"Ugh! It's been a week since I've seen Jordan." I whine.
"Will you stop complaining. He comes back today." Alyssa rolls her eyes.
Alyssa, Jake, and I are laying down on my bed, watching TV. Well, they're listening to me whine about how much I miss Jordan. We called each other whenever we weren't texting each other, but that wasn't enough. I need to see him. Touch him. God, I sound desperate.
"Yeah, late tonight. I'll probably be asleep by then." I sigh.
"Then you'll see him tomorrow." Alyssa says.
"This break was not long enough. I don't want to go back to school." I complain.
"Are you on your period?" Jake asks.
My cheeks turn red, "How did you know?"
"You're complaining about everything. Honestly, I can't deal. I'm going to Daniel's house." Jake stands up and leaves out the room.
"What's wrong with him?" Alyssa asks.
"His parents. He's been on edge lately because of them. They're constantly nagging at him and I guess my complaining didn't help too much." I tell her.
"Should we go check on him?" She asks.
"No. He needs to be around another guy right now." I say.
"I think I'm going to head out myself. I need to rest up for tomorrow. Tomorrow starts our first official day of practice." She squeals excited.
I laugh, "I'm kind of excited. I would be really excited if Virginia and Carmen weren't on the team. She's probably going to try and throw a ball at my head."
"And if she does, I'm going to get a bat and pretend her head is the softball." She smiles.
I laugh at her before hugging her and letting her leave. I lay down on my bed, feeling a little tired. I just need to stay up a little longer. I want to see Jordan tonight, but that means I can't fall asleep. About ten minutes later, my eyes start to feel heavy. My head starts to fall and I'm struggling to stay awake. Maybe I should go downstairs and get some coffee. No, I'll be up all night. I turn the TV up and focus on it, but it doesn't help. I'll just rest my eyes for a few seconds. I close them and a few seconds turn into a few minutes and before I know it, I'm asleep.
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I awake to tapping on my balcony door. I look at the time on my night stand. It's two in the morning. If this is Jake, I'm going to kill him.
I groan while getting out of the bed. I trip over a pair of shoes and almost fall, but I catch myself. I'm really sleepy. I open the doors to my balcony door with my eyes closed.
I hear a little chuckle, "Are you sleep walking, Midget?"
My eyes open rapidly and the sleep has left my body. My hands fly around Jordan's neck and he laughs at me. Jordan is a lot more important than sleep to me right now. He drags me into my room while I still have my arms wrapped around his neck.
I pull away from him. "I missed you." I smile.
He smiles, "I missed you more. I'm sorry for waking you. I was going to wait until school to come see you, but I couldn't sleep. I really wanted to see you."
My heart warms at the thought of how much he missed me. I kiss him on the lips and he kisses me back. We make up for all the time we couldn't kiss each other from this past week. We lay down on my bed together and I listen to Jordan's heart beat.
"Do you think that we will be together forever?" Jordan asks.
I look up at him and his eyes are real distant. He's thinking hard about something. I can tell.
"Yeah. I believe we'll be together as long as we don't let anything come between us." I tell him truthfully.
"Midget, I need to tell you something." He says, his voice shaky.
I yawn, "Can it wait until tomorrow?"
He smiles a little at me. "Sure. Just get some rest, okay."
I nod my head, "I love you, Jordan."
"I love you, Midget. Remember that if you don't ever remember anything else. Remember that I love you and will always love you." He kisses my forehead.
He must've really missed me. He's acting all weird like I'm going to disappear or something. I'll always be with Jordan as long as he allows me to. I love him more than I love myself and that kind of scares me, but I know that I can trust him.
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Jordan, Jake, Alyssa, and I walk into the school together. I'm running on about six hours of sleep and my brain is not functioning too well right now. I see Virginia passing out flyers to everyone, smiling like she's some type of angel. She's the devil if anything.
She sees us and comes walking over to us like she's on some type of runway. This girl needs some serious help.
"Jordan. Alyssa. Jake. And what's her name. Here you go." She hands each of us a flyer and drops my purposely when she gets to me.
I read over the flyer. It's the theme of prom and what not. I never actually too much cared for prom until now. I actually have someone to go with. Last year I didn't go. Jake and Alyssa tried to get me to go, but I had no one to go with. They each had dates and I refused to be the only one without a date. It would look sad and pathetic.
"Why are you passing it out so early?" I ask.
"Because prom is in two months. People need to have time to get their dress and what not. Not that you would understand. This would be your first year going, assuming that you are going." Virginia says.
Another person passes by and she hands them a flyer. "I am." I tell her.
"Great." She says sarcastically.
I roll my eyes at her and walk pass her. I don't have the energy to fight back with Virginia. I laugh to myself. Five months ago I wouldn't even think about talking back to Virginia. I still kind of let her run over me, but not as much. One day, I'm going to pop her in the mouth.
I go to my locker and take out my things. Jordan comes up beside me and smiles. His gorgeous smile can make anyone feel better.
"Why are you smiling?" I ask.
"Because. I'll be the first guy to take you to prom. I feel honored." He smirks.
I roll my eyes, "Oh, wow. You're special. You know that right?"
"But I'm your special guy." He smiles, kissing me on the lips.
"I'll catch you later. I have to get to class. I love you." He says.
"I love you." I say and we head our separate ways.
I fall asleep in all my classes, surprising the students as well as myself. I tried to stay up, but my body just wasn't having it. I have a one hundred in all of my classes, so I'm not really worried about my grades. When the final bell of the day rings, I get all my stuff and leave. I'm walking down the steps of the front of the school when someone bumps shoulders with me. I turn to see Stephen.
I smile sleepily, "Hey."
"Wow. Someone pulled an all nighter." He chuckles.
"You have no idea. Last time I ever stay up." I say.
"Where are you headed anyway?" He asks.
"Wishing it was home, but I have practice today. I'm headed to the locker room." I tell him.
He nods his head, "Well, have fun today. You'll do great."
He smiles at me before leaving and going to his car. Stephen is a really nice guy and I'm so glad we're pass our break up and everything. I go into the girls locker room and start to get dressed for practice.
Jordan's p.o.v.
I knock on the door of Ryan's house. I need to talk to him and he's the only one that will give me the honest truth and will tell me what I need to hear.
He opens the door. "Hey, man. Come in." He says.
I walk in and go down the hallway with him. I look around as if I haven't been in his house before. I smile at the pictures of us as little kids. We were so skinny and ugly then. We go into the living room and I take a seat in my favorite chair. He sits on the sofa next to the chair.
"So what made you stop by?" Ryan asks.
"The guilt. It's eating me alive." I come straight out and tell him.
He sighs, "I told you you should have ended this when you first started it."
"I know, man. I should have listened, but I didn't think I would fall in love with her. I almost told her last night, but she said we would be forever as long as we didn't let anything come between us. A bet would come between us. I can't lose her dude. She's the best thing that's happened to me." I say.
"You have to tell her. If she finds out another way she's going to hate you." He says.
I rub my temples, "She won't find out. We're the only ones that know about the bet."
"And you don't think that Troy hasn't told someone? He can't keep his mouth shut about shit. The guy lives for drama. He acts like a fucking girl. Him and Virginia would be perfect for each other." Ryan says.
"Troy knows I'd kick his ass if he told." I tell him.
He shakes his head, "When do you plan on telling her?"
"When we're married and she's living with me and we have at least one kid." I say, serious.
"You're kidding, right?" He asks.
"Nope. I can't take the chance of telling her and she breaks up with me." I say.
"Dude, tell her while you still haven't actually went through with the bet!" He slightly yells.
"I can't. I really want to, but I can't. I love her too much to hurt her like that." I sigh.
"You're going to hurt her either way, bro. The decision is up to you, but I think you should tell her. Since your parents died, there was always something missing in you. You weren't happy anymore. But when you found Abby, the light in your eyes came back." Ryan says.
Ryan is right. Abby filled something inside of me that was missing. She makes me feel like life is worth living. If I tell her, I risk losing her. If I don't tell her, I still risk losing her. What if she doesn't find out? I'm hoping she won't find out.
"I'm going to get going man." I tell him.
His face falls, knowing what I've decided. Ryan believes in doing the right thing and I know he disapproves in my choice, but he's not in my position right now. It isn't that easy to tell the girl you love, I made a bet that I could still your virginity and that's why I started talking to you, but I fell in love with you in the process and now I'm coming clean because I love you. Sounds ridiculous.
"Okay." He says.
I stand up, along with him, and we walk to the door. I open it and begin to walk to my car.
"Jordan." Ryan calls. I turn around and wait to hear what he has to say.
"Don't lose her." He says.
I look down before looking back up at him. I smirk at him to hide the worry I feel. "I won't. I'm Jordan, remember?"
He doesn't laugh like I thought he would. Instead, he closes the door to his house, leaving me standing there looking at the door. I hope I don't lose her.
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