Chapter 36: an artsy head.

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what do they call you?

do they have a name for

the art that is happening

inside your head?

I don't know

if we should've met

earlier than this day

it's like the past and my thoughts

just drifted away

as you arrived and decided to stay

you know

people think they read my stuff,

but they try to read me instead

and

it's not that I'd regret that I opened up to you

it's just that I want to make a secret of what you and me

non-secretly do

I don't want to post

every kiss of you,

I don't want to make videos of

the way you smile

yes,

I'd like to have a photograph

of you wearing your glasses

or

you making breakfast at 8pm,

but that's it

and

now people read this stuff

and still

no one knows what I am really talking about

and that's what I love the most

for the first time

I really want to treasure something

like a good old memory that's happening right at this moment

does that make sense?

or does it sound too crazy?

I ask myself

what do they call you?

do they have a name for the art inside your head?

did someone already title your heart?

or would you like me to instead?

cause I talk to friends

they watch me smile

when I mention your name

it's not that

I've just got sex on my mind

to be honest

most of the time I think about us

standing at this bridge

trying to hold hands without being too nervous

I think about us

collecting vinyl plates without a record player

I just have to trust

in what I feel and what I really say to her

still

I have this picture of you

coming home from work, while I am half-asleep

cuddling into me and under the sheets

for me

this is what it really needs

to know that I want you

more than

observing your clothes and how to come through

every layer

just saying

so what do they call you?

tell me the truth of your name

there is magic behind the way you spell, you smi-,started, you say

what I really need to hear

and I am st-, sh-, stu-, you make me stutter

you really make me feel like melting butter

I can barely utter

what's going on inside of me

we began to take lessons of getting to know the other

something about

you loving to drink wine

something about

my eyes really starting to shine

it's crazy

but I really need to learn your language of how you feel

still

you didn't need the words to tell me the things I want to hear

I need to know your name

do it with your lips

print it into my skin

touch the top of my hips

I want to let you in

and that's what makes the skips of heart my beat

makes me skip my heartbeats

so this is me writing

I don't know

if the friend of yours

will cry again if he'll read the stuff

I write about you

I don't know

if you'll lose your voice again,

I don't know

but let me try to be your helping hand

in case you want someone to stay for more than a night

be sure that it's the other way around

and that's the reason I'm so quiet beside you

I am watching a dream of art

and I am starting to realize

that it's true