Fauziyyah
" Have you thought about it?" Muhsin's voice pulled me out of my trance. Our meeting just ended and i decided to admire the early morning sky before going back to the office.
"Umm.... I haven't" I replied with a sorry face. I forgot about the guy's confession yesterday. I dare not say that though, it'll hurt his feeling. No doubt about that.
"C'mon Fauziyyah. It's not nice to keep someone hanging you know." He whined pushing his mouth into a pout. Okay just what is wrong with guys of this generation?
"Why don't we get to know each other then?" I suggested.
"Are you for real?" he burst into a fit of laughter, shaking his head at the same time. As if in disbelief.
I watch him laugh his heart out. After a few seconds he cleared his throat and looked up at me.
Mind you I didn't stare at him laugh in awe. It didn't bring any butterflies to my stomach too.
"I practically know everything about you. From your dreams down to your favorite color" He pointed out.
" Well, that's because I told you all that. What if I lied?"
" You wouldn't do that, my lady."
"Besides that's not enough to hold a relationship in place." I added, trying to prove my point.
" We'll get to that. Can we just start dating?"
Is this how a relationship starts? I feel Muhsin is pushing it too fast.
"I'm not sure about that Muhsin. I don't even feel anything for you. Not even admiration." I wasn't backing down.
" You will when we kick it off. Just relax, my love. I'd show you how it's done."
"I don't agree with that. Both parties have to be okay with everything."
"Fauziyyah? I said we'll take it easy okay? I just need to be sure that you're mine."
I've got one word for that. Creepy.
Don't give in
Don't give in
Don't give in
My mind chants the warning to me.
But that little side of me that has never had a boyfriend was itching to say yes.
And it did. It overpowered the reasonable side of me.
"Okay fine! "
"Fine, what? I want to hear you say it." He teased coming closer to me.
"We can start dating." I actually gave in.
"I like that energy, my love" he praised. in a swift motion, he locks his hand with mine.
"Muhsin! No touching, it's haram." I think I screamed because I'm not used to all this.
I can count the number of times a guy touched me. Always by accident. This may sound like a lie but it's nothing but the truth.
"Alright malama, as you wish." the malama felt like a mockery but i brushed it away.
We walked side by side to the office as i listen to muhsin list the number of places we can visit for our first date.
We launched a new app today and because of that, I returned home quite late.
The clock in Muhsin's car said 6pm when we were a few seconds to my uncle's house. I waved him bye when we arrived and hummed in reply when he said he would call me later at night.
I don't feel excited or anything. In the books I've read, the girls are usually excited for things like this.
It's high time I stopped comparing my life to another person's imaginations.
I greeted the occupants of the house and proceeded to my room. I noticed Ilham tailing me and concluded that all wasn't well.
"Ya akayi( What's up?) " I enquired immediately she closed the door after her.
"Who dropped you off?" She bared her teeth patiently waiting for me to confirm her thoughts and then she'll laugh an evil laugh.
I hissed long and hard eying her playfully. I hanged the handbag i decided to use today on my dressing mirror chair before facing her, hands akimbo.
"My boyfriend"
And there goes the creepy, evil sound she calls laughter.
"Hmmm hmmmm. Su fauziyyah anyi goshi" She kept repeating that for God knows how long.
"So what is your boyfriend like?" she made sure to emphasize the word boyfriend.
"I don't know, it's our first day. " I replied in a durhh tone
"But you still know something about him right?"
"Well, he's nice."
"Is he rich?"
The witch!
I chuckled at that and replied with " I don't know."
"Omo this girl I never knew you were this dumb " she attacked.
I sat down beside her on the bed and narrated how it happened to her. I also told her how he always drops me off.
"Okay, I pray you made the right choice."
She later attempted to plan my wedding but I shoo-ed her away.
After Isha prayer, I said my sleeping azkar and snuggled into my blanket.
My phone vibrated to the long awaited call a few minutes later.
"My love" his voice filled my room because I put in on handsfree.
"Hey."
"How's your night going?"
"Alhamdulillah, just normal."
"Hm, so where are we going for our first date?"
"uhm... I don't know. You choose..."
"Do you want to travel out of the country?"
"Travel out Muhsin? I'm 19 for Allah's sake." I whined
"At what age can you do that with me then?"
"Only when we're married. "
"You're smart " He laughed lightly.
He asked about everyone at home, the secondary school I attended and every other random question one could think of.
We ended the call afterwards and I closed my eyes to sleep. That was boring.
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Kaii Fauziyyah ma is so naive kamð Ko ya kuka gani?
Should we gistð
How did your first relationship go?
Is it still valid abi you don chop breakfast
About how Muhsin pushed Fau to accept, do you think a guy can do that to you?
It's a no for me sha....