set that
I was worthless and she deserved a better mate.6
I disappeared from my pack afterwards, I know my father has been
lying about me on training but truth was I was gone rogue for a while. I
live that life and able to make fewer friends and learn almost every
single things about them.
Ever since Alpha Hernandez defeated the rogues Alpha months ago
every rogues were now free and has live their lives peaceful
Yet there are still some of them who tries to invade other pack
territories.
The biggest threat on our territory over the years and is still around is
my mom's lover and best friend James. He has been seeking revenge
on my father and Lyndon, so constantly our borders have been
attacked by him but he never succeed.
Six days ago I came back strong and challenge my father in front of the
Pack. I made him feel everything I felt back then when he made me feel
worthless.
I really want to kill him after I won yet I didn't want his blood to be on
my hands so I lock him in a cell. He tries to announce that Lyndon was a
Hybrid but I made it clear to everyone it was a lie.1
Hybrids are hard to be accepted in any pack and they are being hunted
to be killed Lyndon being a pure blood brought danger to his family.
I am relieved that Addasah isn't one as she's a normal werewolf but the
baby her mother is carrying is probably a hybrid.
So about my father's old beta, gamma and delta I have replaced them
immediately.
Those three has been helping my dad create a hell in my life by
following his commands. I stripped them off from their titles with
warning not to try anything funny or they'll be rogues.
Evan became the Delta replacing his father, yes he has nothing to do
with his father's choices. Shalom became the gamma replacing his
uncle who is none other than Quinn's father.
Jay is my substitute beta for the meantime. He did not want to take full
responsibility as a beta in my pack.
I look myself over the mirror and thought of my decision. It may have
not been easy even though someone I love will hurt the most but I
needed this for my unborn child.
I'm not like those men who neglected her/him just because I dont love
her mother. It's my responsibility to be the best father in her life. I hope
what I'm doing is right.2
Mia and Lyndon has already been granted freedom and tonight maybe
be their last night here in my Pack.
They have agree to take Addasah away from here, once we sit down
and I tell her my decision and apologize to her for breaking my
promises.2
I even ask them to give me another month but I guess I didn't honor
my words again as I will be introducing someone else as my luna
without them knowing.2
I was going to tell them but Jay has informed me that our top warrior is
in the hospital so there I didn't want to bother them.
Indeed I heard Addasah is still on training and I'm sure she won't be
here tonight.1
"Alpha"
I turn to see Jay leaning against the door "it's time now everyone is
here."
I nod my head taking one last look at myself before heading downstairs
to make an entrance.