There was no way in hell I was going to watch her walk away from us a second time. The pit in the bottom of my stomach clenched tight, walling in the darkness growing like an electromagnetic fog there. Like fucking poison.
âRook?â Grey asked cautiously, sensing the presence of the monster within.
I turned to meet his stare and shook my head.
No.
I wasnât going to let her go. How could he? How could Corvus?
A muscle twitched above my lip, and I clenched my teeth, shouldering past Diesel.
âSon,â he called after me, but I was done listening. My brothers liked to joke that whatever internal meter that read what was wrong and right in my head was broken, but they were wrong. Maybe it was their meters that were broken, because letting her leave felt like the most thing on the fucking planet.
Sure, she was talking to a cop. Or at least, sheâd thought she was, but she didnât tell him anything. And I knew that she never wouldâve. No matter what. Didnât they know that, too?
Wasnât it us who backed her into the fucking corner?
This wasnât something she wanted to do. It was something she felt like she had to do. Probably because of what happened to her father.
It didnât mean I wasnât angry with her, of course I was, but I was willing to bet she was ten times more pissed at us.
I rounded the corner of the old pier warehouse and followed her. She was already a solid fifty paces ahead of me, but by the slight tensing of her shoulders, I knew she was fully aware someone was following her.
In fact, I was willing to bet she already pegged it was me.
Just like I could peg any singular sound at the Crowâs Nest as either her or not her. The soft sure sound of her stealth silent footfalls. The way she opened cupboards, whip-quick like she expected to find a monster behind the panes of wood. Her soft sighing sounds in the shower, like sheâd never had a proper one before in her life.
Ava Jade paused by where the Rover was parked looking out over the lake, but then continued, leaving it there. Her hands clenched at her sides as she started up the road, but she forced them to unclench, splaying her fingers wide. Forcing herself not to give in to what she was feeling inside.
I knew what that was like. Better than anyone.
âGhost,â I called to her, but she didnât stop, forcing me to hustle to catch up with her. She didnât bother acknowledging me when I slowed to walk alongside her, pushing my dark hair away from my face.
Her face, usually so composed, betrayed a raging hurricane of pent up emotions. Pinched, her eyes hard and jaw muscles working.
I opened my mouth to begin, but something made me pause.
She wasnât ready.
I swallowed deep and turned my attention back to the winding side road ahead, keeping pace with her. I didnât say anything, we just walked like that for a time. She didnât tell me to fuck off, and I was taking that as a good sign, it kept me going.
That and the intermittent glint of sunlight on the black diamond bobbing against her clavicle. She hadnât taken it off.
The dead thing in my chest squeezed, almost painful. The best kind of pain.
âI shouldâve left Thorn Valley when I had the chance.â
Her voice sent a shudder racing down my spine. So hopeless. I never wanted to hear it sound like that again. âYou donât really believe that, do you?â
âWas it really all bullshit?â she asked in a low voice, ignoring my question, biting her lower lip as she stared at the ground disappearing beneath our feet. âWas any of it real?â
âHey.â I pulled her to a stop, and she let me, her cut glass eyes finding mine for only a fraction of a second before she looked away, disgust twisting her mouth. âI could ask you the same fucking thing. Talking to a copâ¦?â
âHe wasnât even a fucking cop,â she spat back.
âBut you thought he was, didnât you?â
She growled, tugging away from me but staying stationary. She wanted to have this out just as badly as I did, even if she wouldnât admit it.
âI donât get it. I looked him up. Found his address. Heâs listed and everything. Heâs on the forceââ
âAll a trick,â I interrupted her. âDies has done this before. He went by Vick, right?â
Her lips pressed tight.
âItâs how heâs always smoked out rats. There an Officer Vick who works for Thorn Valley PD. How else could the ruse hold up. All it would take is one call to the station or one online search to find out the name was bogus. The real Vick doesnât use social media. Heâs a total fucking recluse. Barely leaves his big house aside from taking his kid to the park down the street. No photos of him online.â
âThe perfect identity.â
I nodded.
Her face darkened, and I could see how deeply this had all cut her. Ghost was someone who didnât trust easily. Fuck, probably didnât trust . But sheâd trusted Becca and her friend had betrayed that trust. Lied to her. Plotted against herâ¦whether she went through with it or not.
And Vick, he wasnât even a real cop. Damn, I applauded Dies for implanting him so quickly. I had to wonder whose eyes noticed we were getting close to Ava Jade and told him. One of the pledges trying to earn brownie points? The fucking night security guy, Mick? It couldâve been anyone.
But worst of all was the hurt weâd caused. I could see it in the way she wouldnât hold my stare.
In her own way, she begun to trust us, and when we didnât come to her defense against our father. When we didnât defend Becca and reassure her. When we let her fucking goâ¦
We never should have let her go.
âDid you know about Vick?â
âHmm?â
âDid you know?â she pressed, and I came back to her from the dark place my mind had wandered.
âNo.â
She looked doubtful.
âWe didnât know until about four hours ago when Diesel told us and led us here to listen in during your meeting.â
She waited. Wanting more.
âHe was hoping you were going to give us up.â
âSo that you would kill me yourselves?â
I didnât respond. I didnât want to say it, and frankly, I didnât need to. She already knew the answer. She didnât ask the most important question thoughâ¦
Would we have done it?
I didnât want to answer that either.
âWhatâs going to happen to Becca?â she asked instead of the questions we both knew the answers to, and at least this one, I could speak to.
I inclined my head. âDiesel wonât hurt her.â
â
.â She shook her head.
âHe wonât, Iâll make sure of it personally.â
âBut?â she pressed, not fully satisfied with my response, knowing there was a catch.
I wouldnât sugar coat it for her. âSheâll need to answer some questions. As long as she cooperates, nothing will happen to her. She can stay here.â
Though something told me Becca Hart was already long gone. Ava Jade would have seen to that.
She nodded, and even though I could see she didnât believe me, maybe didnât trust me, she wasnât going to push it. Cementing my suspicions about Becca already being gone. Maybe that was for the best.
âIt wasnât all lies,â I added after a minute, answering her question from before. âIt was all real between us. But you already knew that. I get that itâs easier to think we were all out to get you from the start.â
That struck a nerve, she flinched, and my stomach soured in response.
Yes.
I knew what that was like, too.
Not being able to accept that there were people out there who cared about you.
. Searching for hidden meaning in every word they spoke, in every gesture. Trying to untangle imaginary lies from truths. Looking for ulterior motives .
âI know what youâre thinking,â I continued and this time she looked at me, searching my eyes to see if I was right. âYouâre going to leave.â
The truth was clear in her eyes as she held me there, captive in her burning stare.
âYouâre going to disappear. Tell me Iâm wrong.â
She couldnât.
I let out a heavy breath. âDonât.â
âWhy shouldnât I?â
âDiesâ¦he shouldnât have done what he did with Becca, but even you have to understand the reason whââ
âI do!â she countered, her shoulders rising like a cat getting its back up. âI do fucking understand and thatâs the problem. I want to hate you. Them.
She paced back three steps before returning, her chest heaving. âBut I canât. I canât, and itâs fucking absurd.â
I shrugged. âThen donât.â
She laughed darkly, shaking her head at the ground.
âWe need you, Ghost. I need you. Tell me youâll consider staying. Please.â
Ava Jade stiffened, her head snapping up, the laugh dying in her throat.
I couldnât remember the last time Iâd used that word.
. It tasted bitter on my tongue, full of hope that only she could smash.
âIâ¦â she started, but didnât finish, swallowing, her eyes glassy.
âDonât answer now, just think about it. Andâ¦and if you decide to go, Iâll do everything in my power to make sure no one comes after you. But Iâm telling you nowââ
I stepped in close, sealing off the offensive gap between us to take her face into my hands. âIf you leave, thatâs it. You canât come back. Not ever. I canât do this twice.â
Her lower lip quivered, and on instinct, I pressed my mouth to hers, consuming her fear as if I could steal it from her and carry it as my own.
Her lips, soft and resistant at first, pressed harder against mine as she deepened the kiss, our tongues flicking out against each other. She tasted of salt and copper, and it made my body ignite with a need so strong my blood rushed in my ears, drained from my face to fill my cock as it thickened in my jeans.
She moaned against my mouth, and my fist found the hair at the back of her neck, twisting in and holding her hard against me as her fingers searched for something of mine to hold on to.
My Ghost ground her hips into me, and I shuddered at the contact, wanting thisâherâright now, more than anything Iâd ever wanted in my life. But she hadnât chosen us. Not yet.
I yanked her head back with my grip on her hair, breathing heavily as my cock throbbed in my jeans. âIf you decide to stay, you know where to find us,â I whispered against her mouth.
Before I could change my mind and strip her naked right there in the middle of the road, I released her and stepped back. Back again. Taking in the long shape of her body, every curve, every blemish on her skin, her face, the face of an avenging angel come to take my soul.
And then I turned and walked away, heading back in the direction Iâd come, stuffing my fists deep into the pockets of my jeans.