Athena Margaux Palema
(Margaux- Margo)
"Woo go Margaux, we love you!"
"Ahh you're my hero!"
"Slay it girl!"
My fans praised me as I walk through the runway. I always kept a smile on.
I was known for being brave helping depressed patients and helping them go through what they are depressed with.
Everyone sees me as a perfect woman of art, who saved millions of teenagers trying to end their life, a good exemplar to children and a perfect figure to men and women.
But they dont know what I'm going through, every day I try my best to live even though I'm literally dying inside.
I'm sick and tired of this world, the world that i currently live in. I did my best to save others but I can't get myself up with my own feet.
I gave advices, advices that i can't even apply in me, my own self.
But I'll go through all these.
I have a mission and I will succeed.
After my job is done I'll get back to you... my king... my knight...
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"You're crying again aren't you, come on what is it this time?" my friend Renee asked, pulling me into a tight hug.
"I just can't believe it. Just because my mom is a porn star back at her days means I am one also.." my voice cracked.
Renee raised her brows holding my face up, anger evident in her face.
"Wait what!? Did he force you?" she asked angrily.
I sniffed and just nodded as i recall the most disgusting scene in my whole entire life.
I closed my eyes as the scene where Lane pulled me into a kiss flashed into my mind. His kisses were deep and rough as he pushes my in his bedroom wall, i remember deciding to fully give up my pearl to him but he just destroyed it when called his other friend to share me while undressing me.
I fought back as they each hold back my feet and hands touching me in my private parts. Running thier filthy hands all over my body.
Good thing a hired cleaner that comes in everyweek to clean Lane's condo unit rung the doorbell that I had the chance to pull myself up, kick them off and run towards the door.
I hurriedly picked up my handbag on his sofa before opening the door pushing the man inside to slow the men down.
He had been my boyfriend since grade 7 and now I'm in first year College.
All those years I've spent with him was such a good memory I was so loyal to him, I loved him so much yet he's still not contented and took other girls to bed.
I was aware yet I kept silent.
I was really pathetic, acting that I didn't see it even though it grossed me a lot.
I am just eager to be loved.. Why does this have to happen to me?
"Urgh boys and their stupid mindset. Come here let me order you up some drinks or maybe beer or wine. It may help to at least lighten things up." She consoled me, pulling me up.
"Juice would be fine," as much as i want to get wasted I'm sure I'll just meet my mom rough hands on my cheeks when i go home in a druken state.
"Let me check on it," she tapped my shoulders giving me a sweet smile.
"Thanks," I mumbled in between my sobs,
"Oh no problem." She smiled as she walked me to the resto where I work at.
She was one of the owners after all.
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AFTER stress eating, Renee drove me home, to our stinking home that is almost rotten located near the dirty canals cause apparently my German father ditched my mom upon knowing that she was pregnant with me.
I was only able to enter college because I became a scholar while I do some part time jobs in the resto.
I bid Renee goodbye before sighing. I watched her retreating car until it was no longer at sight. I looked up in the starry sky and saw a shooting star pass by.
I wish that i soon will find someone to love me. A person who would be willing to face the world and turn down all his ambitions just to be with me.
I smiled bitterly after i opened my eyes. I love reading books and i am pretty sure men like thos don't exist.
It's already pretty late so I slowly took of my shoes and tiptoed in not wanting to wake my mother up after i closed the door silently without sound.
I don't want to hear her banshee voice barking at me, telling me that I was no use to her, I should stop schooling and better find a decent job to feed both of us in which she meant porn star, and lots more.
As i tiptoed towards my room i heard a moan coming from the kitchen. I immediately took the bottle of an empty rum as i tiptoed again towards the kitchen raising the bottle up reading to smash it to someone's face.
I slowly entered the kitchen and opened the lights when I saw mom kissing another guy and was laying on the table, bleh.
Mom immediately pulled off and greeted me kissing the sides of my cheeks. Very unusual.
I glanced back at the man who looked like in his 40's to 50's beard surrounding his chin and deep dark green eyes.
"Fernando I want you to meet my daughter Margaux," she flipped her hair looking up and down to me.
My mom is a brunette. Her age is 39 but she looks like she's in her 20's. She's 5'8 while i was 5'7.
Even with this, I looked nothing like her. I have blond curly hair, deep blue eyes, and tanned skin.
"Uh hi?" I awkwardly smiled as i place down the bottle of wine that i was holding before sitting on the stool.
"You know she is very intelligent, sad thing her college couldn't keep up with her knowledge," she acted sad wiping if some fake tears in my eyes with a pouty lips.
Yeah right, i couldn't help but to snort into her fake actions. She's not even that convincing, i act better than her.
"If only I have a decent job I may bring her to schools best for her chosen course," she said looking at me i just glanced back at her with a plain look making her grit her teeth, "Right Margoux?" my mom pinched me hard on my back making me nod my head forcedly.
Mr. Fernando looked like he believes my mom and looked down at me with pity.
Pity..
"Oh poor thing." He said at last. "Cassandra why don't you come here darling." Mr. Fernando opened his arms wide for mother who was giggling in excitement.
They looked each other in the eyes speaking through them.
I refuse to be part this. I wanted to shout but i know better that to keep quiet.
After a minute we all went to take a sit at the living room to talk about something I have no clue about.
"Hola Margaux my name Fernando Gibbs," He introduced,
"Me and your mother are quiet dating for a long time now and we decided to Live in.."
Wait what?
"Live in? but I- we barely know you," I protested but mom raised her brows making me shut up.
She faced at Mr. Fernando and hugged his neck, "Oh she's just over reacting, I know she's happy inside she's not pretty showy with her emotions," she said kissing his cheeks.
Ew..
"Anyways Margaux go pack your things now we are moving to your step fathers house," she said full of glee still kissing the man in front of me.
This is disgusting.
"Margaux," my mom repeated with a firmer deep voice and wide eyes still smiling.
I just gave a tight smile and walked towards my room slamming the door as hard as I could.
I jump in my bed before reaching for the the phone. I tried to call my best friend but she didn't pick up. I sighed, she usually picks up right away, what is she doing?
Even against my will I packed up and headed downstairs to meet my mom and step dad who was making out almost naked.
"Oh here she is." Fernando pulled out and smiled widely.
"Oh good heavens that felt like forever," my mom over reactedly said as she is being tickled by Fernando,
"Eherm.." I tried to get their attention.
"Oh sorry, anyways lets go, he said opening the door for her." I rolled my eyes.
I put out all the lights off and closed the doors before going out then padlocked it after.
So much for today.
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"Welcome to my penthouse." Fernando introduced us in making mom squeal.
I already sensed another make out session so before the kissing begin I immediately interrupted,
"Where's my room?"
"Oh honey its right at the bottom left," Fernando said pointing the way smiling while he still is holding mom who has a deadly glare at me.
"Uh thanks.. you can continue uh.. whatever you are doing. Goodnight," I greeted and went down to see my room.
As I entered a peach colored room welcomed me. It's too spacy, but then the room is also empty.
I threw my bag on the corner and let myself fall in the bed. I opened my phone and scanned through my social media sites.
After a minute I started crying again. So thats why...
Lane posted a photo of him and Renee my best friend in the bed both naked under the blanket.
I can't really trust anyone huh?
That night I cried all my heart out. I know Lane has a woman but I never knew that it was Renee.
The only tip i got from the reports of the nosy students at school is the name of the girl Lane is with is Angel, yes i new that but since i was pathetic i just let it slide and didn't bother serching for another proof to prove him guilty.
Then i remembered Renee's full name is Angelica Renee Danvers.
My boyfriend tried to violate me, my best friend cheated on me, my mother hates me and I guess i would have to live with a man who i barely know.
Can my day get any worst?
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