Faults

Matteo's Pov

I felt myself burning with hatred and at the same time I'm still

emotional of what happened to my mate and her family.

It's my fault again, everything is my fault. I destroyed a family tonight if

only I could be patience a little more and wait for Addasah things

wouldn't have gone this far.2

I don't think she'll ever forgive me.

I had pray for her mother to be alive and now the burden is becoming

heavier and heavier with her losing her memories and her mother died

I have been walking back and forth in the same spot for an hour with

alot of things occupying my mind like my mate, James surprised attack

on our pack and my father escapes.

Not forgetting Quinn and this whole messed up situation I'm in.2

I went back to my office and find Aaron sitting there talking with Jay

and his luna Claire.

"Hey" I walk inside and sat on a couch opposite them

"so how did it go, after I left”

Aaron sigh leaning back against the couch while Claire rub on his

shoulder.

"You're lucky Eric and Dante has supported me" he says

"please tell me" I told me.

Aaron began to fill me in with info practically everyone were

disappointed of what I did. They have ask for a petition to strip me off

of my title as an Alpha.

Yet Aaron has convinced them to give me a second chance which I

don't think I deserve at all.1

He has explained my situation and the logic behind my actions which

then Alpha Eric and Dante along with Alpha Jesse from the Nightfall

Pack support Aaron

I was more grateful to my cousin for doing that to me even though I

was willing to step down. In fact, since my pack is in danger and the life

of my mate is on the line here therefore I couldn't do it.

I have to make sure nobody or even myself hurt her again.

"Thanks bro" I hug my cousin when he was to leave for his pack.

When they were gone I lean back closing my eyes "so how is she?" Jay

asks.

I clench my fist and simply told him the truth "she lost her memory”

"What the hell! it is so rare for werewolves to lose memories. Isn't

humans are the only ones with that problem" he rant on.

"Unfortunately my mate does," I say cutting him off in a frustrating tone

"okay...she remembers some things but not the life where her mate

keeps messing up her life"

Yeah so it's funny when she doesn't remember what happens between

us or tonight's event.

"So what now?" he asks me again

"I don't know Jay. I just can't act like we were perfect mates before. And

I just can't tell her the truth immediately... not right now" I bury my face

in the palm of my hands.

"Yeah totally, right now is not the best idea since she has been through

a lot. Maybe tomorrow or after one week”

he suggested before walking up to me and pat me on the shoulder

"but I know you'll figure it out bro”

"Matteo" someone knocked on that door and I knew that voice

immediately.

It was none other than Quinn. "Come in"

Jay nod in my direction before going out letting Quinn inside. I stood

up and went behind my desk. She took the chair in front of the desk

sitting down opposite me.

I could see she was nervous but I know I have to do this. I will take

responsibility for my pup but I can't be with her and act like a perfect

family man.

"Matteo" she started but I stop her "Quinn I don't know what you're

thinking but I can't be with you" it is better to straighten up with her

than running around the push.

" will still be responsible for my pup but not us as a family, I can't do

that and I'm sorry" she starts to tear up.

"Matteo but you can't do this, I love"

“not that word again Quinn” I intervene.

"I don't know how it will work out for you and your mate if you ever

met him but you know how it will feels like to have one. You would feel

what I felt now after you met him"

"he rejected me" she shouted at me making Thunder stir within me due

to her disrespecting us in that sort of manner.1

She sobs "he rejected me and left for his pack because I told him I love

you and you know what he says" she hiccups "good because I don't

want a slut for a Mate" she continues to sob.3

I kind of feel sorry for her yet again it's not anybody's fault. Somehow

this was also her fault if she did not insist for my dad and her for us to

be together things wouldn't go this far.3

“I'm sorry Quinn but my answer still remains. I need to be with her

because I love her. Us is in the past, and you know this cause I have

been telling you in the past four years" she sobs out loudly expecting

me to comfort her but I know I can't.

After Quinn left I sat there in my office thinking of the danger on my

pack. I don't know where and when they will attack but all I can do is to

prepare my pack for the worst. Therefore, I have to ready myself and

train my pack hard.

"Alpha I'm here to see you" Lyndon links me and I instantly replied to

him to come in the office.

I began to feel nervous I don't know but Addasah'’s father visiting me at

this hour is making me nervous as hell also there was fear creeping up

to my veins.

"Alpha" he came inside and sat on the chair that was occupied by

Quinn a while ago "please it's Matteo to you" I nervously sat down

facing him.

"Is there anything?”

"Alpha I think it's best if I just voice out why I am here. I know we're all

at fault her and it would be a lie if I'm not on the verge of killing you

right now but currently I'm trying my best to be more civil here.

You hurt my daughter, you blame yourself for my family but I know

some part is my fault too. I am not here to make amends but to ask you

a favour and I think you owe it to my daughter” I let out a heavy sigh.

"Matteo I'll forgive you if do this right for her. I'll help track down James

and your father but you need to focus on Addasah. You don't have to

worry about her friends as I have already talk with with them. Besides I

think you should know Addasah didn't lose her memories.”

I look at him with surprise on why the hell he would say that. I mean if

Addasah hasn't lose her memories then how come she doesn't

remember what I fucking did.

"You need to listen to what I have to say" I look with dumbfounded at

him.

"Then explain Lyndon,” I say and he actually did.

Sometime after Lyndon left I sat there not making any move and think

hard of what he has proposed for me to do.

It's not so easy to do what he says but maybe it will be good for

Addasah but then again she'll forever hate me.8

I look at my clock it's 2am Thunder wanted to see her and wanted me

to buy food for her, so I did what he wanted besides I really want to see

her too.