Forgiven?

Matteo's Pov

If you ever wish tomorrow will be better better, then don't get your

hopes up. As not everything goes in our hope and wishful thinking.

Four days past and Addasah has woke up but she was still in her own

world.

She refused to hear, or to let me touch her or anybody else near her

but she just wants to be all by herself and even with Wes she is starting

to pull away from him.

I spent more times with Wes than she ever did. Addasah was in denial

and withdrawn.

We indeed have held a funeral for Addasah's father today even though

it's sad that we could not retrieve his body but we still do it with our

traditional tribute.

It breaks my heart everytime I see her drown in her misery. It is hard for

her to lose both of her parents and all I can do is to be there for her.

I am trying my best to make sure that she won't walk alone even

though I am guilty of my own lies but I am afraid, really afraid to tell her

all about it.

I don't know how she will take everything and I don't want her to suffer

anymore because I know now it's not the right time. So after the funeral

nana Gloria has told Addasah her father's wishes and I know it pretty

well as Wesley is a hybrid like his father.

She has agreed to let her grandma have him but I know Addasah this

must be really hard for her too.

We went back to the pack house and nana Gloria is still ignoring me

but only pretend to smile at me when Addasah is around.

We talk a day after I informed her of Lyndon's death but that was

strictly it. She did not let me in her home or even welcome me in her

open arms like she used to before. I know that she knows the truth and

that is the very reason she is despising me now.

When Addasah was out of sight I move to nana Gloria but she nodded

her head no to me and stood up to move away.

"Nana" I try to go near her

"I am not your nana” she corrected me "I only have two grandchildren

and it happens not to be you.”

She never gave me a smile and I was grateful that all of my pack

members were out today. Everyone has gone out after the funeral.

"I am only here for Addasah and Wesley, nobody else” I wanted to cry

seeing the woman whom I always considered my grandmother despise

me.

"Please na-" I beg her but she threw me a cold glance

"I am going to say this one last time I am not your nana. I don't know

what's your motive in keeping my grand daughter beside you or even

pretend to love her but mark my words Matteo. She will leave you

when she remembers,” she spits on the ground between the two of us.3

I try to move again in front of her but Addasah emerged from the

house with Wesley in her arms and a bag on hanging from her

shoulder.

"Grandma are you sure about this, I mean I can take care of him besides

he is all I left." Nana Gloria shook her head no

"Addasah, I'll take him with me for the mean time when danger is

alleviate then you can come fetch him"

Addasah stood there with her eyes still on her brother. It seems like she

doesn't want to hand him over to her grandma but in the end she

finally nod her head yes handing him over to Gloria earning a tear to

slip from her eyes.

Wesley was about to awake and nana Gloria swiftly rocks the baby in

her arm before heading to the car outside the house.

Addasah moves when her grandma moves to get inside the car. I could

still see her struggling to let her brother go.

I went and snake my hand around her waist pulling her to my chest.

"Bye grandma, please let me know if anything happens to him,” she bits

her bottom lip looking at her sibling.

She took a deep breath waving a goodbye to her grandma.

The car moves to go and she took steps by steps "please grandma call

me" she started to tear up as she follows the car.

"Please let him be okay" she runs to it but I quicken my step and held

her arm back into mine but she push me back and quicken her steps

towards the car as it reverse to go.

"Please grandma call me if anything happens to him" she taps on the

window giving her a phone call sign.

The moment she moves I move along with her cause I knew she

needed me to be there when she turns back. She chase after it as it left

and when it's fully out of the gate.

She turns back running back into my arms and started to cry there. She

buried her head in my chest fisting my shirt with her hands while crying

for her brother.

"He's going to be alright nana Gloria is taking care of him" I murmured

through her hair. Then kisses her on the head "they are both in good

hands Aaron will protect them I promise Addy."

I held her tightly and for a moment I felt her body weight on me and I

pull her away from my chest to find that she has fainted.

I carry her back to the house and lay her on the bed. I call Dr. Omalley

to come and check her and he did came minutes later then left after

assuring me that she’s alright and it just minor stress.

I sat there at the foot of the bed on my chair watching her asleep. My

thoughts wondering how would I be able to tell her everything on my

own. I wanted to tell her but I know now is not the right time.

When she wakes up I watch her as she look around the dark room then

she pull her legs up to her chest laying my head on it. I move to my bed

and seated before her.

I took her into my arms and hold her there against my chest. I felt her

hands instantly going around my waist. She didn't cry as I know her

tears must have gone and dry but I could only feel her sadness

overwhelming her at this very moment.

"You're not going to leave me like they did?" she whisper while her

arms tightens around my waist then I felt something wet on soaking my

shirt.

I made her face me tilting her face up to see me. My thumps brushes

her cheek wiping off her tears while smiling at her.

"No I won't, I'll be here with you whenever you need me" I kisses her

forehead, then her eyes, nose then finally a peck on her sweet lips.

"I can never leave you alone. You can hate, push, hurt, broke or even kill

but never will I leave you. Even if I die I'll still be right here with you" I

said as I took her hands into mine and kisses her fingertips.

She push it away "you think I'll kill you" she glares at me and I smirk

caressing her cheek and again she slapped my hand away.

"Okay come on I was only telling the truth and I didn't mean you'll

actually kill me you know" I says earning a narrow from her eyes to me

in return. I sigh "the bottom line is; I love you so much that I can't leave

you here on this world alone”

I don't know if my words melt heart but I always mean those three

words whenever I confess it to her.

"So would you forgive me if I say that even if you kill me ill still be here.

Come on I don't mean that part love” I could see tears about to burst

from her eyes.

Therefore I pull her back in his arms and then I hear her cry soaking up

my shirt but I did not care at all cause my baby needs me here.

When I felt relax and more calm she pull her head back and stare right

up at me and before I could move away she kiss me.

Pulling me down to her as her hands held my shirt fronts tightly. I was

stunned that before I replied and pull myself away she shut me up with

another kiss

I didn't want to take advantage of her situation but her kisses are

making me lose my control. I push all my thought away and return her

kisses holding her face in my hands.

I can only kiss but I could never push her for more because I love her

that much and I don't want her to regret.+

If her perhaps memories are back then I don't think she'll ever forgive

me.