âYou do know that CDs are pretty much redundant now, right?â I look crossly at Dad. Iâve been boxing his things away for five hours and am getting nowhere. Now we have cleared most of the clutter into boxes, itâs clear that the flat hasnât had a good clean in years. âThese DVDs need to go too. There must be hundreds here. Who do you think will actually buy these?â
âNonsense, love.â He rubs his hands together. âThese beauties still sell strong down the market. Easy.â
I roll my eyes. âDad, the only way youâll sell these is if you get a time machine and go back to the nineties.â
âDonât you worry.â He gives me a knowing smile. âYour old dad knows a thing or two about business, love.â
Except he doesnât.
I cringe and feel instantly guilty.
Thank God Jack didnât come.
That thought makes me feel even guiltier.
I used to die of embarrassment at some of the things Dad would say to Max. The nights when Dad would have a few too many pints and decide to give privately educated Max advice on how to be a successful businessman while Max sat in uncomfortable silence until he had enough and abruptly cut Dad off.
I grew up with it drilled into me that you should never be ashamed of your roots.
But sometimes walking down the street with Dad when his trousers were shabby and hanging off him and he smelt a little squiffy, I hung my head in shame.
And hated myself for it.
It was one of my biggest worries about the wedding. That Dad would be too drunk and too embarrassing. Maxâs too, as he kept drilling into me.
âYou used to love coming to the Saturday market with me.â He smiles sadly at me, and I feel yet another pang of guilt. He seems to grow smaller every time I see him. And more fragile.
Every Saturday, Dad had a small stall in the local market. I helped him until I was about fifteen and it stopped being cool. Then Dad would go to the market alone after that.
Now he doesnât go at all.
âIâve been at this for hours and you wonât let me throw anything away. You do realise your new place isnât the size of Buckingham Palace, right?â
I sigh, as I find more knick-knacks at the bottom of the CD box. Things that wouldnât sell at a flea market. Dad has lived in the social housing flat since his house got repossessed ten years ago and has hoarded everything ever since.
I havenât told him that Iâve started seeing Jack. I donât want a drama. Is it weird that my boyfriendâs company is rehousing my dad?
âWhatâs this?â I ask, lifting up a sealed transparent packet.
He squints at it. âNothing of value.â
He tries to take it off me but something about it makes me freeze.
Inside the pocket is a gold signet ring that looks like itâs designed to do damage to a face. It has a prominent, almost gaudy, crest on it.
A family crest that Iâm familiar with.
âWhere did you get this?â I ask curiously, turning it around. âYou know this might actually be worth something.â
âNah. Here, Iâll take it off you.â
Something about how he tries to snap it away from me makes me take a step back. I examine it closer, and my heart quickens.
âDad.â I gawk at him. âDo you realise this is Jack Knightâs dadâs ring?â
His throat bobs. âArchie Knight? Nah,â he scoffs. âItâs not his.â
He looks like he has seen a ghost. Dad never had a good poker face.
âItâs got his name engraved on it.â Exactly like Jackâs chain. âI know itâs his. We have to give this to Jack.â
âNo,â he snaps.
My brows shoot to my hairline. âWhy on earth not?â I stare uncomprehendingly at Dad. âIs it about the money? Are you actually planning to sell this?â
âIâm not answerable to you, lass.â His voice takes on a hard edge that Iâve heard before, but never directed at me. âGive me the fucking thing, Bonnie.â
Dad never curses at me.
My hand tightens around the ring.
Dadâs hands clench into fists at his sides, and I think heâs considering physically overpowering me to get the ring.
âCanât you just leave well alone?â he asks quietly.
âNo,â I say in an unnaturally shrill voice. âIf you donât tell me the truth, Iâm calling Jack and telling him. Heâll come and get it himself.â
Iâve never been scared of Dad. Even when he came home blind drunk and fell around the house, breaking things.
But I seemed to trigger something dark in him. His jaw clenches and unclenches and I feel the familiar tightness in my chest that I got the day I saw Olivia in the boardroom.
Finally, he exhales in an angry breath. âCall Jack Knight?â he barks. âYou think he has time to answer the phone to you, lass?â
I donât respond. I donât want to lie to him.
When he speaks again, he is calm. âLook, the truth is I found it. The night his old man got stabbed. I thought he had just dropped it. At the time I didnât realise heâd been stabbed.â
I swallow hard. âWhere did you find it?â
He pauses. âNear the alleyway.â
Shit. This ring is evidence.
And if Jack finds out my dad has had it all this time, well, I donât know how heâll react.
âDad, why the hell didnât you hand it in to the police?â
Silence. His face says everything.
âIs this about money? This ring could have DNA on it that would have convicted Wicks! It still could!â
He lets out a hard laugh. âLove, sometimes youâre naive. You leave home, go off to that fancy college and lose your wits. You think Iâm going to hand in something that would convict Donnie Wicks? Do you know how it works around here?â
âYou couldâve handed it in anonymously,â I protest. âYou still can.â
âNothing happens anonymously in these estates. Wicks has got police all over his payroll.â His mouth twists into a grimace. âIâm not going against the Wicks family, love. They have people killed for less.â
âBut heâs already doing life. It doesnât make a difference to him.â But it does to Jack.
âDoesnât matter.â He grunts. âItâs a respect thing. You grass on a Wicks, and you wonât live too long to talk about it.â
âWhy did you keep it for so long?â I ask, confused. âWhy didnât you dump it?â
âI couldnât bring myself to. Itâs worth quite a few bob.â
My mouth twists into a thin line. None of this makes sense. âSo, itâs about money. Itâs always about money.â
âDonât be so harsh to judge, love,â he snaps. âAll my cash went on you growing up.â
I wish Iâd never found this bloody ring.
âI need to give this to Jack,â I say quietly.
âJack fucking Knight? Are you having a laugh, love? Are you trying to condemn your old dad to death?â
âWhat if itâs evidence?â I shake my head. âI couldnât live with myself if I didnât hand this over.â
His eyes narrow as he calmly replies, âAnd could you live with yourself if your dad gets his head kicked in one night?â
He stares at me steadily, knowing heâs got me. I think heâs being overly dramatic but heâs right. I donât live here anymore, and I donât know what the Wicks family are capable off.
âJack wonât let that happen,â I say faintly.
âDid Jack stop the sixteen other people from being murdered by the Wicks over these past ten years?â
âWhat about justice?â I ask in a small voice.
âJustice?â he echoes gruffly. âWe have justice. Wicks is a lifer. Heâs paying for his crime and now heâs dying. Donât condemn me to an early death too, Bonnie.â
His face crumples. Dad looks afraid. And old.
âI was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Are you going to crucify me for that?â
A wave of nausea rolls through me as I stare down at the signet ring, wishing it would disintegrate in my hand.
Would Donnie Wicks really kill Dad over handing in a ring that was at a murder scene over a decade ago?
But if I call Dadâs bluff and heâs right, Iâll never be able to live with myself.
I need time to think.
Jack is visiting Wicks in two weeksâ time. Wicks might confess and then everything will come out in the wash.
I nod. âOkay, Dad. I wonât say anything for now. That doesnât mean Iâm happy about this. Just make sure you keep it safe. For Godâs sake, make sure it doesnât go missing in the flat move.â
He breathes a deep sigh of relief and takes me in for a hug.
I smile back wondering how Iâll be able to look Jack in the eye ever again.
Then when he has turned his back on me, I put the ring in my pocket.