i just want to apologize right now because I haven't been updating in so long! I really am sorry! I'm a student who's been trying to keep my grades up. I haven't been able to manage my time with school, social life, CHURCH, and the book!
Im kinda high so this stuff might not sound right but I wanna tell you what just happened a couple hours ago. 1st I wanna give a quick update about the proceeding chapters of the book. I will only give stories that are significant to my life. these will be most important and most interesting. The middle school stuff is the reason for a lot of today's stuff. The cruise stuff is just fluff in the story. its true just not important . currently I am grounded and I'm about to tell you now....
Back in my freshman year, I was really a bad kid. Almost a thot.. idk if we discussed my high school years much but ima give u a quick debriefing
My freshman year was weird bc I didn't know anyone. I came from Lake forest and everyone else from the school came from up top, Smyrna, or Dover. 5 of us were from Lake and I barely even fw them when I was at Lake. Eventually, I started being cool wit them out of poor selection. The school was new and had only about 120 kids. People were leaving and that brought the population down even more!
I am not the type of person that can be without friends . Im srry i just can't do it. Ive been left alone so many times and i don't want it to happen again, that's why i try to keep folks around me.
So when I wasn't messing wit George, I would be wit Devon. Now Devon was mad at me because he wanted to go out and I was wit George one day and George pulled up to Devon's house and wanted to fight him for talkin to me. the whole situation was bad. Eventually George became possessive, I had to stop fw him. So i was just enjoying being without a nigga.
i started focusing on my work again and the devil aint wanna see me winning he threw a nigga my way. His name was Deandre.
For a spring project, we had to do a big end of year project. I remember it very precisely. Now as I explained to yall earlier, I was smokin so this story ain't put together that well.
Me, Deandre, a thot named Callie, and a smart goody-2-shoes girl named Willow was in my group. I think Willow was in my group.... idk tbh i just know that it was a 4-person group. The people don't really matter. Just know that me and deandre had to spend time together a lot for this school project.
Our project was on the Norovirus. That didn't really matter. Just know that we don't know what we were doing and we all aint wanna do it. Science says that people who hate the same things are more likely to get along. keep that in mind as the story unfolds...
Callie was that one friend in the group (well she wasn't our friend. she was just that person in the group). she wanted to play matchmaker with me and Deandre. Out of awkwardness, me and denadre were like nahhh. and that's what we bonded over. We just started to click. it def wasn't his looks, it was all his personality. if u havent found out by now, im attracted to personalities as opposed to appearances. yes you hoes, I like girls too. (I'm talkin to a dyke right now if u wondering) Just because I like everyone don't mean that i like u tho. Don't get it twisted. the fact that i like everyone means that everyone is in danger!
Anyway, Deandre and i start talkin about sports, school, etc. Back in 2014, I loved to party. not a lot of drugs at this time, just dance and at the time we yiked and twerked and swagged and grinded. Sooooo yeah that's what i was into...
Deandre and i would flirt by downing each others talents to swag. eventually he said prove it. Now everyone of any gender knows that prove it is either fighting words or sex words.
Like i said =, our school was small af and we had a lot of freetime. one day I took him up on that offer. when he said prove it, I said "u can't handle this"
Deandre; nah u can't handle this ima break yo back
Trinity: *stands up and gets in his face* rd when i throw it back u gonna need assistance to catch it
Deandre: oh its like that? say no more
Deandre swiftly pulled me closer to his face and looked me into my eyes
This was like one of them dramatic movie scenes. He pulled my chin up as if he were going to kiss me, but I just said u hear that
There was nothing but that's not the kind of relationship we had. I coouldn't let it get to that
He flipped the script and said "yeah get down"
When he said get down he wasn't talkin bout the kind of get down wher u hide, he was talkin bout the get down where u bend that ass over and assume the position!
he start off slow and do some simple shit. I said "bro that shit lame"
Out of no where he grabbed my torso and started doggin my shit. I felt the thrust of his dick radiate through the rest of my body. Sex with him must be amazing!
sorry. S/O to Rihanna!!! Bajan queens stay winning!!!
forreal this time, the door cracked and opened. London saw us and u know how guys do. they gotta boost they boy and tell everyone. So it ain't look bad. Me and Deandre agreed to the story in a comedic way. WE was both just like "yeah, we was really goin in, we was in the club, he was throwing dollar bills" this way we told the truth its just that it seemed like we was lyinng. idk but i know u know what i mean. DAMN got me explaining myself. u know my brain don't work i do too many drugs! don't judge me. shit's hard so FUCK u.
We stop talkin when Isaiah try to come in the mix. We def stopped talkin after six flags. I think i told yall about that. if i ain't lemme know and i;ll give the scoop.
So sophomore year go by and we wasn't really cool. This why:
A new student, William, came to our school. I'm not using his name cuz i found out the people who read my story. some of them got mouths that are like old refrigerators. Can't keep they shit shut.
I didn't know William, but he came from Dover. Everyone else knew him. I wanted to get to know him. At a basketball game over the summer, I stepped on a boy's shoes. Now in the black community, stepping on the shoes of another person (boy/girl) is the equivalent to spitting in their face! I quickly apologized and bent down to wipe it off. When I came back up, our eyes met and he said "u good"
I saw how cute he was and started rambling. He touched my arm and said, "really, you're good"
That was that.
A couple months later, I see him at our school's orientation. I walk in late as usual. He wouldn't stop staring at me. Even after we do that awkward eye contact thing where once you're caught, you're supposed to look away! I wanted to know that kid's deal!
Of course my mom made me sit next to him! He ain't speak, he just kept staring at me. I was starting to think this boy was either dumb or high.
A couple days later, I get on the school bus for my first day of school and look who's there! I was going to sit by him, but that shit's weird. I was eventually put in Anatomy & physiology with him. He was always looking at me in class which caused me to get upset and disrupt class asking why he was looking at me. The teacher would bring attention to it also. Now the whole class knows. I had no friends in the class and it was all really awkward for me. He had his clan of niggas: Deandre, adeola, and someone else I think.
Everyone knew we had something for each other. Everytime the teacher turned around, our chairs were close together, I was sitting in the chair with him, vice versa, I was on his lap, our arms were linked. Basically, what im saying is that we were always together. Everyone took note of this. Even Deandre!
On multiple occasions, William would entertain me. We not gonna go into details.... Just know that he was from Atlanta and he had this type of finesse to him...
I remember one day in particular.... Our teacher was out on doctor's appointment so we had a sub. I can't say the real word bc its hard but u know what I mean. If not u dumb and fuck u and ya mom!!
Our sub was the lady that rings up our lunch bc our school is disorganized and it really didn't matter what happened with our education! I remember it was a cold winter day bc I had my michael Kors down jacket. I took it off bc I was inside anyway, and I wanted to be kept warm by something/someone else. Since the teacher wasn't there, we REALLY ain't know how to act. William told me to come over there real quick. I knew it wasn't gonna be real quick bc I wasn't gonna let that happen. I loved his vibes tbh.
The sub wasn't really paying attention so anything was bound to happen. I sat down wit William, Adolea, and Deandre. William pulled my chair closer to him and pulled me onto his lap. There was no conversation. William and I never really talked much anyway. We had those awkward conversations where movement and actions were words. IT was like a silent movie or a twilight film..
I was honestly tryna get my work done bc the teacher said I wouldn't bc William was there. And me and William were inseparable. William started to bounce me on his lap. I wasn't down for all that esp bc we was in public.
I pulled away and sat back in my chair doing my work. I told him I had an attitude and he was disrespectful. His friends and him had a little pow wow and then William told them to go away. They went away and came back eventually after like 2 minutes. William apologized but I wasn't happy. Once I get an attitude, Im in it. I stay in my duffle. But this nigga like I said was from Atlanta. He had that ATL finesse.
He put his hand on my arm the same way he did at the basketball game and I looked at him in his eyes and my whole mood changed. Fuck, he done put the moves on me! How'd I fall for this shit??
I said " don't touch me" He said, "ard I don't wanna make u wet like u always get when I do this" I said "do what"
He suddenly put his hand on the inside of my thigh. And I closed my legs. He said, "u acting like u don't know this mine"
Trinity: boy u ain't claim it so bye
William: how bout whatever I touch is mine
Trinity: we not doin this here
He takes my Michael Kors down jacket and puts it in my lap. He pushes my legs apart wit his hands. He starts rubbin the cat and I said: "boy this shit's wack" it really wasn't I just wanted him to do more tbh
He puts his hand inside my leggings and handles his business. That's enough said!
The sub said she forgot to take attendance and suddenly starts reading off names. I guess we was too involved and ain't hear her say anything. She said his name "William" (fake name for the story) and he was shook. He thought he got caught. He pulls his hand out and his fingers look like he just washed his hands. Adeola and Deandre start laughing. Deandre was just laughing cuz Adeola was but Deandre was mad tbh.
The sub says "William what's on your hand" he licks his fingers and says "I was eating."
I started baggin up. The teacher says, "really cuz I been watching u and u WERE NOT eating"
The sub calls both of us up to the desk and she says, "I want to see your work I think you two are over there fooling around"
I really aint have no work done and he aint have shit done. He was too busy puttin work in on me!
The sub continues saying, "I saw his hand was in your lap and that's very inappropriate for school and for him to pull his hand out of your lap appearing to be moist as if he was doing something"
We both tried to play the innocent role and act like we aint have a clue!
As we walked back to the desk to take someone else work, the fire alarm went off.
We both hurried to go out the door before the sub saw us and stopped us. We was on the Olympic track team the way we ran. Our knees were to our chest. We did that Fred Flinstone run omm!!
We got outside the door into the crowd and turned around and went back into the school. He pulled me into an area I never been before. William had a way with me no one else did. Not even George!
William pushed me against a wall and started kissing me. He slid my leggings down some and started to finger me again like he was doing earlier. He started to kiss on my neck and I lost it. I was all his at that moment. He could do anything he wanted to do. He had me in full control omm!
He went down. And it went down! He went back to fingering me some more and then he put his fingers in my mouth. Idky but when they do that freaky shit, I can't contain myself. His fingers tasted like bubblegum and powder based pills. U know when u dry swallow pills and u get the taste rubbed off on your tongue? That's what powder based pills taste like. Now, this makes sense because all I used to eat was bubblegum and pills. I would pop xanax and vicodin like it was no body business.
He came up and just started kissing me again. He started kissing my chest and slipped out a "damn, I think I love you" I knew what he said but I still said, "what u say"
I told him we had to go bc the rest of the school would be coming back soon. We headed to the bathrooms and came out when the rest of the student body came back into the building this way we looked like we blended right in. To this day no one knows that William and I have this type of relationship.
William and I get back to the classroom and by now the sub forgets about the fact that she asked for our work.
Everything goes back to normal. Me, William, Adeola, and Deandre all sitting there just goofin off and William has his hand in my leggings doing what he do best. William is terrible as a person, but he's cool for everything else... if u know what I meann..
We talkin just about video games and irrelevant shit when out of nowhere Deandre catch a whole attitude. HE start ranting about how I'm wrong for letting William do that shit he was doing, but last I checked, he was tryna do that too so I don't wanna hear it.
Privately, Deandre tells me that I deserve better and William only wanna get in my pants and how he's a wasteman. I know it's the truth but I aint wanna hear it!
I don't gotta say It, you already know William WAS a wasteman. He really wasn't worth anything, but the memories were great. I cussed deandre out from here to new mexico. I hate being told about myself, but who likes it tbh?