Chapter 1
: Sophia
"You can not date anyone from the human world" Alpha growled at me as I met his gaze timidly. Fear filled me.
"Its not dating" I stuttered. "I only asked what was for lunch" I answered innocently. His hard voice sending chills of fear through me locking up my muscles. As a human I wasn't built to withstand the blunt effects of an Alpha's command.
As a human I was meant to mate with a human, it was impossible for a werewolf to mate with humans. I was adopted into this pack when I was only ten years old, that was seven years ago now. I was held at the same standard as the pack, but as a human it was hard for me to follow all the rules and protocal of the pack. Humans were'nt hard wired with the fear and drive to obey an Alpha's command.
It was a constant battle trying to remember every rule, every move having to be altered. But with human blood running through my veins and the stubborn will that was inherited from my mother I never knew when to give up or back down. "You were seen talking to a human Sophia. You know the rules very well"
Hanging my head I bit my lip with tears in my eyes. The tone he took always made me cry no matter how hard I tried not to. "I don't have any friends, I don't talk to anyone, or have anyone. I am human I need to talk to people Alpha" I pleaded desperately with tears running down my cheeks.
"There is someone in the pack" He grunted out. "You will marry a pack member" he added soberly.
"So I am never to have children" I whispered feeling the floor under me drop out from under my feet and my heart ache at the thought of never being able to hold my own child.
"You can always adopt as we had with you"
"I never asked for this, I wish you had just let me die" I hissed out in anger as I turned on my heels and ran from the room, in a blur I bumped into someone and skirted around the hard frame attempting to flee quickly.
"Sophia stop" his booming voice caused my body to lock up and mid step I froze feeling the fear coursing through me I felt him prowling to me making the hair over my body stand on end. "Turn now" He growled.
And for once in my life I did promptly respond turning slowly keeping my head down I gasped when a hard hand came into contact with my cheek I felt the my teeth clatter and the sharp pain blurred my vision as blood filled my mouth and I spit it out with a cough.
"We did not have to bring you into this home Sophia. We never asked for a worthless human thrown at our feet. Yet we took you in, clothed you, put warm food in your belly" he ground out.
Protocol slipped me as I glared up as I wiped away the blood from my lips. "And make me feel unwanted, hated, shunned. Yes bravo Alpha for making my life hell. I know the pack bitches at me, that the males laugh at me . I have nothing but this empty life with now real reason to live" I spoke with a broken voice tears streaming down my cheeks. "You have done everything imaginable to make me feel unwelcomed. Just end my life and let me have peace of once" I whispered in a pleading voice.
"Drake you went to far" The Luna let out as she came up beside him and pushed him back as she glared at him as she pulled a tissue out. "You hit her" she growled as she went to touch me I cringed back trembling. "We have to get her to the doctors"
"She's fine" he glared darkly. "She needed to be reminded of her position in life"
"She is not an underling. She's not built like us Drake" she groaned. "You cant hit her like that you drew blood" she gave me the tissue. "Come on Sophia, we will get you to the doctors." she sent him a dark look as she helped me up and groaned softly. "Her mate will not like this Drake. You realize what you did?" She muttered as I felt myself slip into darkness.
**
"Why the hell is she still asleep" A voice growled out and I felt my insides curl at the tone as a warm hand touched my arm a pain raced up making me yelp and my eyes snap open. "Sophia"
I glanced at the Alpha I whimpered at the pain in my jaw and shrank as he stepped towards me before stepping back and turning.
"Your things are packed, you will be staying outside the pack bounds with humans" he growled as he slammed the door as he left.
Blinking in shock I tried to wrap my head around it as I watched another man left the room, the door closing softly behind him another's rich voice echoed. "You will not send my mate out into the waste lands unprotected and alone with humans" the voice growled out.
"Hold your tongue Zachary. Your mate chose to go against my world many times. She wants the freedom to socialize and live with humans then fine by me let her die with them" The Alpha Sneered.
"I will not have my mate treated like such-" The man snarled.
But who was this man. Curiosity filled me, but fear as well. I had no clue who he was.
A mate. I thought to myself. Was it true? But why had he never came to me till now? I remembered woman of the pack talking about mates. How they were to love and protect you, to fill that missing piece in your chest.
Pushing those thoughts away I got out of the bed and groaned softly in pain as I slid into my clothes and threw my bag over my shoulder. I eyed the door then the window before pushing it open and hopping out.
I was free now. All the time living here in the seven years I had never felt at home. How could I? I was a human in a werewolf pack. I started down the side walk and made my way down the street heading for the bank I had more then enough to survive till I found a decent part time job.
It was a quick stop at the atm pulling out a couple hundred I counted it and stuffed it in my pocket before adjusting my bag.
"Where do you think your going" I jumped at the voice and turned slightly.
"Who are you" I let out in shock.
"Your coming with me" That voice. This was the man who had left the room to yell at the Alpha. He grabbed my arm and pulled me lightly. "What the hell are you even doing this far away from the house" he demanded.
"I'm free" I blinked in shock. "Obviously drawing out money from the bank"
"Why" he grunted as he lead me to a car.
"Because living in a motel is not free. Everything costs something" I grunted. "I mean I could go without food for a while I can afford that" I noted as I looked down at my body. "But then that would be more money for clothes" I scowled.
"No mate of mine will sleep in a motel or starve" he growled. "Your coming with me" I was star struck as I looked into his eyes. I had forgotten how handsome the wolves could be. He had long dark brown hair buzzed on the sides but jelled back at the top. He had creamy skin that held a golden tan.
"mate" I let out in shock. "your joking right?" I let out a nervous laugh.
Frowning he watched me curiously. "No, now lets go"
"Your kidding, you must me lying. Serena put you up to this? She had to of because this is one of the sickest jokes" I pushed at his hold. I grabbed my knife and glared. "Silver coated, let me go"
"Honey I am not trying to hurt you this isn't a joke" he sighed. "I am not Lennex"
I glared . "That is what he said. Look I'll call Trent and he can come get me"
"You are mine" He growled out. His deep voice rumbled as he knocked the blade from my hand and pulled me into his arms his face buried in my neck sending shivers through me. "You can feel it I know you can" he growled softly into my ear. "trust me"
Groaning I shivered as his breath . "Your not going to kill me are you"
He huffed and shook his head. "I would never hurt you"
"Humans can't mate with your kind" I whispered with fear in my voice. "Its not possible"
"It is possible. But that is why we have been trying to find out before I announced the bond, but you had to go and aggravate the Alpha and get placed into the wastelands" He tsked softly as he pushed my hair from my eyes.
Feeling a spark I jerked away from him and found myself locked in his chocolate brown eyes. They held so much emotions, I felt myself sway to him. My stomach churned with anticipation of feeling him close to me, the draw he spoke of pulling me to him. I felt myself swell with guilt at the thought of being his mate. I would never had my own children. Hanging my head I exposed my neck in submission.
"I will never be able to bare your children-and for that I am sorry" I whispered. Though a voice whispered in my head with his looks he had to have a litter to two somewhere.
"Do not apologize for something you can not control" He tilted my face up to his as he brushed his thumb over my lips sending that shock of heat through me making me blush. "lets just get you home"
I knew he was lying to me. Every male no matter what they said wanted to have their own children. He opened the car door and helped me in. "I don't have a home."
"If you had not pushed the Alpha you still would be at the house safe and sound. Do you realize the danger you put yourself in because you could not control yourself" he hissed as he closed the door and walked around slowly before sliding into the driver side. "I was going tot ell you when I had everything ready and laid out to make you safe" he cursed as he slammed his fist down on the wheel causing the horn to blare I jumped. "Now your in immense danger, a danger I did not want you to be in Sophia. I wanted you to be safe, I wanted things done the right way but you messed it all up" he accused.
I sat back and rolled my eyes with a stubborn scoff "I just asked about what was for lunch" I whispered in a small voice with tears in in my eyes.
"You were ordered. Not to speak to any male from the human society" he snarled. "Now I will have to kill him. Is that what you wanted?"
Cringing I whimpered. "I slipped once, and he didn't do anything. He wouldn't answer me. You don't have to kill him"
He growled out. "You are mine Sophia" he let out coldly. "Do you not understand what a mate is?"
"Yes" I glared through the tears. "To love and take care of their other half. Not leave them in a house filled with hateful people to get beaten, and yelled at every day. To not leave them alone crying their heart out because they never knew what love feels like" I screamed as I threw open the door. "That is what a mate is supposed to do. But you didn't do that. You locked me away and left me in a cold heartless world. You didn't care did you?" I slammed the door and started to run. My bag was in the car I felt my pocket feeling the wallet and sighed.
I didn't hear him follow, let alone make a sound of protest as I took a deep breath and fixed my clothes.
"I can do this" I whispered.
**
Glancing at the bathroom door as someone knocked on it I slowly opened it and walked out apologizing quickly as I walked past them to the door. Glancing out I flinched as I watched the rain coming down. I hadn't realized I had been in there so long.
"Honey you can't go out there like that, you'll get soaked to the bone" I looked back at the waitress as she pulled me away from the door. "Why don't you just sit here and wait it out. I'll bring you a cup of hot coco you look like you've had a hard day" her eyes lingered on my cheek.
Nodding I sat down and looked at my hands. I was so confused. I had a mate. He had known about me all this time, and blamed me for the Alpha's actions, he blamed it all one me. But didn't he see the abuse? I touched my jaw and whimpered. He had his excuses for why but it all felt like a lie.
Was kindness what that waitress showed me? I thought to myself as I looked up.
"Here you go"
"Thank you" I inhaled the sweet smell.
"Your welcome" she gave me a warm smile. "you just take the time you need." she touched my hand lightly..
I eyed the coco as I sat there silently. What was I going to do? I had the money my parents left me, as well as the college fund they had set up. I did the math in my head from my baby sitting jobs and house cleaning I sighed. I could stay in a motel or go to school here. But should I stay ? If I left I could start a new life, make friends. Maybe a boyfriend.
So absorbed in my thoughts as I slowly sipped at my drink the bell at the door chirped and I felt my skin warm. "Sophia" I looked up as he walked in breathing heavy hair dripping wet his clothes clinging to every line of his body as he prowled to me, moving slowly as if I was a skittish animal. "I was so worried" he groaned as he pulled me into his arms. I felt the heat radiating from his body even with the ice cold rain drenched clothes.
"Thank you for getting me wet" I grumbled as I shivered and sat back down and huddled over my drink.
"I have been looking all over town for you"
"Must have been looking in some pretty high places" I let out sarcastically as I caught the sight of lipstick on his cheek. I looked away feeling a stab to my heart. "I wish you would stop lying to me obviously you weren't looking for me. The lipstick on your cheek says it all" I threw a five on the table as a blonde came strutting in.
"Zach there you are " she gave a laugh. "you just took off running" she purred as she moved closer and went to touch him.
"Sophia" he pleaded as he watched me stand and move away from him.
"Just stop, stop lying to me" I snapped as I ignored him and her as I stormed out into the rain and walking away.
"Sophia I wasn't lying" His voice carried to me as he ran up behind me and pulled me to a stop I rolled my eyes. "I wouldn't lie to you" he let out as I looked up at him through the rain.
"You did for seven years Zachary" I sneered as I attempted to pull away.
"I told you it was because I was protecting you"
"Lies" I sneered. "Let me go"
"I told you I am not lying damn it" Cringing away as he pulled me into his arms his body heat radiating through the chilled rain warming my skin. "I swear it, Bonnie is-"
I knew what she was to him. "A old love?" I let out sarcastically as I jerked away. A part of me missing the warmth he gave, I clenched my hands. "Not so old I am assuming fromt he lip stick on your cheek. A liar. As well as a cheater" I shook my head. "God your nothing of what I heard a mate would be like." I glared up at him. "Why did I get stuck with a mate like you?" I groaned with a whimper as my heart quenched in pain.
"What would you of had me do? You where 10 years old when I found you. I was 16. I couldn't very well of slept with you, you were to young" I cringed away from him. "I didn't want to push myself on you like that my wolf wouldn't listen to reason"
"So you decided that a life of solitude was the best choice? A life of never knowing what it was like to have friends? A life of envy when I watched all the other kids in school laugh and have fun while I was forced to be alone" I shook my head. "You isolated me from everyone, just so you could cheat on me? Even when I got older you chose to keep your secret from me"
"I went about it the wrong way. I know that now. But it was for the best"
"Yes and you sleeping around was for the best I suppose ?" I demanded roughly through chattering teeth"
"If you wanted me to control my wolf yes. Every male that looked at you I wanted dead. DO you realize how many males I could have killed just for looking at you if I had let you talk to them? How many men watched your every movement ? Let alone date one of them" he growled darkly. "I did what I did to keep you safe and innocent"
"I had my innocence's stolen the day my parents were murdered in front of me. My innocence's was stolen from me the day the Alpha made it clear I was never wanted. It was stolen away the day I realized I would forever be looked down on for being different,"
"He told you those things" He whispered in shock.
Nodding slowly I stepped away from him as I met his eyes. "I know how worthless I am to you. To every one of you"
Growling he clenched his hands. "That bastard-he will pay for this"
I shook my head. "Its sad that is all you heard out of everything" I hugged myself. "Just leave me alone Zachary. Take this as your get out of free card"
**
My pride bruised, hopes battered and broken as I laid in bed naked sobbing silently my chest aching as I struggled to breath. I had no home, no family. A mate that was a cheater. Tears streaked down my cheeks.
I missed my mom, a part deep inside my heart wished I had died with them
Him, my mate? Was it all a lie. Never once had he come to visit me, never had he shown himself till now. I rolled onto my stomach burying my face into the pillows. In his jealousy to keep me safe he kept hurting me over and over. But the insane part of it all that hurt most was knowing he wasn't going to share those first moments with me.
I shifted groaning as I rubbed my eyes and got out of bed and shoving on my damp clothes. with keys and money in hand I left the room and started down the hall I needed food.
Feeling numb and out of touch as I walked slowly I bumped into someone and blinked in shock as I looked up into dull brown eyes. He wasn't Zachary's but as I shifted closer I shivered.
"Hey what are you doing" He let out in shock.
"I think you know what I'm doing" I let out as I touched his chest.
He blushed but caught my hands. He looked torn for a moment before clearing his throat. "Look I'm sorry I have a girlfriend"
I blinked in shock realizing how foolish I was and dropped my hands. "Oh I'm-sorry" I stuttered. "my medicine-makes me do things-" I lied with a nervous giggle.
He blinked in shock. "oh uh do you need me to get you to your room?" he asked
I shook my head and let out a giggle. "no I'm fine"
He nodded and took off down the hall.