What the hell is wrong with me?
Jack Knight-triggered oxytocin has been pumping through my body all night, leaving me a hot mess. And thatâs with a stuffed moose head watching me.
The guy looks, smells and dances like sex. I didnât stand a freakinâ chance. After the dance, a million women fangirled him all night, Max being the ringleader.
That dance. Holy fucking shit.
He was hard.
The guy practically humped my silk bridesmaid dress on the lawn . . . and I let him.
I canât figure out if Iâm happy that I had the chance to knock Mr. Big Dick down a peg or two, or because the possibility of angry sex might be on the cardsânot that I would ever go there.
But itâs a fantasy for the Bean Bag.
Besides, Max encouraged me to network. Iâm only doing what Iâm told.
The breakfast room is the stereotypical aftermath of a British wedding, everyone that looked fabulous last night looks slightly worse for wear today.
Tans are patchy, makeup is still half on, eyes are reduced to slits, rogue pins are sticking out of slept-in updos, and there is a general demeanour of dehydration.
Voices that were roaring last night dull to an idle murmur as they mull over the breakfast buffet, trying to decide whether itâll make them feel better or worse.
Nisha mumbles incoherently beside me. I banged down her door this morning to get her out of bed.
âHuh?â I ask, distracted, scanning the room for six-foot-something monsters with topknots and ten tons of muscle.
âI feel horrid.â Nisha groans. âI canât look at that fry-up. Why did you let me drink so much last night?â
âLast time I checked the bridesmaid manual, it didnât mention keeping guests from overindulging.â
Heâs not here. I donât know whether Iâm relieved or disappointed.
âIâm not drinking ever again,â she says firmly as we meander around the buffet. âOkay, at least until Christmas.â She looks at me crossly. âI mean it this time.â
âIâm not doubting you.â
She lifts a lid, sees itâs black pudding and makes a retching sound, closing it quickly. âWhy are you so cheery this morning? Arenât you tired?â
âIâm exhausted,â I mutter. âGo get us a seat, Nisha. Iâm going to pop to the loo.â
She sighs and moves towards empty seats.
âNot there,â I hiss as Nisha veers towards Kateâs creepy uncle, Dom.
I turn towards the main hallway where the bathrooms are, after giving the room a final once-over.
Maybe Jackâs left already. He mentioned heâs getting a lift in Tristan Kaneâs helicopter. Talk about upstaging the bride, who arrives in a frigginâ chopper?
âThe other bridesmaid is a bit of alright, isnât she? That Bunny.â
What?
I freeze, trying to connect the bodiless voice to a face from last night.
Me?
âWhatâs going on between you two?â the same male voice around the corner asks.
A knot of anxiety tightens in my belly.
The guy I canât identify must be talking to Max about me. Why does eavesdropping on Max talking about our relationship freak me out after all these months? Maybe I donât want to hear from the horseâs mouth how well heâs coping without me.
I lean against the wall and take out my phone to pretend to read.
âAbsolutely nothing, mate.â
My head jerks at the sound of the low gravelly cockney voice.
Jack.
Someone is asking Jack about me?
Thereâs a pause. âYou two looked a little cosy.â
âNope.â Jackâs tone makes my stomach lurch. Cold as ice. All the warmth he had last night is gone. âDefinitely nothing of interest going on there.â
The other guy chuckles. âI guess Michelle Allard is more your type, lucky bastard.â
Another pause, and my pulse quickens.
âMichelle Allard is everyoneâs type,â Jack says dryly.
My cheeks flame with heat. Wanker.
Obviously, I agree, but hearing it from his mouth crushes me more than it should. I shouldnât even care.
âShe hasnât got a set of pipes on her like Michelle, but Bunny polishes up good enough.â
I tug at my bra strap, annoyed. Who is this guy?
âCareful,â Jack says, his voice more strained. âWatch your manners. Bonnie is . . . a friend of Sean and Kateâs.â
Huh. Iâm only mildly appeased. Itâs not exactly a knight-in-shining-armour response.
âMind if I get her number?â
Another pause.
âKnock yourself out,â Jack replies in a level tone. âNo reason for me to mind.â
âSo? Do you have it?â
More silence.
âThanks.â
Thanks? THANKS?
He did not give some random guy my number.
My chest tightens as I back away from the corner. So, Michelle Allard is more his type?
Him and his big dick and his darlins.
Stupid, stupid, stupid, Bonnie, says the annoying voice of reason in my head. Billionaires get more attention than babies and bunnies. I witnessed that myself last night. What did you expect?
Father Donaghy would say this is karma for disrespecting his Godâs house yesterday.
I canât believe I even entertained for a tiny slither of a moment the notion of maybe, just maybe, sharing some food with Jack Knight for an hour. All for networking purposes, of course.
Iâve been a fool, but Iâve learned my lesson.
***
After a ten-minute pep talk in the bathroom to pull myself together, I make my way back to the breakfast area.
Kate waves me over.
Iâm irrationally annoyed. Itâs probably the champagne after-effects and the low you get after hitting it too hard, thatâs all.
âHi, Mrs. Knight.â I beam at Kate as she pulls me in for a massive hug.
âMrs. Knight,â she repeats, squealing. âMrs. Knight! Jesus, Iâll look around for Seanâs mum every time someone calls me that. Thank you for yesterday, honey. You were on your feet all day. I think you must have taken me to the bathroom five times last night.â
âDonât worry. I hope you enjoyed your day?â
She thinks about it. âYou know, I really did in the end. I mean, I wouldnât rush out to do it again and Iâm really glad itâs over, but waking up beside my husband this morning . . .â Her grin fades and she squeezes my arm. âIâm sorry, Bonnie. Are you okay? I know you put on a brave face but itâs such a hard thing to go through given the circumstances.â
Huh. This is the first time Iâm upset about something other than my split in months.
All thanks to Mr. Big Dick. Maybe he did me and my not-as-good-as-Michelle-Allard-pipes a favour.
âI had a brilliant time.â I smile. âKate, do you mind if we head off? Nishaâs in a bad way. Also, Bradshaw is doing an important piece of work for Lexington, so I should get at it today, or the week will be a nightmare.â And I need to get the hell out of here before the Lexington CEO appears.
âSpeak of the devil.â She grins over my shoulder. âJack, you bad man. Is your company working Bonnie too hard?â
I turn, horror rising slowly, to see Jack and Michelle Allard behind me.
Jack is back in casual clothes but still looks as deadly as in the tux, if a little more tired in a grey tee and jeans.
Michelle grips his forearm possessively, looking bored. He stiffens but doesnât remove her arm.
Unlike the rest of us, her skin glows as if an invisible team of lighting technicians is following her around, illuminating her with soft white light.
âMorning.â Jack turns his attention to me. His dark eyes burn a trail up my body. âWhatâs this about?â
âBonnieâs gruelling deadline for Lexington,â Kate pipes up, poking Jackâs abs.
If only I had duct tape handy.
His brows rise.
âKateâs only joking,â I hiss, telepathically telling her to shut the fuck up. Max will bloody well flip if he hears about this.
Michelle looks at me suspiciously as her arm tightens around Jackâs. âI know you. The other bridesmaid. From the lawn.â
I look between Jack and Michelle. He shifts his hand into his back pocket, forcing her arm to drop.
Not a date, my arse. Michelle is clinging to his side like a bodyguard.
âThatâs me. The other bridesmaid,â I reply stiffly.
âThis is Bonnie, Michelle,â Jack corrects her.
Michelle and I never really spoke last night, so thereâs no need for awkward hugging. âLovely to meet you, Michelle.â
I give Kate a quick hug and then turn to Jack and Michelle.
âJack.â I pull my lips back from my teeth in an attempt to smile. âI look forward to working on the Motor Works factory for Lexington.â
Before he can respond, I turn on my heels and grab Nisha.
âArenât you going to have any breakfast?â she asks, as I march us out the door.
âNope. Not hungry.â
âI know I wanted us to leave quickly, but slow down a bit,â she grumbles as I jog towards the car, dragging her along as if weâve stolen half the castleâs valuables. âHey, when you were talking to Kate in the breakfast room, I saw the tech tycoon Danny Walker eying you up. I repeat Danny Walker.â
âWhat?â I scoff. âIsnât he with the hotshot lawyer Tristan Kaneâs sister? Wise up, Nisha.â
âI mean it, he looked interested. He kept looking over.â She pants, trying to meet my stride. âHold up, woman. Iâm not training for a marathon, and I had a skinful last night.â
I slow down a fraction. âThey have young kids.â
âThese rich guys have their baby mamas and women on the side. I didnât say you should go there.â
The car beeps open as I point the key fob at it. Heavy footsteps churn the gravel behind us.
Oh, shit.
Just as I pull the car door open an inch, a hand covers mine and a deep voice says, âWait.â
I tilt my head over my shoulder, my pulse quickening. My back is against the chest of the guy Iâm running from.
Jack leans forward, his breath hot on the nape of my neck. âSomebodyâs eager to get away. Whereâs the fire?â
His hand is still on mine, caging me between the car and him. Iâve never seen Nisha move so quickly as she leaps into the passengerâs seat.
I turn to face Jack, backing towards the car. âI want to beat the traffic,â I reply in a level tone.
âIt feels like youâre running away from something.â He towers over me, cocky grin in place. âIâll see you for dinner this week. Does Tuesday work?â
Arrogant ass. I never actually said yes to the date. And apparently, Iâm interesting enough to spend a Tuesday with, while the Michelle Allards of the world, everyoneâs type, gets him on a weekend.
Be cool.
Big client. Most interesting project ever. Senior architect title. Get the fuck out of Bradshaw Brown.
Leave your emotions out of it.
âSorry, busy Tuesday,â I say more bluntly than I intended.
âWednesday.â
âPerhaps the team and I could arrange a working lunch?â I smile helpfully. âWe can do it in Canary Wharf, near the office. Iâll talk to your PA. Iâm sure the partners and Max would love to attend.â
His forehead creases. âWeâre back to playing this game? Okay, next Friday or Saturday night if youâre busy during the week.â
âI canât do next weekend,â I reply flatly.
His eyes narrow a fraction. âWhat are you doing thatâs making you so busy?â
Iâll be answering my phone to all the guys you pimped me out to.
âRunning. Iâve got a really intense training schedule for the marathon over the next few weeks.â
âOkay. No dinner. We can run together to not interrupt your schedule. I can come to your area.â
âI canât focus when Iâm running with other people. Perhaps best to leave it.â
His dark eyes burn into mine in silence for a heated moment. âThat must make your running club awkward.â
Shit. I forgot I told him that.
âFine,â he says in a measured tone, a slight tick in his jaw. âI guess I misread everything.â
He goes to walk away, then turns abruptly.
âWhat was last night? You were flirting with me. If youâre not interested, why?â
Feeling cornered, I go on the defence. âIâm a bridesmaidâweâre supposed to be nice to the guests. Maybe I wanted to make the other groomsmen jealous,â I blurt out.
His eyes blaze. I get flashbacks from the hot tub of when he fired the poor guys.
âI see,â he growls. âYou did a fantastic job. Very realistic.â He turns then stops again. âBy the way, Danny is not remotely interested in you, so get that out of your damn head.â
Mouth hanging open, I watch him storm off before letting me respond. Jerk!
âBonnie,â a small voice calls from inside the car. âGet in.â
I pull open the door to the driverâs side and slump into the seat. âDid you hear all that?â
âYup, although I must have heard it wrong because it sounded like you were blowing Jack Knight off. What the hell?â
Iâm too tired to give her blow-by-blow details. âHe asked me out last night when we were dancing. This morning I overheard him talking to some other guy about how he wasnât interested in me, and then he gave the other guy my number.â
âHe asked you out?â she shrieks. âHoly shitballs.â
âSo?â I scowl. âDidnât you hear the rest of the story?â
She waggles her brows. âHe wants to share you with another guy. Maybe you could form your own harem.â
I roll my eyes.
âWhy on earth did you imply you were making Max jealous?â
âI got flustered.â I exhale. âHe thinks heâs Godâs gift. I suppose I want to bring him down a peg or two. And.â I pause. âMaybe itâs partially true.â
âWhen he said the comment about Danny Walker, it looked like you could cook bacon off your face.â
âGreat,â I mutter dryly.
âDid you flirt with him?â
I wince. âI may have rubbed up a little against him. Itâs not the best networking strategy Iâve ever had. But Iâm only human and look at him, for Christâs sake.â
âBut you hate the guy.â
âI donât hate the guy,â I say sullenly. âI just think heâs a ruthless bastard.â
âAnd youâre still attracted to him?â
âIâm sexually attracted to him. Some inmates are attractive too, you know. They get really buff in prison. Doesnât mean theyâre good people.â
She nods. âIâd like to have sex with Darren, and he disgusts me. Heâs a real hottie to look at, but itâs kind of unsexy when the guy is bad at his job.â
I get it. In my first year at Bradshaw, watching Max work was sexy. Max is a great architect. But sheâs right, Darren is the laziest guy at Bradshaw Brown.
She smiles slyly. âBut Jack, he seems pretty good at his job. Heâs not doing too bad for himself, is he? Must be doing something right for seven billion pounds.â
âI suppose.â I sniff, not accepting her bait. âRight, letâs get the show on the road.â
âBonnie, by the way . . .â She pauses. âI heard Becky talking about getting Jackâs number. So maybe you should forget it.â
That gets a snort. âCome on, Nisha, as if I thought anything would actually happen.â
She doesnât look convinced.
So, I really am just the other bridesmaid.
âHe called me a Viking.â
âA Viking? Like a big angry hairy ginger man?â
âExactly.â I tut. âThe guyâs a dick.â
She hums in agreement.
âWhen did, uh, Becky tell you she got his number?â I ask casually.
âWhen you left me at breakfast this morning. She told the funniest story. She said she met him wandering the hall at 3 a.m. She thought he was sleepwalking or drunk because he looked dazed. Then she noticed he had a raging hard-on the size of a tree.â
âWhat?â I turn my head to look at her. âThey hooked up?â
âApparently not. He said he was getting something to drink and went back to his room.â
âThe guy was just walking the halls of the castle, hard? How messed up is that?â I slump in my seat, secretly relieved. âBut he asked for her number?â
âShe got his number this morning. Sorry, I didnât ask for the details.â
Sounds like Jack is giving out numbers left, right and centre.
She studies me. âYou know who Jack Knight is. And as much as I want you to get back in the dating game, itâs probably not the most strategic move, shitting on your own construction site.â
âDonât be silly.â I scoff, starting up the engine. âI know the score. Now letâs get the hell out of here.â
Yes, I know who Jack Big Dick Knight is.
Men like him get pissed when their pawns donât move around the board as they order. What they forget is that if a pawn moves fast enough, she becomes a queen.