i thought
i was talking to a friend the other day
and we were asking each other
about our lives
and she asked me
if i thought i had ever been in love.
i said no.
and she said she thought i had.
i mean
this girl has been my journal for a long time
someone i had memorized
and who had memorized me.
we were basically family.
so it surprised me,
i asked her
who she thought i had been in love with.
i thought
she was going to say
a boy who i had a schoolgirl crush on for two years.
i thought
i would have to clarify
he was not love
but no.
she did not say the seven letter name.
i thought
she would.
she said a three letter name
i can not say.
i can only say.
an objective pronoun.
her
i thought
about
her
and the feelings i thought i had for
her
i was stricken
i remember
with a sick feeling
that my friend was right about
her
i had fallen in love with
her
but it was too painful to really think about again