Bad things come in threes, they say.
Well, Iâve lost my boyfriend, my dad and probably the role on the Motor Works project so hopefully, thatâs me done for a while.
And wearing healing crystals around my neck?
Bullshit. I hate wearing jewellery now. Having something around my neck is too much of a reminder of what Iâve lost.
Funny how the three things used to be a) my ex-fiancé breaking up with me, b) my ex-fiancé is still my boss and c) finding out my ex-fiancé was cheating on me.
Now those pale in comparison.
But what do all six have in common? Men.
Iâm sick of it.
Dad hasnât been arrested but the police have asked him to come in for questioning. I only know this through Uncle Pat because Dadâs upset and refuses to speak to me.
Of course, Iâve had no contact with Jack.
No matter how many times I turn off and on my Wi-Fi and restart my phone, thereâs no stuck message from him waiting to get through.
The only messages are mindfulness memes from Kate and Nisha and other messages that you send your friend when youâve got absolutely no clue what to say. Youâre braver than you believe. Thereâs light at the end of the tunnel. That sort of thing.
At least they both know so I can actually talk about it.
Nisha says Jack hasnât been in the office all week but itâs alright for him, heâs the CEO. Iâve been working from home saying that Iâm feeling poorly.
Itâs not a complete lie because Iâm sick with dread.
Itâs been two days since Mum and I went to the police station and yesterday, the revelation in the case made the local news.
Thankfully all the report says is that there is a second man in for questioning. No names given. Thereâs not much coverage because itâs a ten-year-old crimeâpeople get stabbed all the time in London. But this is Jack Knightâs dad weâre talking about.
Anything about Jack makes the news.
Including the apparent fling he had last Friday night that went wrong, i.e. me.
Itâs always the woman that the media makes out to be desperate, crazy and running after the guy, especially if heâs a billionaire and sheâs a nobody.
So, if my dadâs crime doesnât rob me of the design role then having a ruckus on the street with the client CEO will.
My phone lights up. Max. I told him about Dad yesterday. To be fair to him, he was pretty supportive.
âHi, Max.â
âHow are you today?â he asks.
Itâs the most excruciating time of my life, thanks for asking.
âFine,â I say because thatâs what he wants to hear.
âBonnie,â he starts hesitantly, âthereâs no easy way to say this. I had to tell the partners.â
âIâm off the project,â I finish for him. âItâs fine, I canât work on it anymore anyway. Not after . . . everything.â I let out a small laugh because there isnât much else to do. âBit of a conflict of interest.â
I hear a heavy exhale. âJust a little.â
âDoes everyone in the office know?â
âBradshaw and Brown donât want a scandal so only HR know about whatâs happening with your dad. The last thing they want is for that to get out.â
Nice to see that they care so dearly for their employees after years of service.
Thereâs a long stretch of silence until he finally clears his throat. âBut everyone has seen the social media story. Are you going to explain it to me? Did Jack harass you because of your dad? Thatâs not on, Bonnie.â
âAnd if he did, what would you do about it, Max? As my mentor and my boss?â
Silence.
Empty words, Max. Now I realise that all the words you ever said to me were just gas.
âNo,â I say firmly. âJackâs a good man. Thatâs not why we were arguing. We . . .â
âBonnie.â His voice turns cold. âPlease tell me you didnât sleep with Jack.â
I donât reply. This is the last conversation I want to have with Max.
âJesus, Bonnie!â he snaps. âYou actually had sex with Jack Knight?â
He sounds so disgusted I wonder if itâs because Iâm his ex-fiancée rather than his subordinate.
âI thought you had more self-respect than to become his one-night stand! What the hell?â
âIt wasnât a one-night stand,â I say, my voice cracking.
âCome on, Bonnie!â he says down the phone. âI didnât realise you were this naive. This makes things even more complicated. No wonder Jack wants you off the project.â
For some stupid reason, this hurts the most, and my eyes fill with tears. Again.
Why am I surprised? Of course, Jack wants me off his project.
âHave you seen him?â I ask in a small voice, hating that I need to ask Max.
âWho, Jack?â he barks in a tone that says I shouldnât be asking. âNo, he hasnât been in all week. Heâs taking calls from home.â I hear another harsh sigh. âYouâll need to return your Lexington laptop.â
The thought of going to the Lexington office makes me recoil in horror. âCanât I give it to Nisha?â
âNo,â he snaps. âYou need to give it back personally as part of the off-boarding. You know this.â
I close my eyes. âFine, Iâll bring it in.â
âToday, Bonnie.â
Fuck.
I guess the sooner I get this over and done with the better, especially if Jack isnât in.
âMy promotion . . .â
âIs unlikely,â he finishes. âJust for this round.â
âThatâs bullshit,â I say, stunned. âI deserve that promotion.â
He lets out a long breath like heâs talking to an unreasonable child. âWe need to let the dust settle. With the situation with your dad, the partners canât be seen to be promoting you in front of Jack.â
I was wrong. Olivia wasnât the biggest threat to my relationship with Max. The two little dicks, Bradshaw and Brown are the ones heâs in bed with.
***
My blue shift dress hangs off me with a little more space around the hips than it did last week. My heart hammers in my chest as I step out of the lift onto the fortieth floor.
Nisha greets me at the lifts for moral support. âHi, love.â
The office is packed. Everyone else looks too normal, tapping away on their laptops. Their lives havenât been royally fucked up this past week.
My boyfriend hates me.
My dad hates me.
Now my bosses hate me.
âHey.â I smile sadly. âLetâs get this over and done with. I just need to hand in the laptop at the tech bar.â
She tuts. âThis is shit that you have to leave the project. Youâve worked so hard and you havenât actually done anything wrong. It doesnât seem fair.â
âItâs fine,â I say with a small shrug. âSo, the truth . . . is everyone gossiping about the picture of me and Jack?â
She nibbles on her lip as we start to walk down the aisle. Unfortunately for me, the support guys sit at the far end of the floor.
âThe truth, Nisha,â I press in a low voice, ignoring the turning heads.
âYes.â She sighs. âSome of the admins found the link and have been showing everyone.â
I swallow nervously. âWhat do they think?â
âYou had a one-night stand,â she says through a false smile.
All eyeballs are on me. Those colleagues who arenât looking at me are nudged by their neighbours of my incoming presence.
âI mean it looks like a loverâs tiff a mile off because it is. All the women are obviously jealous. None of them know about your dad though.â
My eyes widen. âIâm a laughingstock. Theyâll think thatâs why Iâve been taken off the project.â
âPeople do it all the time.â
I grunt a laugh. âYeah, not with the CEO of Lexington though.â
âSpeaking of one-night stands,â she says through gritted teeth as Darren approaches us.
âBonnie!â Darren booms too loudly. Anyone that hadnât noticed my arrival before does now. âSo, you and bossman, huh?â
âKeep your voice down,â I hiss. I half consider battering him with the laptop then flinging myself out the window.
âShut up, Darren,â Nisha spits out, shoving him in the arm.
He grins. âWhatâs the matter, Nish?â
He turns back to me and leans in. âListen, do you think you could get the deadline extended? And ideally, get the budget increased to bring in a few deputy project managers to help with workload. Iâm swamped.â
I stare at him blankly. âHow the hell would I be able to do that?â
âYou could mention it to Jack next time youâreââ He winks. âYou know.â
âNo, I donât think Iâm in a position to swing that.â
âWhatâs the point of romping with the boss then?â
I suck in a breath. I do not need this shit right now.
âDarren,â Nisha grates, narrowing her eyes. âI wonât tell you again.â
âBonnie.â Max appears behind me, casting an appraising glance my way.
My face prickles with embarrassment. People arenât even pretending not to watch anymore.
âYou need to do a twenty minute debrief with one of the Lexington security officers,â Max says in his most professional tone. âTo keep us above board.â He pauses. âWe can discuss new projects for you in the next few days.â
I exhale a ragged breath and follow him down the aisle. Everyone stops talking as I pass them. Those that know me well give me sympathetic looks.
Iâve blown it. Bradshaw and Brown will have me cleaning up muck after this. Iâll be lucky if I get to design toilets.
Nisha stays at my side like a guard as we stop at the security officer who is surrounded by so many screens, he looks like heâs single-handedly operating an air traffic control tower.
âHi,â I say to the guy who doesnât look up. Any minute now, please.
Nisha inhales sharply. âOh, shit.â
Huh?
âHe isnât supposed to be in today,â Max murmurs, looking over my shoulder.
Nishaâs eyes meet mine in horror.
Please, God, no.
My pulse goes from resting to racing in a nanosecond.
I donât turn around.
I donât need to, to feel his presence.