Iâve only spent the night with one man in my entire life. I love bumping into his muscles while we sleep. I love how the sheets smell of him, of us, and how his shoulders have become my favorite pillow, even though theyâre hard as hell and I canât understand why I like sleeping on them, but I do. They come with his arm around my waist and his scent, and his heat, and I love it all, every bit of it. Especially when he ducks his head to tuck his nose into my neck, and I bury mine into his.
The problem is that his side of the bed seems to eject him exactly at ten in the morning, and my side seems to have no eject button.
Today I feel like a deadweight, while I can tell heâs not even in the room.
The air is different when heâs not near. He charges it when heâs nearby, like a slow, powerful vibration around me that makes me hyperalert and feel both safe and excited.
Iâve really fallen for him.
Six months ago, I wanted a one-night standâto have a little fun after dedicating my years to my career. Instead . . . I get him.
Unpredictable, infuriating, sexy him . . . the man everyone lusts after and I didnât want to. I ended up not only lusting after him, but falling face-first in love with him. And now, loving him is the most exhilarating roller coaster Iâve ever ridden in my life.
Sitting up on the bed, I rub my eyes to shield them from the streaming sunlight and wish I had Red Bull and Monster running through my veins like Remy does. We hardly slept doing our favorite sexy stuff, and heâs already raring to go. I even see his suitcase by the door, ready for us to leave for the next tour location, while I still need to pack.
Squinting again as I slide out of bed, I go to the small closet to find something to wear when I spot the letter on his nightstand next to his iPhoneâwhich he rarely even powers on except for music-listening purposes. The sight of my letter brings a rush of awful memories to me, I have to quell the urge to grab it, tear it, and flush the pieces down the toilet.
But Remington would be so mad. He treasures that stupid letter Iâd left him when I left.
Because in it, I tell him what nobody had ever told him before.
I love you, Remy.
My legs start shaking, and I close my eyes and tell myself Iâm not perfect. Iâve never been taught to do this. I never dreamed of love, a partner . . . I dreamed of sports and the latest running shoes. Not of spiky black hair and blue eyes. Iâm trying to learn. To be the woman a man like him deserves. And I want to spend the rest of my life showing Remy that I deserve him, and the rest of my days making sure he takes back what he lost because of me. If anyone in this world deserves to be a championâitâs him.
âHeâs a pussy, just relax,â I hear his gruff, manly voice outside the master bedroom.
I laugh at my own bodyâs response to hearing Remington say âpussyââmy womb clenches and I feel instantly a little warm. Whore.
Grinning, I search through his stuff in the closet, then have to go to his suitcase. I know that he likes it when I wear his things. I think it makes him feel like Iâm his property, and itâs insane how much I like to pick on his alpha tendencies. When heâs blue-eyed, heâs possessive, but when heâs black, heâs downright territorial.
It delights me when he gets all growly youâre-mine and it delights him when I wear his stuff.
So this morning, why not have the both of us be delighted? I take his RIPTIDE boxing robe and slip it on, then I hurry into the bathroom, brush my teeth and wash my face, wrap my hair in a ponytail, and pad outside.
I hear his laughter in the living area, more like a soft chuckle over something Pete murmured, and my insides do all the stuff he makes them do as I round the corner.
My god.
I canât believe what he does to me. I canât even explain this shivering-shuddering-twittering combination inside me, but itâs ridiculous.
âHeâs checking up on you, dude, I donât see the amusement here,â Pete says, in alarm. âHis scouts have been asking all around the hotels to know where weâll be staying next.â
âJust relax and keep watch, Pete,â Remington says, and I just stare for a moment, hearing a catch in my breath.
My blue-eyed lion.
His black hair stands up devilishly. The inky Celtic bands across his muscled arms flex as he slowly sips on an electrolyte drink. I see his glorious tanned torso. Those sweatpants riding low on his narrow hips and revealing just the tip of his star tattoo. His bare feet. He looks hot, strong, and cuddlable, and the pulsing energy that seems to radiate from his very being feels like a magnet to me.
âBrooke, good morning!â Diane Werner, his chef and nutritionist, says from the kitchen.
Almost lazily, Remington turns and slowly, ever so slowly, stands, his muscles rippling with the move. Brilliant blue eyes rake over my body, taking me in in his red robe, which drapes all the way down to my ankles, and a territorial gleam sparks in his gaze in a way that makes every single womanly part of me tighten with wanting.
âWell, hello there, Miss Riptide,â Pete jumps in, his brown eyes glowing in amusement.
I smile. Because I not only want to wear my Riptideâs clothes, I wish heâd ask me to wear his name even when Iâd once told my best friend I would never, ever, marry because my career would always come first. Snort!
âHey, Pete and Diane,â I say in a sleepy voice, but my eyes are on Remington, and my heart wonât stand still.
Will it ever stand still when Iâm around him? As I stare at him this morning just like every morning for the past few months, I tell myself I am not dreaming, heâs not a fantasy, he is real. My REAL.
He saved my sister from the claws of a man I canât even name. Remington threw last seasonâs championship fight in exchange for her freedomâwithout even hesitating. Without even telling me. He lost his title, a huge amount of money, and could have lost his life, all to rescue my sister, Nora.
But I didnât know it was for me.
All I knew was that suddenly he was at the last seasonâs fight. Losing. Being beaten. Battered. Falling down. Getting up. Spitting at Scorpion.
I wanted to die.
My fighter, always so driven, persistent, passionate, and determined, refused to fight.
God, I was so, so wrong.
He wasnât punishing meâhe was saving my sister for me.
If he hadnât come back to my hometown of Seattle, with Nora delivered back safely, Iâd have made the biggest mistake of my life, and Iâd have paid for it for the rest of my life.
Iâd have lived the rest of my days loveless, smileless, and, worst of all, Remyless. Like I would have deserved.
As I struggle with the thousand pounds of remorse this memory gives me, his dimples flash, and if I thought I was happy moments ago, nothing compares to this avalanche.
âHey,â I whisper.
âSo my little firecracker lives,â he says with a devilish glint in his eye.
âOnly barely after you.â
He bursts out laughing, and Pete coughs. âGuys, Iâm kind of still here, and so is Diane.â
My smile fades, but although Remingtonâs doesnât, his smile softens, and so does the look in his eyes. Suddenly, he makes me feel shy. Virginal. Like he stripped me naked last night and this morning I am without all my bravado, without any stitch of protection, wearing only something that belongs to him.
Still using those dimples like lethal weapons against me, he comes over.
My body is all over the place as I force myself to walk and meet him halfway, and I bite back a squeak when he reaches out one muscled arm, hooks one finger into the sash of my robe, and pulls me the last distance to him. âGet over here,â he rumbles.
He bends his head and sets a kiss on the back of my ear as he spreads his hand open on the small of my back, stroking up to the RIPTIDE letters on the back, as if to remind me they are there. Iâm breathless when he ducks his head to my neck and drags in a long, deep inhale of me. Shit, he kills me when he does that, and between my legs, I feel a painful little clench of need.
âRemington, are you listening to me?â Pete asks.
Remington growls my name softly, low and deep, in the way he does when he fucks. âGood morning, Brooke Dumas.â My tummy clenches in response to that, and with the soft kiss he sets on my ear, my knees going buttery, because he always does this to me, and as Peteâs voice repeats what he just said, I start stepping away, but Remington wonât let me.
He kicks the chair farther out and drops down, hauling me with him. Then he shifts me to one of his thighs so he can grab his sports drink from the table and finally looks at Pete, his voice low but firm. âDouble our scouts and follow theirs.â
His fingers trace down my back as he downs the bottle, and Pete is left scratching and shaking his head in complete confusion.
âRem . . . dude . . . the fucking bastard cheated to win, and he knows heâs going to lose as long as youâre fighting this season. Heâs spying on us now, and heâs going to do his best to sabotage you this year. Heâs going to try to screw with your head. Provoke the shit out of you!â
Iâm barely wrapping my head around the topic, but whatever it is, âprovokingâ Remington is not a good idea. Heâs got a temper, usually. Heâs hardheaded and insistent and stubborn, but especially, he is Bipolar 1, and you donât want to rouse his black side unless youâre prepared to deal with more than two hundred pounds of reckless that doesnât sleep.
I like my more than two hundred pounds of reckless, but his reckless still worries me even if he doesnât seem in the slightest perturbed by Peteâs warnings.
Instead of answering his PA, he turns to me and threads his fingers at the hair on my nape. âDo you want breakfast?â he asks me.
Biting the inside of my cheek, I lean over and drop my voice to spare Pete. âYou mean aside from the one that walked out of my bed?â He pinches my nose and now leans to me. âBusiness called your breakfast out of bed today.â
âI actually feel strangely hungover this morning, Iâm not hungry at all.â
âHungover from what? My mouth?â he asks, his eyes dancing.
I look at his mouth and it is so full and perfect. The way he uses it is perfect. Every measured word he speaks is perfect. Sexy bastard. Of course he gives me hangovers, the kind Iâd never met until him.
âYou know,â Pete interjects, âIâd feel less concerned about him and what he plans to do if he didnât know your Kryptonite now.â He nods at me.
âHeâs not even getting near my Kryptonite. Iâll break him first.â The quiet conviction with which he says this makes gooseflesh jump on my arms, and I think Iâm a little nauseous.
Last seasonâs final match is my worst nightmare.
âYet I can totally envision him finding ways to reach out to your Kryptonite already,â Pete says. âFinding ways to push your red button, get you all bothered and reckless.â
Remington turns to me, then he shoves my hair aside and tips my head back to study me, like he knows I can barely hear that manâs nameâmuch less hear them talk about it.
The Black Scorpion is my own personal Voldemort. That asshole hurt my sister, then me. And worst of all, he hurt Remington. At that season final. He hurt him because of me. God, I fantasize killing the bastard.
âHeâs gonna tease you, torment you . . .â Pete continues in an ominous tone.
Remy watches me in silence, his chest bare, his neck tanned and strong, and when he turns his attention back to Pete, his voice is more somber.
âPete, he hasnât even made a play, and youâre losing your shit,â he tells him.
ââCause Iâm the one left to fix things when you lose it.â Pete smoothes a hand down his black tie. âThis season could get downright nasty. We want you strong and prepared, dude. We need to head to the airport in a half hour, tops, but I warn you, Phoenix might not be as calm as we anticipated.â
âIâll keep it together. Just double our scouts,â Remington says, serious now, then he takes one last swig of his sports drink and sets the empty bottle aside.
âAll right, let me call in some more. . . .â I watch Pete head over to the kitchen and punch his cell phone pad.
Now Remingtonâs voice deepens as he gives me his undivided attention. âYou overslept,â he murmurs, cupping my face as he smiles down at me. âWore you out last night?â
His voice oozes all kinds of sex and tenderness. As I nod, I feel myself go warm inside. âI hear sex gods do that,â I tease.
He laughs softly and strokes my lips with his thumb. âThatâs right. You ready to go?â
I nip his thumb and smile as I nod.
âI missed you in bed this morning,â I whisper.
âGod, me too. I need to be the first thing those pretty eyes see every morning.â
He presses me to him and buries his face in my hair, and all the tension from hearing the word âScorpionâ and the nausea leaves me when I smell him. I tuck my nose into his chest and inhale him as he inhales me, and the room falls, and the world falls, and in this moment nothing matters. Nothing matters but him, his arms around me and my arms around him. I think a part of him still canât believe Iâm in his arms again, because heâs squeezing me so tight I can hardly breathe, but I donât want to breathe. Iâm so affected by his scent, the feel of his powerful arms around me, when just two months ago Iâd stupidly given up on him, I can barely take it.
âI love you,â I whisper, and when he doesnât respond, I open my eyes and shiver when I see his fierce gaze trained on me. He rubs my bottom lip with his thumb again, then tucks me back into his chest as if Iâm precious. He lowers his head, his lips to my ear: âYouâre mine now.â