Chapter 17 of 22

only a memory [after her part three]

[daydreams of exaggerated feelings]

she is only a memory

with her 80s music

and her guitar in her lap

and the kind eyes

and the sweet mouth

that used to touch mine

her hair was so dark

and now when i pass her in the hall

it looks so light

her eyes were so bright

and now when i pass her in the hall

they look so dull

her frame was so full and healthy

and now when i pass her in the hall

she looks drained and ill

but things are so different

we talked

and we loved

we loved

and we fell

so hard, we fell

we loved

and we broke

fell apart

we loved

and we burned

up in flames

we loved

until we had torn through our relationship

like it was tinder in a wilderness fire

we scratched and loved and twisted and loved and wrenched

until nothing was left

but two girls

who lost themselves in each other

like stars in the moonlight

our love shone so bright

we faded away

-missing, la amante de ciudad