Tell Her

Jay's Pov

"Matteo you have to tell her the whole truth,” I watch him take another

shot of whisky in his hand while ignoring me.

I was in the office sorting out our finances paper work when he storm in

the office.

His eyes were red and he scream in the office then smashes photos and

lamps in the office.

I knew his wolf was surfacing by his actions and once he calms down he

told me what happened earlier with him and Addasah.

At the same time he's guilty of everything. He knows he shouldn't have

been shouting at her and question her love for him. It's not like their

love is true after all everything is a lie.2

He is lying to her except the fact that he loves her.

Yet what's even worst was the surprising arrival of his son and Quinn

which has made him ignore her.

He told me that he is too ashamed to face her now and that is why he's

keeping his distance from her for the mean time until he figured

everything out.

I said Quinn came on the wrong timing, and she should have inform

him that she’s bringing Jona and her mate here. In that way maybe

Matteo will then be more prepared for it.

I could see that she want Matteo to take ownership but I would say

now is not the right time. I know he is torn between his son and his

Mate.

We have been sharing our problems recently with each other especially

his guilt over Addasah, then the return of Quinn and his son.

He look so vulnerable and insecure rambling on that Addasah will leave

him once the truth is discovered.

So here I am trying to tell my best friend to tell her the truth.

"Matteo" I try again

"I can't" he mutters pouring another one in his cup.

I snatch it away from his hand before he drinks again and I chuck down

the liquid to my throat.

"You can't keep her in the dark forever Matteo. What do you think she'll

do when she finds out?" I try to make my friend see the possibility of

the consequences of his actions if the truth is not being revealed to her.

"I can't" he says holding back his tears and his head hung low.

"She deserves the truth and to free yourself from all this guilt you have

to tell her. Yes she'll be mad but maybe she'll understand you, I know

she loves you" I try to reason with him again.

"Matt, do you think she'll still be here, with you, with our pack if she

finds out before you do," realising what I just said I curse under my

breath.

The glass shatter against the wall "that's why I can't,” he shouted at me

luckily his office is soundproof and I know no one bothers to listen in to

our conversation. Plus we are the only one in this house

"I can't lose her, not now or forever. I just love her so much that I'm

always guilty whenever she's with me and I selfishly want her all for

myself."

He broke down into tears "I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm

fucking in love with her that it hurts so much. If she left me I don't think

I'll ever survive again.”

I can see all the regret and pain written all over his face.

My best friend has never been like this maybe he was in love before but

hurt and pain were emotions that I have never seen in him or he has

shown to me or towards anyone.

Only Addasah is doing this to him and I don't blame her as it wasn't

even her fault as if she remember what really happens.

Matteo and I knew the one at fault here is him. He has hurt her not just

hurt but deeply have broken her before she loses her memories.2

He had the chances again months ago or the whole year yet everything

went down the drain with his father involvement. Then Quinn fucking

him while he was drunk in pain.

Now he has a son and Addasah knew nothing of it.

We don't know when or where her memories will be back but I know

one thing. She's going to leave him if he doesn't tell her the truth now.

He needs to be honest to her and it's the least he could do for her and

him.

In fact, to think again I think my friend has a point too, because even I

can't read Addasah.

Whether she will discover the truth or not i think she will still leave him

given that he has hurt her way too much in the past.1

Not only that what Matteo is doing is for her happiness because the

time they've been together she looks more happy than anyone else.

"Matteo, you know drinking is not the answer, you need to get a hold

of yourself," I walk up to him and pat him on the shoulder while he

sunk to the couch and cry.

"I don't know what to do Jay" he cry "I am afraid she is going to leave

me. I mean after waiting for so long and now we're together but

everything is mess up and I just don't know anymore if the moon

goddess did want us to be together or not."

He struggled with his words and breath, "it's so easy to tell her the

truth but honestly it so hard to bring myself to do it because either way

I know I'll lose her in the end.”

I ended up silently crying while patting my friend on the back. There

was nothing I could do as his friend except to comfort and gave him

advice that I think is best for him now.

Indeed I know nothing of the pain he’s going through so maybe I

understand but I'll never felt it and know what it's like because I have

never been there.

Who am I to judge him then and the choices he made.

"You're right" he sniffle "I'll tell her the truth but I can't do it without my

best friend. I mean you know she'll leave right?" he said unsure while

wiping off his tears using the back of his hand and I swear at him.

"Fuck bro don't go all girly on me, and besides you don't know unless

you try" I sarcastically said it and he laugh a little.

Seeing a smile on his face I relax a little and place my hand on his

shoulder.

"Don't worry Matt you know I'll always be there for you man. When you

decide to tell her let me know."

We heard the door knocked then her delicate voice came from outside

"Matteo."

I look aside to find his eyes widen in fear that she might have heard us

talking about her situation a while ago.

I try to calm him down assuring him that everything is going to be fine

and that Addasah may not have heard us talking about their

relationship.

I watch him fix himself and clean up the mess he made including the

empty bottle of whisky on the table.

Once he is done and I know that he is okay and ready to face her, I

open up the door slowly to see the sapphire eyes of Addasah which

focuses behind me.

I gave her a smile and nod my head for her to move inside while I walk

out of there leaving the two alone in the office.

As I walk away I hope for one thing and it is for my best friend and that

if Addasah ever finds out the truth;

I truly want them to fix it instead of running away from each other.