Matteo's Pov
She stood there at the door nodding at Jay then he quickly move out of
the door locking it.
Once we heard a click sound both of our legs move and she jump in my
arms hugging me tightly then broke in to tears.
"I'm sorry" she sobs "I'm sorry for being selfish you were right and I'm
sorry for not thinking of you too" I pull back my head with tears in my
eyes facing her.
"I love you and I'm sorry baby I am so sorry. I have no right to shout at
you and I'm so sorry for avoiding you..im sorry. I just can't lose you,
not now, tomorrow or ever. I am sorry for being harsh with my words
and I am really sorry for everything. I fucking mess up againâ
I wipe off her tears before my lips finds her and we both mould into
passion.
I seated her on my desk while my hands move under the hem of her
dress trying to pull it off. At the same time she struggled with my shirt
buttons.
She gave up in being gentle and tear it off from my body. I smirks
before doing the same with her dress making her moan out loud.
"I love it when you're being feisty amore,â I mutter while nibbling her
neck leaving my marks to her neck down to her breast.
"And I love it when you're inside me Matt" I groan dropping on my
knees before her.
I spread her legs apart and found myself devouring her with my mouth
before I take her on my desk.
She kept on withering and moan under my touch, calling out my name
countless times as I drove myself into her with insane, making love to
her beautiful body.
She lies on top of me on the office couch with my hands trailing and
caressing her back softly after our love making session.
"Do you think I'm going to get pregnant soon?" my fingers stops once I
heard her question.
"We didn't use any protection Matt" she said and I tried to hide my
emotions.
I should be more excited as she's going to carry my pup but now is not
the right time.
I didn't want our child to be born from my lies to her. Therefore I
wanted to come clean to her before trying again with her and that if
she ever forgive me.
My thoughts went back to Jona my son whom she thought it's Quinn's
mate pup and I wanted to throw up at that thought.
Truthfully, I love my son as it wasn't his fault that he happened to be
born but I resent myself for it.
Still hoping and wish that Jona was mine and Addasahâs first born child.
I tried to clear my throat as the room was silence maybe now is a good
time.
This could be our only time, I thought as I caress her bare back. I think
Jay is right I have to tell her and now is that time.
I have to he honest with her now I clear my throat whispering to her
"amore," I started.
My hot breath fanning her forehead. Addasah look up at me "my love"
The way she says my love sends a bang to my heart. She's only saying
this because she doesn't know what lies she's living in. At the moment I
almost cry when I thought of it
"Amore" I try again
"Love" she carress my cheek as I close my eyes trying to suppress my
tears.
"I am a monster to you. I did something really bad to you before you
lose your memories" I couldn't hold it back and I broke into tears.
She sat right up and I buried my face in my hands regardless of our
nakedness she moves towards me.
Her hand reaches for me, letting me to face her. She looks at me with
concerns and I just couldn't take it anymore and it broke my heart even
more.
"Tell me, what happened?" I cried even harder not able to utter a single
word.
"I... 1." 1 cry and she look at me with sadness and I could tell that she
didn't want to force me.
Yes I know she could see and feel my pain but not the lies we live in.
"Matteo, I don't want you to force yourself, if it's too hard" but I shook
my head, refusing not to let the opportunity of telling her the truth
slide away.
She moves and sat on my lap this time taking my face in her hands
"I lie to you about so many things" I keep on sobbing as I says this. She
kisses my forehead, then to my eyes, to my nose and on my lips.
"It's okay, I'll always be here for you" and I could see hear her thoughts
wondering how bad did I hurt her. She didn't know that her walls were
down and I could see what she thought
âIt must have been worst as him crying like this I hear her thoughts and
I try to block it.
I could also see that the thought of the truth is scaring her even more
now.
Whatever happens in the past I hope she will try and forgive me
depending on how worst it is.
"I love someone before I met you" I started and she didn't move away
from me.
"I thought I did, not until I fell for you and to me it superceded my love
than the one I did before. Yet there are things that could not be under
our controlâ
Taking in a deep breathe I was ready to tell her everything when there's
a knock on the door ruining my chances.
Addasah stumble out of my lap. She looks around for her clothes
unfortunately both of our clothes were torn.
"Addasah, just leave it," I stood up and tried to stop her from answering
to the person outside the door as I wanted her to hear the truth but I
fell back to the couch wincing in pain.
"Matteo"
I knew that voice outside of the door and I curse her for ruining it.
Addasah turning red like a tomato while I rested my head back feeling
the pain on my back then suddenly I chuckle.
"Amore I think you went deeper this time" I chuckle at her.
She became confused then she looks at how I bit my lip and my back
arching in pain which make her blushed even more.
My body is slowly healing as Addasah and Alera's nails dug deep into
our skin.
"Well, it's not like I was the one pounding in you. It's just a scratch
Alpha while me I'm sore all over... I thought my big bad Alpha won't
hurt that easily.â
I nodded my head and slightly laugh a little forgetting what just
happens.
A knock came again "Alpha" I groan "fuck off Quinn I'm with your luna"
and the knocking stops.
"You shouldn't scream at her like that," Addasah said.
I curse Quinn in my head and links one of my pack members to bring
over clothes, which arrived after a minute. I felt Addy's lips on mine
back making me moan "a more,â I said.
"I'm sorry I hurt you" I smiles turning around to face Addasah who is
now fully clothed.
My words that I was sorry with everything which Addasah doesn't know
of.
All she ever thought was that I'm apologizing for doing her hard and
rough. Yet it was deeper than anything. It meant another way and I felt
my heart ache every time I said it.
I pecks her on the lips "it was worth it" Addasah said then left for
training while I clean up my office before sitting down behind my desk
sorting out some files and finalising contract with other packs.+
I think Jay is right I need to tell her but before that I have to talk to
Quinn about my son.