I mustered the courage to ask him, but Ethan's response was unsatisfactory. Instead of answering directly, he asked back, "Why are you asking that all of a sudden?" or "Can I ask why you're curious?" As a result, the answer I got was a disappointing "Let's talk about it later since we're outside now." I had hoped to gauge what Ethan wanted in advance, so of course, I was dissatisfied.
'If he plans to, he should say so, so I can prepare...'
Since it had been a long time, I needed to prepare myself, too.
Iâd have to change into different underwear and make sure Eris would sleep in Isabel's room.
And⦠if he really does prefer doing it "that way," Iâd need to be ready for that, too.
'Come to think of it, itâs been almost a year since Ethan and I did it properly.'@@novelbin@@
Pregnancy and childcare had prevented it, but a year was still too long. For someone Ethanâs age, it must have felt even longer.
Since our misunderstanding was cleared up, we had occasionally engaged in things that wouldnât strain my body, but we hadnât truly shared a man-and-woman union.
Even without using his victory in sparring as an excuse, it was about time for us to return to our previous relationship. If I couldnât fulfill my role as Ethanâs wife, I wouldnât even have the right to ask him not to take other partners.
'I donât know if heâll want to do it tonight, but I might as well be prepared.'