I hurl the phone over the fence, as far as I can; it lands somewhere on the edge of the scree at the top of the embankment. I think I can hear it rolling down towards the track. I think I can still hear her voice.
I think I might be hearing her voice for a long time to come.
Heâs at the bottom of the stairs by the time I get back to the house. Heâs watching me, blinking, bleary-eyed, struggling out of sleep.
âWhatâs going on?â
âNothing,â I say, but I can hear the tremor in my voice.
âWhat were you doing outside?â
âI thought I heard someone,â I tell him. âSomething woke me. I couldnât get back to sleep.â
âThe phone rang,â he says, rubbing his eyes.
I clasp my hands together to stop them shaking. âWhat? What phone?â
âThe phone.â Heâs looking at me as though Iâm insane. âThe phone rang. Someone called and hung up.â
âOh. I donât know. I donât know who that was.â
He laughs. âOf course you donât. Are you all right?â He comes across to me and puts his arms around my waist. âYouâre being weird.â He holds me for a bit, his head bowed against my chest. âYou shouldâve woken me if you heard something,â he says. âYou shouldnât be going out there on your own. Thatâs my job.â
âIâm fine,â I say, but I have to clench my jaw to stop my teeth from chattering. He kisses my lips, pushes his tongue into my mouth.
âLetâs go back to bed,â he says.
âI think Iâm going to have a coffee,â I say, trying to pull away from him.
Heâs not letting me go. His arms are tight around me, his hand gripping the back of my neck.
âCome on,â he says. âCome with me. Iâm not taking no for an answer.â