Chapter 72 â I Canât Stand Her!
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After returning to Bellafleur mansion late in the evening, I went straight to bed after finishing my bath. I didnât know why, but I felt exhausted by tonightâs party. Perhaps it was because of the big break up with Dorothea.
âI should have done that a long time ago.â
I dragged out the situation all the way until now, but I was finally done with it. However, because of my delay, the conflict had grown deeper, as well as the resulting wound. I wasnât sure if that was a good thing or bad thing.
The next morning, after I opened my eyes and got out of bed, the first thing I did was send a letter to Cornohen mansion. I stated that I would like to visit as soon as possible. Maristellaâno, Iâhad to cut off Dorothea.
As time went on, it became increasingly apparent that there was no good in staying close to Dorothea. Aside from the other problems, I found it unforgivable that she would gossip about me as a promiscuous, ill-mannered woman behind my back. I didnât want to be her maid, especially after something like that.
I didnât care about the debt between familiesâI couldnât stand it anymore. I was going to tell the adults to solve their problems and then get out of this relationship.
My family had to know about what happened last night. They didnât know about my deal with Countess Cornohen, of course, but there was no way they didnât know about the blowup at Duke Escliffesâ party. Â There had been such a fuss afterwards that it would be strange if it didnât reach my familyâs ears. However, everyone seemed hesitant to ask me about the situation, as if to spare me from the wounds the incident may have caused.
No, technically it wasnât âeveryoneâ.
âI canât stand her! Does that woman think or not?â
Martina openly fumed about Dorothea in front of me, and I didnât bother to stop her. There was no need to argue about a relationship that was already over.
âSister, youâre not going to stay with her after all that, are you?â Martina demanded.
âYour sister is not a pushover, Martina.â My face remained expressionless. âIâm tired. I donât have the ability to endure anymore.â
âWhy do you have to endure? Please donât hang out with her when you have Odel. Iâm really sick of it now!â
I agreed. âItâs really over now, Martina. Letâs not talk about this anymore.â
ââ¦â
Martina remained in thoughtful silence for a moment. âButâ¦itâs a good thing that itâs over now.â
I agreed with that, too.
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Regrettably, Countess Cornohenâs reply did not arrive early. It arrived in the evening, so the earliest possible time we could meet was tomorrow. I sent the Countess another letter stating that I had something to say about our deal, and a simpler reply came back. It said that we would talk over lunch tomorrow.
Lunch with Countess Cornohen. My first thought was that I would have to sit through an upset stomach, but I had no choice. I wanted this over as soon as possible. I sent a letter to Cornohen mansion saying I would be there.
The next day, I arrived in time at Cornohen mansion. When the carriage stopped, I took a deep breath and disembarked from the vehicle.
âWelcome, Lady Maristella.â
The butler greeted me, and I answered back and quietly followed his footsteps. When I arrived in front of the dining room, I saw Countess Cornohen through the transparent glass-paned doors. She was sitting down and waiting for me over tea, and it was then that I realized that I was nervous over meeting her. It was more because I would finally bring a clean break to this tedious relationship, than actual fear towards the Countess.
Two servants opened the glass-paned double doors from either side, and I walked through the threshold without a sound. Countess Cornohen turned her head, and with her heavy gaze on me, I bowed politely.
âItâs been a long time, Lady Cornohen,â I said.
âSit down, please. You came early.â She greeted me in a calm manner. I gave a small nod and sat opposite of her.
âIâm sorry to visit you all of a sudden, Countess Cornohen.â
âYou have something to say about our deal,â she began primly.
âYes.â
At the same time, the appetizer was served. I continued to speak without touching the salmon canape placed in front of me.
âIâm sorry, but Iâd like you to pretend that there was no deal.â
ââ¦Out of the blue?â
âItâs not âout of the blueâ. Itâs something Iâve been thinking about for a long time.â I calmly laid out what I wanted to say to her. At least Countess Cornohen was a more rational woman than Dorothea. By a hair.
âIt was my fault for accepting the deal hastily. I admit it and I am reflecting on it. We can talk about this to my parents, then pretend the deal never happened.â
âWhat is the reason for this?â Countess Cornohen said, her brows furrowing in displeasure. âI said that cancelling the interest was easy on my side, but itâs never actually easy. Do you know that?â
âI know. Anyway, I appreciate your suggestion. But now I canât endure it.â
âIs this because of what happened at the Escliffe Mansion party the other night?â
ââ¦You know.â
It wouldnât be strange if she didnât know it. My family knew it after all. I swallowed the lump in my throat. âThen this will be easier.â
âYouâre not giving up the interest write-off over that sort of thing, are you?â she challenged.
âIâm too tired. I tried to do my filial duty, but itâs too much.â
After reaching this point, I didnât even want to think. I just wanted to get this over with already.
âIâd like you to speak to my parents and act like this never happened. Please, I donât want to be involved with your daughter anymore.â
âAre you really going to step forward like this?â
âIâm sorry, but Lady Dorotheaâs behavior isnât something I can tolerate. Nothing is more miserable than being with someone who gossips about me as if Iâm a two-timer or a promiscuous woman. I think you can understand.â
ââ¦â
Countess Cornohen didnât answer, but her face was pale and she pursed her lips. It was only natural that she didnât have anything to say. Unless she might say the same nonsense as last time.
âIf you donât have anything else to say, then Iâll take it you understand,â I finally said.
âSo you are going to cut off the relationship that has gone back four generations.â
âI bear no ill feelings towards the Cornohen family itself. But this is a matter concerning your daughter. No matter who you ask in the entire world, itâs difficult for me to be with someone who talks badly about you. Even if I wanted to be a âmaidâ.â
ââ¦â
âIâll take my leave. You should eat the meal with your daughter.â
I rose up from my seat. It was around that time that a buttered lobster was placed on the table. That was my favorite dish, but I didnât want to eat it here. Nothing was more ridiculous than sharing a meal after closing a relationship.
I gave a polite bow and left. I worried briefly that Countess Cornohen would try to hold me back but, fortunately, it didnât happen.
And so, I ended my relationship with Dorothea.