[regular pain, different love]
there was a time
that i learned an
important
lesson
that
heartbreak is not always
a girlfriend
giving up
or right love
at the
wrong time
heartbreak
can be having
to let go of things
you can not change
-a few words on heartbreak to preface the next poem
every day
she would tell me
"olivia."
"yes?"
"i'm happy today"
"that's good, i'm glad."
every day
she would ask me
seven times
"are you coming tomorrow?"
"yes, are you?"
"yeah."
"good, see you there."
they would tell me:
"she's been asking about you all morning."
"is olivia your favorite?" "yes."
"olivia, you're so good with her."
i thought she wanted to make sure i was coming every day.
i thought she really did enjoy being with me.
and maybe she did.
but one day she stopped asking.
and started other things.
the tenth time in one sitting:
"olivia."
"yes?"
"is she coming?"
"yes. she's coming today."
"when is she coming?"
"i dont know, when is she coming?"
"morning."
"no, what are we about to eat? breakfast or lunch?"
"lunch."
"so when is she coming?"
"she is coming at lunch."
"yep."
"she is coming at lunch."
"she is coming at lunch."
"she is coming at lunch."
"she is coming at lunch."
"she is coming at lunch."
the fifth time since she arrived:
"olivia, she's here."
"yes, she is."
one time, someone told me:
"she obsesses over you, and then when you come, she obsesses over
[she, a name i cant reveal]"