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this video has nothing to do wit the story, I just want to relive this monumental moment in reggae history. And Bob's gutarist played the wrong chord lls. That's why he said, "watch what u doin" When he brought 2 political parties together as one, it showed that we could all live together and become one. sorry, but yall needed to see this

Obviously, there were more less significant events that happened over the summer, let me know if u want me to talk about them, otherwise I'm moving on to my freshman year at Early College High School at Delaware State University.

My freshman year was really weird. Ima just tell u some events.

I didn't really have any friends because

1. I ain't know nobody

2. i couldn't keep friends without getting bored of them

3. I never really had friends anyway so I didn't know how to get them

I was the type of kid who didn't fit into any group. I was cool wit everyone and everyone knew me. Im kinda the type that only has useful people in my life. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not using anyone! Everyone is like money.

They either add or take away from your life. If they not doin nothing- they dead weight! There's no point in  keeping dead weight around.

Yall not dumb! I know that yall know what I mean.

Anyway, I began to hang around a group of people. They were the "popular" people, but I knew I didn't belong in the group. I was only introduced to the group through Shaunyce and Isaiah.  Isaiah and I didn't even know each other that well. only reason we even associated was because he came from my church and he just so happened to be at my school.Some kids from Lake Forest were there too.

Catera (the Dominican girl from the bathroom) I got a good picture. She ain't used to look like that lls

Zaria (a girl who had good grades and turned tf up)

Cameron (a cute lightskin I happened to know) he ain't always look like that tho

Camyron (a dude who had good grades and was funny)

I couldn't relate to a lot of things they were doing like partying and sex. I def wasn't gonna tell my business to a bunch of strangers. i decided to leave the popular group on good terms and found a new group.

The new people I hung out wit were pretty much the burnouts of the school and the other group was the goody goody kids.

The burnouts knew how to turn tf up and the goody goody kids knew how to get they shit done and prepare a future. Im a combination of both groups, so I guess you could say I "fit in".

Even tho they liked my company, I knew that I didn't belong with either group. You know how you could be in a room full of people and still feel lonely? That's me... even today.

Shaunyce noticed that her and I were growing apart. She invited me to go with her and Trinity to the mall for her birthday. It was just Shaunyce's family and 2 close friends. Now, I didn't mention myself wrong. There was another Trinity at the school. She was known as the bad Trinity. She was ugly, mean, and had bad grades. The COMPLETE opposite of me -hence bad Trinity. we gonna call her, "Tamara"

I was the last one to get to her house gathering. It was Tamara, Shaunyce, and her cousins already there. They were finished eating food. I purposely came late because well... i do not fuck wit everyone cookin. Even tho Shaunyce seemed clean and all... I never been to her house. I didn't have a chance to do my inspections of the house to know whether or not she was clean.

When I got there they were waiting for me to see the cake cutting. I felt like I was holding them up, but tbh we had to wait for the main event to arrive. i wore my princess crown and was asked to take it off because it was "Shaunyce's day" You know I didn't give a fuck. Bitch the queen came to your dusty ass "party".

We cut the cake and it was good. Then we opened gifts. Her family got her nice family stuff. Tamara (the bad trinity) gave her some HOMEMADE cupcakes and some clothes from Citi Trends. For yall that don't know Citi Trends is pretty much the cheap DEB in your area. I think they shut down DEB so nvm. Here's the website so u can see what they got:::::                                           https://cititrends.com/

It was finally time for my present. I said, "oops I forgot it at the house!" Shaunyce was so disappointed. Her family wasn't happy either. i was joking, that's what I usually do when I'm bout to flex on a hoe. the look on her face really seemed to say, "wow i invited u and u didn't bring me anything. Wow your presence is not good enough for me, i need stuff from u too."

I said, "sike i got u girl" i reached into my Michael Kors handbag and pulled out an envelope. shaunyce opened the envelope to see a plain ass birthday card. I ain't even sign that bitch bc when I get famous she might try to sell my autograph.

I went to the corner where I had stashed a gift when I came in. tbhh I couldve hid a bomb in they house and they ain't even notice. All them people in that house and ain't nobody watchin they house? tf?!

I ain't wrap the gift cuz I ain't a rapper.

it was one of those prank boxes that say they something real wack, but when u open it, it's a real gift.

Shaunyce face was like "tf" She still opened it tho. Inside was a nice hoodie in her favorite color, red. Tbh that shit looked tuff on her.

I also got a gift card holder for her. The gift card holder was empty. She was kinda surprised. I said, "i didn't think you wanted a one store- exclusive gift card"

Like the baller I kinda am, "I opened my wallet and dealt out $50 in $10 bills.

Her family was sayin things like, "okay!" "u got some good friends"

if I have the nerve to come to someone party wearin the crown and talkin shit, I better be able to back it up.

We went to the basement where we danced and just chilled. We decided to go to the mall. We went and put on some cute clothes in Shaunyce room. I had the worst outfit. I was wearing a addidas jacket and leggings. She gave me some UGG slippers to wear. They was lookin cute wit they crop tops and leggings and jordans. For some reason, I got the niggas tho. Probably cuz I ain't look like a party thot.

We walked around and it was nice to be out wit the girls. Tamara ran into some of her old friends from Dover. One of them named, Pootie (Matthew his real name) was cute. Pootie don't really matter cuz now he done graduated and ain't doin shit wit his life. He work at the WalMart by my house..

In 2014, everyone liked hats. Mainly SnapBacks wit the sticker on em. But the new trend was BUCKETHATS! Every girl knew that to really impress a guy u had to be cute wit a bucket hat that had a sports team on it.

We walked past Lids (its a hat store)

There was a darkskin dreadhead at the front counter. Now, Lids was empty. Lids was mainly the type of store where u walk in and peek around then walk out. People bought hats its just that they was like $30. I ain't broke, i just ain't dumb

We was lookin at this Blue and Yellow GSW bucket hat that we would all get. We was gonna get 3 of them so we could be matchin baddies or wateva. Plus Stephen Curry was a big thing around that time.

If u know me, I almost never pay full price! I went in there to work my charm.

Trinity: wassup?

Dreadhead: ain't shit I get off in like 30 minutes im bored asab! Im finna smoke this shit in here since no one here.

Trinity: oh yeah? U look chopped already dawg. Them eyes sittin a lil low

Dreadhead: shit u caught me. i rolled up a lil on my break

I was sure he had some wit him. Tamara had been asking for it from Pootie. (oh some of my old dance friends was walkin wit some  boys who tried to get me to go to the car wit them to get weed. i know better tho... sorry i ain't include that. it wasn't all that relevant)

Trinity: that's wassup. if i match it wit u how much u tryna give me them buckets for??

Tamara & Shaunyce: come on we gotta go!

They seemed serious so I tried to excuse myself. The dreadhead said, "ayo ma lemme get ya # before u go tho"

I was embarassed to pull out my trash phone. It was a  piece of shit phone that did everything i didnt want it to do

i told him I'd be back. I never came back and i really wasn't going to either. I just wanted the hats.

When I got out, they told me they been calling my phone, but for some reason, I didn't hear it or feel it.

I pulled out my phone to find out it was in a call. to Marsha.. my snitch ass sister. Well I guess she probably hung up since I wasn't otp.

When we got back from the mall my mom was ready to pick me up cuz my momma don't let me spend the night anywhere!

I wanted to spend the night cuz Shaunyce's friend Jerry was gonna take us up to Wilmington (that's Delaware's Philly) to party. U know I don't be turnin up bottles, but I will do backflips off someone couch at a party. u know what i mean. It was a Delaware party which mean "swaggin" (that means like grinding and yikin)

My momma still picked me up bc

1. no teenager gonna drive me around

2. she ain't know shaunyce and them well

3. we had church in the morning

I eventually ended up getting in trouble bc Tia was recording the call to use against me. She told my mom and my mom did that thing where u can tell her what u did even tho she already know. My mom heard I was talkin to this grown man and about the weed. Then there goes my phone!

Without my phone I was out the loop of everything that was happening. Everyone grew apart from me bc if u haven't noticed, most school relations happen outside the classroom and when u see each other in person, u just elaborate on what happened on the phone.

I became an outcast. I got really lonely and I started being bullied. Now, I been bullied a lot before, but it felt a lot different this time. No one had me anymore. Only person I fell back on was one of my followers, George. (I'll get to George in a min)

I didn't even have Shaunyce. After that all settled Shaunyce and i fell off by Thanksgiving break. (her birthday was in September)

I decided to settle down and chill out. My mom ain't let me do nun for a lil bit. She was mad. I decided on becoming a better person. I needed a small group of people. The burnouts were still cool wit me and so were the good-goody kids. It's just that I became disconnected. I sat with them and hated every second of it. I started leaving school (which was really easy) and started leaving dance class for one person. George C.

George was really dope. The first time we went out we went out to eat a Frazier's. Frazier's a good restaurant, a lil pricey but it's good. i told him I didn't want to go out there. i told him I wanted McDonald's. He was surprised, but he took me there. He knew he could fwm cuz I wasn't there for his money.

After McDonald's we went to this one hotel and just chilled. He ain't even try nun! This was the real deal! We literally went swimming -> took a bath -> then watched Amazing World of Gumball. If u wondering how we took a bath, it was a really big suite and had one of those cool bathtubs.

I fell asleep and woke up to kisses. It was really nice. I ain't gonna say too much, cuz he was older than me and I don't need him to get in trouble. Let's just finish off wit "he had a beard" that's all u need to know llssss.

George and I don't really have the best relationship anymore. He blocked me on Twitter. Every now and then he come down to DE and we meet up. I ain't seen him since December 2016.

George lived in Middletown which is like 45 minutes away from me, but then he got kicked out. He wasn't allowed to use another person in his house's credit card to get a hotel. he had a job, but he wasn't old enough to get a room. He paid that person back, but it was a couple things that got him thrown out the house. he had no where to go so he moved in with his friend in VA. She was bi, don't think I wanted her. i ain't trust her cuz George looked good and he made me wanna fuck wit niggas. I knew he would change her. He asked if he could come wit me, but I was 14 and the age difference posed too many questions. Like i said, my momma was strict! I wasn't even gonna ask!

George and I are pretty much separated. i do my thing, he do his. He don't like what i do and i don't like what he do, but i gotta let him do his thing. We can't be together forever. He was mad about the fact I was still holdin onto Devon when George did more for me than Devon. it's complicated.

This where me and George at now

I eventually got caught up on some dumb shit. In 2014, around Christmas time, I had finals going on. I got home from school early and of course i watched that's so Raven on my nook Tablet. One day, Marsha, decided to watch it wit me in my bed. I didn't mind. We finally were starting to get along. I fell asleep and woke up to, "TRINITY"

She saw all my messages and pictures and shit and all our business. When i say, "business" i mean "money business"

George went to a white school and a big thing for them was school work and good grades. These kids also loved drugs. George distributed drugs like, coke and adderrall. These were the white kids' vices. I did my part. I ain't gonna say what I did, but I was riding for my man. Shit I couldn't get a job at 14. I ain't do it for a long time tho. One day when I left the studio, I had to do what I had to do.

I was standing on the corner wit the neighborhood dealer, Latiff. He hung around New street at 7/11. New Street was the hood of Dover. Latiff and I were cool. He laid down the ground rules letting me know this was his hood and not to run my mouth and don't say shit, don't see shit. He taught me one of the most important things in my life: "head down, ears open. The dumbest people were talking when they should've been listening"

The original plan was for me to give a bag of sum to a dude. I needed to get $250 from him in exchange. Latiff saw it in my body language I was doin something I shouldn't have been doin so he called me to stand next to him and he was gonna watch out for me. The cops came by and they already been watchin out for Latiff bc they heard about him. They ain't never seen him do nun but they was sus. I don't even know what happened. The guy obivously looked like he did what I was selling. I was prepared to make the exchange. That's when the cops moved in. That crackhead set me up. Luckily, Latiff was next to me. The crackhead wasn't going to buy what I was supposed to give him. The cops set it all up. When the cops saw Latiff approach him, the cops turned into NFL players. The 2 of them tackled Latiff to the ground and searched him. As far as I know, I did not see a warrant!

I yelled for them to stop. The cops pulled out a dub of weed and 2 bowls from Latiff's pockets. I didn't know he had that on him. I didn't know what to do. I looked as calm as I could and fled the scene this way I didn't look like an accomplice.

A couple nights later, I saw Latiff on the news with many drug charges. I know that he didn't have all these drugs on him when he got arrested. I wanted to testify, but I was told that I needed to stay in my place. George said it wasn't my problem. He never put me back out to sell anything.

ANyway after being all caught up I decided to just get a school friend and get out the drug life. Well the drug dealing life.

i was still trying to find myself and i wanted at least one "friend" to be on the journey with me. Everyone I tried all had someone else. We all know that 3's a crowd. One girl in particular didn't have anyone else. She seemed cool.  Her name was Jessica. If I had known what I know today I would've left that bitch in the past! FUCK JESSICA