How I handled Jessica

yall lucky. Tuesday my off day, but I like yall. Since I left yall empty during the weekend, I decided to come back today. here it goes: bttwwwwww: if u want me to elaborate on sum let me know. also show love and errythingg

if i said 2014 at this point im sorry its the school year of 2014-2015 sooo that's where i got caught up.

This Jessica

When I finally saw her on Monday, she had the nerve to ask why I was wit Devon.

Trinity: we still kinda together. why does it matter to u

Jessica: it doesn't I just wanted to know... soooo what did yall do

Trinity: if u don't care y u asking

Jessica: u being dramatic all I did was ask a question! but whatever!

Trinity: rd bet.

Jessica: soooo did he say anything about me???

Trinity: what was there to say? yall ain't talk since u promised u wouldn't and that was like a month ago

Jessica: true buttttt we still friends I think

Trinity: what makes u think that if u ain't talk to him in like a month

Jessica: well we didn't end on a bad note. its just like how u 2 were. yall stopped talkin but yall was still cool

Trinity: No! you're not how me and Devon are. Devon and I dated. you and Devon texted. u ain't even know his name

Jessica: y u getting all mad for?!

Trinity:  BECAUSE U KNEW   HOW I FELT! BUT YET YOU STILL-

I stopped myself. I knew if I kept going I would've hit her. If she tried to hit me back, we would've had a whole problem on our hands. I was so hurt. I never felt this pain before.

Trinity: u know what? its cool. like u said, yall stopped talkin anyway and u my friend so u wouldn't do nun like that.

Jessica: right. U know we like sisters, girl

Trinity: mmmhm

She really thought I was a hill billy asshole. lls I cant wit her!!!

I meaaannnnn I know she couldn't resist Devon sexy self. Shitttt I couldn't either. that's why I cuffed that nigga ahaaa

I decided to just play it cool. We was friends.

"There's an old saying in Tennessee — I know it's in Texas, probably in Tennessee — that says, fool me once, shame on — shame on you. Fool me — you can't get fooled again."

I was no longer there for her. I was only physically there because I wanted revenge. I knew my ways in and out of her. I had to one up her. I worked from the inside out. I don't call myself a manipulator, I am an outcome engineer.

I wanted her to know that I knew, but I ain't wanna say it directly.

Trinity: u seen that BET movie about those 2 friends and the girl was in love and her supposed to be "best friend" went and was tryna fuck around wit her man?

Jessica: nah what's it called

Trinity: (I mumbled under my breath) you.

Jessica: huh

Trinity: idk. I forgot. but what would u do if that happened to u??

Jessica: I would fuck both them up! no words just start swingin on errybody. wait Did the girl know that her friend was wit him

Trinity: she knew damn well!

Jessica: oh yeah I'm fuckin shit up!

Trinity: mmhm and the worst thing is that the girl was still all up in her face!!

Jessica: ah uh! that's so fake! I hate when girls do that!

Trinity: has this happened to u?

Jessica: nah I just hear about it tho

Trinity: oh so u agree that the girl who had him should fuck her "best friend" up?

Jessica: hell yeah!

Trinity: (mumbling under my breath) im glad u do

This conversation basically let me know that she was giving me permission to do what I wanted. Im just really pissed bc I basically explained our situation right to her face.

The year went on and I still had her on the side. We only sat near each other at lunch where she always tried to get my celery sticks wit her rabbit ass! I almost cut that hoe for tryna take my celery sticks off my plate. Well I wasn't gonna do much cutting with the school's plastic knife.

I started hanging out wit everyone else and it was good.

One person that I started talkin to was Isaiah. He was like a big brother to me. Isaiah and me was cool cuz of church and we literally saw each other everyday. Sunday was church. The school week was Monday-Friday. Saturday was usually more church.

That's Isaiah

My parents liked him too so u know we was always together. I told everyone we was cousins so that they ain't start them rumors and shit. He wasn't wit it tho. Everyone knew he liked me cuz he told everyone. One day he decided he was gonna ask me out in front of everyone at lunch. I knew what was happening, but I decided to hide. I didn't want all that pressure and I knew I wouldn't treat him right. his family and I were cool and I didn't want my asshole actions to affect the relationship of me and his family.

On May 8, 2015 the day before my field trip to Six flags America, I went to my favorite place -HELL. lls snsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsssnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnssnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsnsn

I went to WalMart. I was lookin at ice cream when I saw a dude that looked like devon. I was hype. I decided to walk past again. He turned around and caught me lookin at him. I did that awkward turn away thing u do when someone catch u lookin at them. I turned back around when he said, "trinity I already saw u"

I knew that voice! I looked back over and saw it was Devon. I came up and was about to speak when he picked me up and hugged me. Of course, my dad came over and said, "who are u" I tried to introduce Devon, but my dad said, "I asked the boy"

Trinity: his name is-

Devon: hi sir, My name is Devon. Trinity and I went to school back in middle school. We were catching up sir. (he tried to shake my dad's hand)

my dad: well it stops right here (my dad pushed his hand away)

Devon: yes sir

After that day, I forgot all about Isaiah.

The next day, we went to Six Flags. Tbbhhh whenever we go somewhere, I gotta show out. if im not the best lookin one, I ain't shit!

in my group was me, Jamilah, Jessica, and another girl I can't remember. Our chaperone was someone cousin and she was only 23.

I wore my white romper with cool cutouts (not provocative, it was a design-type cutout) and my camo bucket hat cuz that's what was in back in 2014. I was lookin like the bees knees omm!!!!!! I wasn't pullin no niggas tho......well Isaiah was all in my face, but I was like nahhh. We was waitin in line and he kept on tryna hug all on me like it wasn't 7x70 degrees out there. I kept pushin him away but that nigga was crazy bout me.

Anyway, my thing was, "why ain't I pullin nobody??? I gotta have a story to tell. I gotta top OC boardwalk with Cherry and Vanilla" Maybe I wasn't pullin nobody cuz the people I was walkin wit wasn't lookin right. They wasn't ugly, they was just lookin like t shirt and capris. I had to leave the group!

When I finally left the group, it wasn't even 5 minutes before I had niggas in line.

It was almost time to go and I saw my friend, Shameek, playin one of those games u gotta shoot hoops for to get a stuffed animal. At the time, I was cool wit his gf, Jalissa aka NaNa. I was tryna help him pick out something for her that I knew she'd like. When we was done, I was bout to walk away and I had tripped over my feet and I head a guy say, "excuse me"

I turned around and was like, "oh my fault I ain't mean to-"

He said, "nah u good. My friends and I thought u was cute and we wanted to get to know u."

I knew that basic bs line, "my friends" "get to know u" I was already hip to that shit. So I just said, "ok annndd"

He introduced himself, but that was 2014 and I forgot his name. We gonna say his name was Andrew.

Andrew: My name is Andrew. This is"

Tbh I wasn't worried about who his friends was. They had me lookin like a thot. IT was 13 of them niggas and 1 of me. Tbhhh they all looked fine. Imeaaaannn we was in PG Murrland soooo the niggas look good and know how to act. (for those that don't know what PG Murrland is, it means Prince George's County, Maryland) Erryone know the best lookin niggas live in PG county, Charles county, and Anne Arundel county. The Maryland people who live on "the shore" are all ugly and of course I live right here near the shore. I gotta travel to see the real attractions.

They asked me to get on rides wit them but I had to leave soon to go back to DE.

Andrew: they not gonna leave without u. u might as well come. Imeaaann if im ugly u can say so and we'll leave u alone.

He got to me. Fuck it! Let's go!

We got on a rollercoaster and I was scared af! I do not do rollercoasters. I sat wit one of his friends. He did that shit where the nigga hold the girl, but it was still cool.

Next, we got on a kiddie ride (my choice) It was a kiddie ride and I sat wit Andrew. The ride was nice and breezy and was easy going. I got to talk about myself and we all know I love doin that! His friends had me weak they was really jaunin on each other. (roasting for yall on east and west coast) (making fun of for you older folk).  i put the pic of the ride we was on. The rollercoaste is in the background. look how big that shit is!

I really had to go now. We was supposed to leave at 5:30 and it was 5:20. We got on the ride again since there was no line. As our cart came around, I see what looks like Jessica and the rest of my group. I disregarded it. We decided to go around again. Fuck the time. I was finally having fun! Before the 3rd time start we was waiting for these little kids to get on the ride. The token dreadhead of the group says, "yo trinity your friends callin u" I ain't know what he meant when he said friends. I was lookin dumb in the face cuz I ain't really have any of those friends he talks of. Jessica finally gets my attention. I act like I ain't know how to get out. One of Andrew's friends tells the lady she can start the ride. I look at Jessica and act helpless like I ain't know what time it was and I couldn't get off the ride. We finally get off and the gentlemen decided to walk me back to the bus. Andrew introduced himself to the chaperone who was snappin at me for being late and making her look bad. Tbhhh I was wrong for not letting them know where I was.

Andrew: hi ma'am. MY name is Andrew. Im a good kid I promise. We were just intrigued by Trinity's amazing personality.

Chaperone: cut the bs I ain't her mom.

Andrew: Im Jewish! I wasn't gonna let nothing happen to her. Especially not wit me and my squad. (squad was the word back then)

Me and everyone else start baggin up

Trinity: you're jewish?

Andrew: yeah like frfr. I wear the little hats too. Just not today tho

Trinity: ohhh that's... cool.

His friends all supported his claim with agreeing nods and yeahs.

One of his friends started jaunin him, "only black jew I know is Drake u must be an imposter"

whole t, Jessica literally tweakin like shit tryna pull me away and all. this bitch was literally pullin me wit her Green Giant Hercules self! she is the definition of cockblockin!!! The whole squad was mad. I wanted to tape her down to a rollercoaster track and let them do they thing

Eventually we end up at the main gates of park. I tell that not all of them can walk wit me. I had chosen Andrew, the dreadhead, and they bought 2 friends. Lowkey, Im lookin kinda thotish.

Even tho we was like 20 minutes late, the whole school (which was only 1 grade cuz that's all we had) was there. On the bench before I saw the whole school was Isaiah and his best friends, John and Aaron Miles. Next thing I know, they gone. I felt so remorse when I saw Isaiah's face. He saw me wit them other guys and knew he really couldn't compete. I really only wanted to be friends with Isaiah. I knew he was done fuckin wit me for sure at this point.

We finally reach the actual gate area and every boy in the whole 9th grade (the ones that was in the popular scene) was standin up wit they pants pulled up, hands in fists, and arms folded. It was like 14 of them just squad up! They faces and body stances said they was ready to fight. I told my new Murrland friends goodbye, but u know guys got that testosterone shit goin on where they see a challenge and wanna fight. I ain't want a fight cuz the Murrland people was 16-18 compared to out 13-15 year old freshmen. The Murrland people was tall and the main thing is that they from murrland! There was no competition ass would have been handed out. PAUSE! Not like that! I told the high school guys that they was not for me they was for Jessica. They knew that was bullshit! Ain't nobody rockin wit Jessica ugly ass! The Murrland gentlemen said, "do we have a problem"

Isaiah: nah. Yall know her? He said while gesturing toward me

Andrew: yeah we just met? Why that ya girl?

Isaiah: I don't think so

Andrew: how u don't know if that's ya girl or not

Isaiah: she be playin

Andrew leaned into Isaiah and said, "bro u better tap that ass let her know wassup"

Isaiah pushed him, but not enough to start a fight and said, "don't disrespect her like that she been through a lot"

Andrew: u one of those pussy niggas I see. That's why she ain't fuckkin wit u

Andrew patted his shoulder twice and him and his friends left.

I came back up and tried to explain my case to Isaiah, but he wasn't having it. He just publicly dubbed me but I kinda deserved it.

We got back on the coach busses and recapped evrything that happened. Everyone was askin me questions and shit I felt like I was giving a press conference.

I looked back and saw that while everyone was all happy and laughin about the situation, isaiah was lookin sad out the window. When everything settled down, I went to him and tried to talk but he really wasn't fuckin wit me. The only thing he said was, "promise me u won't talk to them. They really not for u. im serious Trinity. I care about u and they only tryna smash"

I ain't listen. I heard him tho.

Soon as I got home, I was talkin to them. (don't be tryna take his info yo! that's not cool!) if u do, don't say u got it from me! My name is Trin and that's on him!

btw now that i discovered the Twitter screenshots, I just seen they names. Morino and Maurice and someone was named Niko. But i ain't gonna go back and fix it

if i said 2014 at this point im sorry its the school year of 2014-2015 sooo that's where i got caught up.

sorry for the short update. ima come back tomorrow about summer bridge 2015 and summer time. I don't wanna bore yall about all these boring events. If u want me to elaborate let me know. Right now im just talkin bout the ones that are coming up