i think i shall tell you now
about the girl
who i think
i fell in love with
when i first saw her picture
i think my heart fluttered
and in the group,
she became the nicest person i'd met
and when we left
the two of us
she became the person who broke my heart
i remember
all of the
words
she had for me
jokes
and teasings
and laughs
and ridicules
and rejections
she rejected me from a lot of things
for what reason?
i do not know
i thought she saved me
i thought i could save her
but i could never rescue her
i still remember the first 3
and sitting on the bus
and smiling at my phone
and then looking out the window toward the school i was approaching
i remember the songs i sent her
and the words i gave her
and the time i gave her
and the sleep i gave up for her
and the effort i gave her
to give her a smile
i gave her everything i could
and i remember
i remember
the tweets
and the feeling of not being good enough
because no matter how hard i tried
to give her a smile
she gave herself
too many reasons
to need saving
but that's the thing
is that
i could never save her
no one could ever save her
because there was no one to save her from
only herself
i can't save her from herself.
only she could do that.