Matteo's Pov
"She's awake"
Dr. Omalley our pack doctor on duty inform me through our link.
Currently I'm in a meeting with the Alphas who were here tonight. We
have held a meeting after defeating the wolves that were turn feral
Usually when a wolf turns feral there's only one explanation that they
have submit to their wolfs dark side and chose to become a beast
instead of having their human side.
Them being feral means they won't stop until their targets are killed.
There was only one lead that tonight's attack was initiated by none
other than James our sworn enemy. Therefore, we are currently
discussing strategies and plan for any other future attacks.
Eric and Dante has offered for their best trackers to find James which I
appreciate a lot. Aaron has also given support for rebuilding some of
our properties that were destroyed tonight along with other Alphas.
"Apologies but this meeting is adjourned. My apologies Alphas but I
need to attend to my" I take a deep breath, it's better to be honest now
and I'll talk to Quinn later of my decision.2
"Mate" I finishes
Dante gaze up at me "I hope Addasah is well now" everyone around
the table furrow their brows in confusion.
"I know I introduce someone else tonight as my mateâ the luna gasps in
horror while their mate just kept on looking.
"I'll take whatever punishment and all of your criticism next time for
neglecting my soul mate but tonight I just need to be there for her, my
mate"4
Again murmuring erupts around the table.
Dante and Eric were the only Alphas who remain seated with their eyes
fixed on me along with their luna.
I glance at Aaron for help who clear his throat and stood up. I quickly
excuse myself from the meeting and quicken my step towards the pack
hospital. I made it there and only stops when I saw one of the room
being wreck.1
"What happens here?" a nurse whom I saw earlier when I first carried
Addasah here stops then lower her head down and respond nervously.
"Alpha your Mate has woken up two hours ago and had destroyed it.
Her father was the one who stops herâ
"but doctor Omalley just informed me"
"This would be the second time she's awaken" she cut me off not
rudely but she seems to be in a hurry.
"Then where is she?" I ask
"we have moved her to another room after she went back to sleep.â
I dismiss her immediately. I guess seeing me again she's nit only gonna
destroy the room but also kills me. Yet I don't care as I'm willing to take
the risk. I continued to make my way towards her room Omalley told
me she was in then stop in front of the door.
I took a deep breath then twist the knop. I open it nervously I step
inside closing the door behind me.
Lyndon looks at me with disappointment but then he quickly mask it,
sitting there ignoring me while he focus his attention on his daughter.
I breathe in thinking to myself this is it, Thunder has been encouraging
me that everything will be fine, that our mate wont even recognised
anything. I try to ask him what he meant but he shut me off
immediately.
Maybe this is a wrong idea I thought as [ try to turn back and go back
out of the room.
"Dad" her soft voice made me stops there with the handle in my hand
ready to open it.
I turn slowly facing her direction.
She was now fully awake with pillow now supporting her back hoisting
her a little bit up against the metal headboard.
I stood there speechless watching her talk to her dad without noticing
me. I took step by step near then I stop not far away from her bed
breathing in nervously.
If only I could crush her in my arms easily. If only we are in a good
situation, if only we're lovers and mates in love.
All these ifs keeps on popping up in my head. I move nearer her and
Lyndon again was growling a little in frustration but I didn't care I just
want to hold her. I made it right in front of her on the other side.
My hand raising to caressed her cheek. As if she just realised my
presence her head snap in my way making my hand stop in mid air.
She squint her brows, my hand reaching her cheek and gently I touch
her cheek. I was surprised she didn't flinch at my touch or curse at me.
At this moments I want to ask if this is just a dream but her words cut
me off making me look at Lyndon with a frown.
"You're my mateâ she barely whispers with her cheeks now burning
pink, she is blushing.
My heart accelerate its beating. I wonder what's going on and this is
now confusing me. I look at Lyndon who lower his head down then the
doctor burst inside the room with a file in his hand. I retracted my hand
and turn to the doctor.
"Omalley what's going on with her?" I question him hesitantly through
our link
"Alpha" he let out a heavy sigh.
"After she lose conscious two hours ago she woke up and couldn't
recognise anything that happened there," he scratches his head eyeing
her.
"She has lost some major part of her memories which may include you
due to..."
I couldn't hear the rest of his words. I staggered back "it can't be, no
this is insaneâ I mumble while moving back until my back hit the wall.
Is this what Thunder meant I thought to myself with that I slid down on
the ground. I should have been overjoyed that my mate now lost her
memories
isn't this a perfect time for me to act like I was a good mate, that her
and I were in loveâ I thought.
Yet this is not what my heart wants, I wanted her to hate me, curse me
and make me feel everything she has gone through because of me.
My tears pouring out of my eyes "how can fate be so cruel to you
Addasah.'
First off your mate fuck up your heart because I'm an idiot, a coward, an
ass name all those filthy words and curse me, then your mother died
and now you" all these thoughts consumed me as I sat there refusing
to believe it.
I turn up watching her who look at me with confusion then slightly a
little bit uncomfortable.
"Alpha are you okay?" right now I felt like I want to cry out loud in front
of her but I know it won't bring back her memories.
Dr. Omalley helps me up and I lean towards him for support while he
tries to help me out.
Before we could reach the door her delicate voice stops me again
"you're my mate Alpha" she fiddle with her fingers with her head in
lower.
"Are you not happy I'm your mate?" she heavily sigh. My heart broke
for her if only she knew I broke her heart already.
I started to cry out "No, in fact I am" I couldn't finish as I was fucking
crying now.
"I am really happy to be your mateâ I sniffle
"then why are you crying and" she bit her bottom lips lowering her
head again.
Fuck this I rush over and embrace her in my arms, my tears wetting her
back as she just sat there.
I was to pull away when I felt two arms hugging me back. We stay in
that position for a while before I pull away kissing her forehead.
I can't do this to her I have to tell her the truth that me her mate was
never a good mate to her but before I do that I just needed some air.
"I'll see you later" I stood up to go but I almost trip in which Omalley
was fast enough to hold me up.
He help me out of the room with Addasah's father following behind us.
Once outside of the room I instantly got down on my knees before
Lyndon as my pack members and her friends whom now halt in their
steps and watch over us.
"Please forgive meâ I cry out in front of him begging for his forgiveness.
"Alpha" someone came running up at us while I'm still on my knees
before Lyndon.
I waited for his next words
"the former Alpha has escape the cell.â
I curse out loud forgetting that I was in the middle of apologizing to
Addasah's dad.
Lyndon moves back in the room while I awkwardly stood up and run
out of there with eyes following me as I exit the hospital.
I guess this night doesn't get any better for me. I let out a heavy sigh
while lookingup at the full moon.